Starting of the journey...

Today, marked the starting point...
It might be a long way to go...really...
Other things can be excused...
Handbags, shoes, shirts, foods, cheese cakes ...-.-...all can be excused....
But, the precious moment cannot be excused....
I admired it and been clinged by it for a long time...
Save the money...start from now...

One day in future, I wish to own you~~

NIKON D90...=)

Life still going on...

How time flies...it is the 8th month in year 2010....2010 is coming to the 2nd half end....Well, life still going on....and I love this sentence...life still going on..

Well well....I have been moved to my new house in last two weeks...I m still adapting with the new long distance to my school...How to say, i felt so sickening driving here...just like car racing every morning..And, why people always keep to the right?? Don't they know that, 'ikut kiri jika tidak memotong'? The board is standing there, big enough to see...Most headache one is the cars both at the left and right, driving at the same speed...oh..i really want to ram into the either one....yea....I should go out earlier next time....

Dealing with my darling room, well it is most arranged now, and i am grabbing my time, step by step to tidy it...I m still not satisfied with it...some corner still messy....just let it be la, I need to ready my exam paper first...

My life is given by God, I always remind myself to be thank giving, with everything I had in lifet...yea...desire sometimes shout suddenly...and sometimes been overwhelmed by it...but, return to the point, you are much more blessed by other....Never feel being taken for granted...accept what is not counting by you...life is still going on...

My mind was congested with travel...I want to go travel...to oversea...where is my kaki le???

Glory to the Lord...

Thank you, Lord...other then that, still Thank you...

It was BM Sunday Services on last Sunday...And, we prepared kids singing performance. We have been ready them for a month. Still remember in the first day of practice, the kids are so hard to control, even we need to shout at them...Indeed, they are what we called hyperactive, both the limbs and the mouths...We need to entertain them with tit bits some more....haiz...just like pampering the babies....

Time flies....it's the real day of performance....We all get ready for the kids to come....But, it's 6:15am...only 4 to 5 kids there...We have the last plan where all the sunday school teachers join the singing...oh....how come?? Praying in our hearts, God, we believe in You, for Your wonderful guidance...It's 6:30am....we saw a crowd of kids coming.....We all smiled...Their smiles even more adorable...

See...the kids are so excited....

They are rehearsal for the performance, to give the best to Lord...They had done their very best in the last....acknowledged by the claps from below....=)

The closing of the day...Glory to the Lord...=)

Servants to the Lord....Happy Serving!~

2010 with them...

The first class photo been taken in the first year of my teaching life....In 2010, i am with them....4A3 and I...=)

Life with kids...

It's Maths time for 4A3...The students stood up and greeted me....Good Morning teacher....Sit down class...I replied...After placed all the monkeys on their chairs, we started the lesson...

There is a kid talking while I was teaching....I purposely raise up my voice, to warn him I am talking now....Oh...he stunned, and kept quiet...What he said later, made me can't withstand to burst out a laugh!!!

Teacher, have you ever watched Jurassic park? This fellow is teasing me that I am like a dinosaur....I can't help myself to stop laughing...All the students laughed at me....My cheek turns so red...Stopped the lesson for few seconds, finally calm myself to continue...

I am the form teacher for this class...At first, I was in great worry in how to handle them. Out of my expectation, they are lovable...at least, they respect me and give me face as their form teacher...They are not brilliant in academic, but, they are nice...dunno how to describe the feeling....=)....Until now, I am still willing to serve them...sure, there are black spots there also, which might make me upset with them, but, always forget it with the smile on their face....=)

No more delay

I just listed down my to-be-done list...what a shock, the tasks are chasing me....tests and workbooks to be marked, meeting's minute to be done, and bla bla bla....What a mess...I have to do all of this in a short while....suffocating....

There are some changes in students....Oh man, I need to change the name list again...Tiring works....Every time, when there are new students been placed in my class, I will make them clear first about my rules...To be here, OBEY!..And, don't know I have repeated for how many times until the students couldn't bear with me....hahaa.....they said I am so wordy...='(...

Nudged myself, ya..I am becoming lazier....In previous, I will stay in school to finish my works first, works the first place...then packed to go home...But now, I trained or urged myself to go back as early as I could...I want to go back to my darling room...Rolling on my king sized bed, cooling by the air-cond, it is so comfortable...

Finally, I have my own room in new house...my privacy room...What a damn i wished for it for a long long time...Now, i can stroll around every corner....to place my footsteps at every corner....my darling room...

But, big headache now...we just moved everything from the old house in last two days....It is damn tired...Mom and Dad intended to move the old things here, made the new house so packed and messy...I don't like it....Anyway, hope that it might change back to its new looks....

And, there is a corner in my darling room where I mostly don't want to approach....I felt pening looking at it....lol...But, that's are all my properties...No way to throw away...=P...K, make a promise with myself, DO IT ON COMING WEEKENDS, NEVER TWIST DARLING ROOM INTO RUBBISH ROOM....Hmm....that's mean I am sleeping with rubbish every nite?! OOpppss.....

Where should I place you all??

Life still going on....=)

Rotten apple

One day, I saw a reddish apple..My goodness, it looks so juicy and fresh...So, I grabbed it home...However, day by day, when I wanted to dine it, the first bite gave me such an 'unforgettable' taste. its all rotten inside!! whao...what a great different from its outlook. How thanks, I noticed it earlier. It looks nice, but with time flies, we are able to notice the truest face of something or even someone...

Are you the rotten apple?

They are many rotten apples in this realistic world. But, we are blind sometimes, been cheated by their pretty or sincere outlooks...At the same time, we also purposely cheat ourselves, persuade ourselves with thousands of excuses. Yet, the mask of the rotten will be peeled down piece by piece. The true face under the masks will be sunbathed and bringing a great stun. But, don't be upset, at least, you have a chance to meet with their true face.

God created so many apples...There must be good apples there..Always, someone will be waiting there, walking towards us and bringing us the good apples...Never upset with realistic...

My favourite

My favourite milk , Desa fresh milk...like it very much....

Stamina of a day, 100 plus!
Tit-bit of a day...

Digit doesn't mean everything

It's the 2nd parents and teachers' meeting... I got a great melancholy after the meeting....same words and same thing i talked in the past meeting...Indeed, it is really a great responsibility once we gave a birth to a child. We need to take the responsibility to teach them, to lead them, to guide them, to encourage them and to forgive them. Even they are failed, they are still our kids....We have to pardon them...with patience and endless love...

Digit doesn't mean anything....Characters talking in my philosophy....Even they are not excel in academic, it doesn't mean that they are a failure forever....But, it's useless in reality world...In reality, digits talking..the more digits u achieved, the more succeed u were...Digits had covered their characters. They also have self-respect, but who are going to hear their cries? their griefs?

As long as a person have a great character, I don't think that he or she might face failure forever...Wish to help them, but dunno where and how to start from....as they are not appreciating as well...

Gov is going to abolish public examination, yet it's still under discussion. I gave a great thumb up to this good news...Smiled with tears, finally they recognized this problem...Students nowadays are exam machine, they studied just for exam, for the cert....But, they wonder what is the aim in the end...I wish the day to come faster, to twist the world of education in Malaysia...

Tolerate

Homo sapiens....we have been created in so many characters...but, still, where we were, where the mess there...

In reality, we need to carry ourselves nicely...tolerate with one another and try the best to solve the problems....But, how, if there is someone who never understand and even turns us down, how do we need to deal with?

We were in one team....what we need is reliable and responsibility....Hard and tiring...we keeps on pushing, but someone keeps on pulling at the another end....sigh...

Life for late

Been started work for the second week of working after holidays... life still packed with tasks, this and that....Students are still like before....I am feeling pity with them..wish to help them with whatever i could do, but, I don't know where to start from....and how to....
They came with empty brain, back with empty brain as well....Will there be a miracle someday?

How thanks I have things to do now...at least, mind no longer brimming with rubbish and somethings i wonder...But, how to do with holidays in September? I am terror with holidays now...Everyone anticipate for the holidays...but I m the reverse...When can I get out from the circle? indeed cling me for a long time...

Closing of the holidays..

Today, the last day of our three weeks holidays, it is drawing a close soon...I just read through the post that i wrote on the first day of holidays...how time flies, today, i will write for its closing....lolz...

Well, i didn't feel much reluctant for it...I even wanted the school days desperately...Maybe stay idle for a long time, fully recharged! I am ready! Have something to do is much better then nothing to do right?!

In this period, i had done with marking, table cleaning and vacation. The last one, house moving, only done half...I was headache to move my things to my darling room...I have too many pairs of shoes, bags and clothes...I wonder where to place all the things....My mom just teased me yesterday that the shoes I owned are enough to open a Vincci...Hahha...really? then I need to buy more to make it real...Shoes, my favorite item!

Talked with a friend this morning and listen to her plan for future...She is going to change her present mode, to upgrade her value...mean she is going to leave here...I did envy as she can choose with her own willing, but I can't...In previous, I will in great grief, but now, can be said, I am numb already...It doesn't mean that, i satisfy with my present mode...I still hope for a change ...But, i don't desire much...let it be...I promised to give myself 3 years, 3 years for me to love my job, 3 years for me to find my partner...If after 3 years I'm still the same, I will quit...It looks like a great obstacles in front, the most one is my parents....But, i will try to talk nicely with them....let them to understand me and give me support as well....The only thing that will change my mind is marriage. When meet with the right person, I will get married..

What a myriad world out there, but I just circling in my own world, the only world belong to myself, how tiny it was....

Yea...mind brimming with 'How are you' as well... Regard that I wanted to send most to a friend...Many hesitations congested as well...doubt how will it be after it been sent...Hope you are fine, friend....

Rainbow..

Rainbow after the rain...
it's illusive, it's authentic...
Dark clouds around...
just like a thief
come without sound, come without signals...
snatched our joy...
create a dead road just there is no way out...
Yet, the rainbow....
Its arise shaded the dark spot to become colorful, even just a corner or just a piece...
It's enough to put a grin on our face...

Always...
Life seems to be no way out, loaded with obstacles, loaded affairs, loaded with sorrows...
But, still remember God's promises and faith with God?
The promises under the rainbow....
God will make a way, where there seems to be no way

From: http://www.musicbabylon.com

Raise your head, look up to the blue sky...
Sky is not always cloudy...
Life is not always in low tide...
There is always a way out...
Always, a rainbow after a tempest...

Life without ups and downs is not called life..
It's called drama...
It's called wonderland...

Come on~~

How dirty is my table in the staffroom....I had made up my mind to clean up since last holidays in March...but sigh....the time always ran away from my palm...Finally today, I pushed myself to complete the mission...It's done and was quite satisfy with my job...Well done!~~

Before I tidy my desk, it is what a damn the lizard's stool are seen everywhere...yuck....disgusting~! I took out my drawer..Oh man~~ what a mess...
After I took out everything inside the drawer, my table is just like student's table, full with rubbish....LOL~~
Ok...now is time to arrange everything properly in my drawer.....Step by step...i almost done...singing the songs.....Out of my notice, the cover of the punch opened and left all the white snow inside the drawer...sigh...need to take out everything and restart again....
hmm....who's leg?

Deng deng....finally done my work....the messy drawer is now orderly arranged...but dunno will last for how long....hahaaaa.....

Oooppsss....forgot to take the photo of my desk...take it on the first of school day...

School is going to start, how many days left?
Countdown is coming...Anyway, this long holidays recharged me to face the coming challenges....
Well...not feeling reluctant, but anticipate for school days....

~The End~

Boy cannot do housework?!

Ah jie, sweap the floor...
Ah jie, wash the plates...
Ah jie, no more drinking water lo...
Ah jie, it's raining...collect the clothes...
Ah jie, don't just sitting there and watch tv lo...tidy the house~~ (even though their big butts are hot baking on sofa)

Sigh...this is what i heard every day and night in my house...I am a kakak now, even I am their kakak...

It's just like naturally, we won't ask the boys to do the housework...is it their hands are silver or golden made? I am definitely despise boys who never ever or don't know how to do the housework...There are one idiot in my home....Luckily not two...

Ok, this idiot, know only how to move his mouth, use his mouth to work...to order people to do somethings, to eat, to shout, to bla...bla...bla....his limbs are just a display, to show that he is a normal people...normal to have limbs, just enough for him to walk, to run, to drive the car....

My two brothers has pretty different characters. The elder one, lazy, hot-temper, big eater, big sleeping bug and dirty....The youngest one, the happy bug, more hardworking, easy going temper, big eater also, online game maniac and more hygienic...Well well...sure I love the youngest one then the elder one, he is much much more adorable....Sometimes, when I was running out of time, the youngest one will reach out to help...help to wash the plates, to collect the clothes and sweap the floor....I never saw the sleeping bug doing so...That's why i wondering...is it boys cannot do housework?

Guys must do the housework!! This is a merit in gals' eyes...as they know how uneasy to do the housework, how tiring it was~Standing aside, with hands on their hips...oh man....you are just a big rubbish to be sweep away... phew~~~~~~ Bingo!! into the bin!!

So now, do housework is noted down as my list....Disqualify if you don't know how to do housework!!

Happy 25th Birthday!!

It's my big day today!! I have gone through for 25 years, what a great blessing and pamper from God....Thanks for Your guidance in these few years...

I am a lucky gal...

To have Father in the heaven
To have family on the earth...
To have bosom and close friends around me...

Impressive song - 听妈妈的话

听妈妈的话

词曲：周杰伦 编曲：林迈可、洪敬尧 制作人：周杰伦 　歌手：周杰伦

小朋友 你是否有很多问号

　　为什麼 别人在那看漫画 我却在学画画 对著钢琴说话

　　别人在玩游戏 我却靠在墙壁背我的ABC

　　我说我要一架大大的飞机

　　我却得到一只旧旧螺旋机

　　为什麼要听妈妈的话

长大後你就会开始懂得这种话 哼

　　长大後我开始明白 为什麼我 跑的比别人快 飞的比别人高

　　将来大家看的都是我画的漫画

　　大家唱的都是 我写的歌

　　妈妈的辛苦 不让你看见

　　温柔的事 是否在她心里面

　　有空就多多握著她的手

　　把手牵著一起梦游

　　听妈妈的话 别让她受伤

　　想快快长大 才能保护她

　　美丽的白发 幸福中发芽

　　天使的魔法 温暖中慈祥

　　在你的未来 音乐是你的王牌

　　那王牌谈个恋爱 而我不想被你教坏

　　还是听妈妈的话吧 晚点在恋爱吧

　　我知道你未来的路 干嘛比我更清楚

　　你因为太多学习的同学在这块写东写西

　　但我在 妈妈我会用功读书

　　用功读书怎麼会从我嘴巴说出

　　不想你输所以要叫你用功读书吗

　　妈妈交给你的毛笔你要好好收著

　　因为不许告诉我 也告诉他我还留著

　　对了 我会遇到了周润发

　　所以你可以跟同学炫耀 赌神未来是你爸爸

　　我找不到你写的情书

　　你喜欢的要承认

　　因为我会了解你会在操场上牵她

　　你会开始喜欢唱流行歌

　　因为张学友开始准备唱吻别

　　听妈妈的话 别让她受伤

　　想快快长大 才能保护她

　　美丽的白发 幸福中发芽

　　天使的魔法 温暖中慈祥

　　听妈妈的话 别让她受伤

　　想快快长大 才能保护她

Kick back and relax...

Robotized for few months, now it's my own time to do my own favorite..

Well well...we just back from a vacation in KL and Penang, feeling so relaxing and recharged...probably aim for shopping and gathering with friends...On the day of flight, our flight delayed for 2 hours....sigh...the credit of Now Everyone Can Fly no longer a merit...Therefore, we arrived late in KL..Burger King is our first meal in KL.

We didn't do the shopping in the first day as we were very tired...After checked in, we just walk around the Bintang Street...what to say, big city, crowded!
On the second day, we were ready for our shopping journey. Sigh, it is not really the happy one....I strained my ankle before the journey...Oh, it is damn painful...How come?! i wore slipper only! At first, thought that my journey might be ruined...Thanks God, I still can walk around after a rest..=)

When we talk about Malaysia? What does it come first to your mind? Culture? good shopping complex? what else? Well, to me, indeed, Malaysian still need to improve their hospitality. We met with what a kind of rude salesgirls. Please, it's our right, our right as a consumer to choose, to buy or not to buy, it's our own business, you cannot force us to buy it! you need not come to entertain or serve us or even ignore us...we will more enjoy in this case...What a disappointment that day we didn't buy the things, then the salesgirl return back with harsh words...Oh man!! what a damn frustrating after heard her words, even I knew that is their style, their pattern as I experienced before in Penang. But, do you need to be like so, you are chasing your money away!! It spoiled my good mood!!..But just for a while la...not worth for such kind of nuts...

I didn't do much shopping in KL...maybe not my favor....haha...

The next day, we headed to Colmar Tropicale. The first time we been there...Spent whole day there...soak in the culture of France?! can it be? haha....some sort of la....but, nice scenic spot~

yOOOO0000....It's time to Penang! Some friends asking me, why you still want to go Penang, since you just went there last year and have been there for 4 years?! Well, Penang gave me lots of memories...I met with my housemates, my uni mates and most important, I met with my dear Father here...If I have not been here, guess no where am i now...I enjoy to shopping here, enjoy the delicacies and enjoy the culture here...This time, can be said shopping to the fullest...I bought 5 pairs of shoes!! what a shoes maniac!!hahha....but it's worth!

How time flies! Yesterday was the last day of the trip...Before we go home, my friends celebrated my 25th birthday. Touched to have their blessings...Well, for sure, still, my wishes are wish my family healthy and fine, and end my single life...hahahaha....

The end of the trip, aim for oversea for next vacation...Bangkok or Taiwan, will do....Count me in!!

Thanks guy, to meet you in my life...

He thought this is a game, he said this is a game...just a game...k, fine...we all quit from this game...

The end of the story, the story between us...I wondering is it a fault that we met up in the earliest? And, always, he back here, our conversation ended up unhappily...and he should be back here to reunion and enjoy the moment with his family...but, why always been ruined by me? it is indeed tiring..

Two is better the one? Not really...I am not despair with relationship, i just tired in this case and need time to recover too...pause first for the next and God's timing...Iwis, i decided too much thing with my own willing, i didn't seeking for His timing...Not need rushing rite....=)

In this case, i learn about many first hand lesson....Most, never involve too many parties....yea, it is good to have mutual friends, they are lubricants...But, when dealing with relationship, still, two parties are easier to settle....we never want to hurt anyone, but when comes to mess, mischief is hardly to be solved...even a sorry also doesn't mean everything....

I was so determined to make up my mind in before, no feeling, bye bye~~ I have to hold this principle tightly forever and after...in order not to hurt anyone...never be hesitate, never be shilly-shally...

My friend reminded me I shouldn't be harsh in order to let him give up even I was in madness...Ask him to cool down first and talk nicely to him....even we can't be couple, we still can be friends, forever friends...Thanks gal, for that day what a good timing you called me, as I was in great vexation in dealing with that guy....Otherwise, until today we are still in hatred...

For him, I was thankful...thanks for being so lovely and nice to me....thanks for sharing his works, his dream, his life with me...thanks for teaching me those lessons....We all grown up...for our next relationship...Even till today, we still no contact and I don't know, how is him now....but, at least, we are not in hatred anymore....Even he said this is a game, maybe from the earliest, he thinks this is a game dy...but anyway, I didn't blame him...as he gave more then accept...

Thanks guy...Wish you all the best in looking for your next relationship...you will find the one and the last...as you are not honored to be single rite...=)...Wait for God's timing....

So do I, waiting for God's timing...true love waits....=)

I like blogging~

Blogging allows me to shout out...

Blogging allows me to share life...
life as a Christian, life as a teacher, life as a daughter, life as a friend...

Blogging allows me to concede my guilt...
a scrutiny of my days of life...

Blogging makes me to be sensitive to surrounding...
to my life, to people in my life...

Blogging makes me to practice writing....
even nobody mark for me...lolz...^^

Blogging makes me have something to do during my idle time...
much better then shopping outside...

Blogging recalls my reminiscences....when i glance back, i put a grin on my face...
what a day full of memories...
...=)...

It's holidays....

Announcing the opening of the 3 weeks holidays!! Hurray!! This is the first time I feel so good to be a teacher...whatever...the reward for all teachers...

I have so many things to be done within these 3 weeks holidays....First of all, sure is finish marking the headache MT papers...Students grumble that it is super duper tough this time and I am gaining their suffer! Huh...why don't say u are underestimate MT?! or should say you still need to work harder...Marking their MTs are taking my time and spirit as well...I told my students I need to turn on the air-cond to the lowest temperature and the strongest level, put a glass of cold water on my desk, in order to cool me down while marking their papers....lol...haha...but i haven't start marking yet....Still left 3 bundles to be finished...

Shopping maniac is coming!! Yeah....going to KL and Penang in coming June....I want to update my wardrobe and my working suits...I am headache as everyday standing in front of the square box, rummage from the first to the last shirts, yet still wear the same suite...so, shopping to the fullest in coming week...

I want to move my everythings to my darling room in new house..It's time to do so, even i still prefer the old house....I always use many excuses to stay at old house....short distance to sch, many things to move, cannot online at new house...bla..bla..bla...lame...Every nite, I saw Mom and brothers busy moving the things to new house and I only say goodbye to them...Seeing Mom's back made me feel sorrow....Mom is no longer young, but she still need to do every tough works...I felt so unfilial with that....So, no reason to escape this time, i want to move~~

I need to tidy up my table in school....Lizard's stool has been accompanying me for a long time...yuck...I want to sweep it away...

hmm.....anything else? These are the major things I need to settle first...

Amazing~

It was 11:30pm last nite, and i was still thinking whether to continue marking the exam papers or not...there are 30 sets to be marked..

In the last, i used only one hour to finish marking all the 30 sets exam papers...12:30am, done my work...amazing rite?! Why? Because i draw more ? and X much more then a tick...I don't even need to figure out the workings, cos all are just nonsense...They don't even bother to answer the questions, how to give them marks...1 minute to mark each set? It's too much..

I was bothering, there are two papers for Maths this time, plus both papers there are all together 4 hours...What are they doing in these 4 hours?? Fishing, dreaming, staring, trance, sleeping? Before the exam started, i kept on remind them don't leave it blank, i can't give you any single mark if all blank....whatever, they don't even bother about their marks, all blank....In a nutshell, their brains are blank as well...

What can i do in order to help them to get a pass? just simply a pass...that's all....this time, the whole class failed for Maths. Last time, at least still have 3 get passed...The whole class completely annihilated this time...deng deng!! Game over!!

Oh....What's going wrong? This is Maths, is that tough to learn as the whole class is Chinese....Chinese should be brilliant in Maths, or they are special cases? I need to change my tactic and teach in the most simplest way....Start before it is too late....they really really cannot imbibe that much.............

Regret?

I should think twice..will i regret with my decision in future? What made me so determinant to reject him? what should i do in order not to hurt him anymore? what do i want? Headache....

There are so many questions in my mind now...

Distance? chatting, msn, FB...is different with face to face, the feeling is different as well....I can imagine how wonderful he is through texting, but when come face to face, the problems come....

Feeling? no feeling = no chance?ignore?

Characters?

Can we still be friend? he is a nice guy and good friend....

Lord, pls show me what should i do...i am tired....

Nothing??

Yo...just figured out that i just wrote two posts for May...May, May, you are a lonely month..well well, really no big events in May, other then school and home only....just i missed a dating with my old friends...hate it....school events again....

Never mind, there will be a lot of events in coming June....and holiday is coming!! Anticipating....

True love wait...

A big nudge to me last nite while join the fellowship...it answered me quite a number of ? marks....Indeed, true love wait...no need be so anxious about it...if it really ain't the one prepared by God, i don't want....and, i admit, i din have a proper relationship with Lord, but He still loves me....and He actually did prepare the one and the last for me, just the timing...Be patient for His miracle....

Busy, working is beating and bugging me for all the while.....I always use these such lame excuses to skip fellowship and services...Persuading myself, i am still the first yr in the sch, there are many things for me to ready, please, give me one year, after that, i will ready myself to indulge in services...Really? Are you sure you still can keep your promise after a year? The surrounding is keeps on changing..your heart, your mind might be changed also after a year....then, until that day, many many lame excuses will appear...Until that day, you are still at the starting point...

i hope i will not using it anymore...try my best...but i m afraid, the fire just burning for a while....after a few days, it will turn off....remind me...

God, i am sorry for what i have done for the late...My life is empty without You, i want to hold You tightly...even just Your garment..and thanks for not cast me aside...thanks for still loving me...I promise, true love waits, be patient with the one and the last you ready for me....be faith with You!

The richman and the villagers...

While the villagers are eating kampua mee and kongpia,there comes a rich man smiling at them. He says, I want to pamper this place, pamper this place with 1M,1B. I want to free you all from the nightmare. But, i need your voice and support..as we are in 1Unity, rite!

The villagers smiled and so appreciate his generosities....

However, years fly, the nightmare still haunting the villagers, they still eating kampua mee and kongpia with their foots soaking in the flood....sigh....

Its been a century that my hometown casted aside by the gov. And now it is in the eyes of all civilians...But just for this week. Due to a passing away of a renowned dato, kampua town no longer staying silent. Banner hanged everywhere, just afraid that you can't notice it...The top-notch servants spring up, to let you to glance a minute while they are doing the 'show'..It's show time, everyone...They are the best celebrities...

It is so realistic...Crammed at the last minute, what they want, we are clear about it...But, why don't you do this all start from the beginning? We are not taking for granted...
After this honeymoon week, will us still keep pampered by them?

I dunno what do i want now

For the moment, i am still trapping myself in a box...me myself still don't want to come out...what a stubborn gal....hard...and feeling suffering...i really dunno what do i want for the moment....

Everything seems so good to me...But i din appreciate at all..Everything is such a blessing....but....i don't appreciate it....what a bitch...

Please..God, i was so suffering now....life seems so boring now...i don't want to be like that for the rest of my life.....everyday the same old days.....so boring...boring...and boring.....when can i get out from here? from the trap?

Am i really want to be like so for the rest of my life? where is my next destination? or this is the end?

The forth month in 2010

It's been the forth month that i became the genuine teacher...Stil, life is packed with school tasks, even weekends also the same...i have no shopping for a month already..breaking the record....In my hometown, the shopping bug is not that active...why? The shopping bug is hibernating for June's shopping in KL...I was so looking forward for it...

My friend asking me how did i feel about my students now? For sure, i prefer them more than before...If not, teaching is a suffering stuff for me...i don't wanna be in such a hell....I figured out that, teacher has to be good in debate, debate with students and win them...Then, they will respect you a little little only...even just a little, it is good too....Otherwise, when they climbing up high there, you no longer can pull them down already...

Students are very emotional...it just like playing psychological warfare with them. They hardly can be prognoses. Ok...fine, i want to fool you back...change my pattern everyday...make you grasp the minds vain...hiak..hiak hiak...

The government are probing teachers' working tasks...Memorandum have been hand in for transformation. But when will it be? After n years, or after a century....

Do you believe?

Today's sermon preaching about this three words: Do you believe?
Believe in what? believe in yourself or believe in Jesus?
What a reminder to me....indeed, i was asking this question quite a frequent lately...
Frankly speaking, my faith is fading since back...mean, it is been a long time already...I was just like walking corpses...I dunno what is God's purpose for putting me here...I started to question, is that's all for my life?

Just by faith, not by sight...Until today, i still haven't entirely practice it or get use with it...Even i pray, but i m not fully entrusted...the sovereignty still in my hand, i am afraid when something is not in my control....

Pastor preaching that, let it go...don't truss up yourself...All you need to do is just a simple trust...He is a risen God, and He gave us promises that He will give the eternal love to us, from now to forever...you need not pay anymore, He had paid for us...

Last week, our Pastor Xie came back from Singapore training for mission. He shared with us how is he undergone the bitterly painful path while in Singapore..For sure, finance is the most huge problem. However, he learn one most important thing, even life ain't the adorable one, you still have to trough life actively and keep praying, praying and praying...God will guide you all the way...unexpectedly...

These two sermons was a great advice to me...I should not feeling pity with myself anymore...Do i really pray hard? or i just grumble when things coming up is out of expectation....just think about it...

Waiting with patient...with faith...

Toy from trash

"Ah jie....." I heard my brother calling me...with flying voice.. he must has something to ask for...
"Yes?", I replied..
"Ah jie, can you help me to do something with recyclable material?" he asking with shimmering eyes...
As I expected, he always speak in flying voice when he needs my help...cheh, realistic boy...lol

What a huge project to me...i have no idea of what thing to do....I searched online, nothing i get...My brother kept on reminds me everyday to complete this suck...He is such a lucky boy to have this sister....
Just yesterday, the last day before due date, i surfed again online to get some ideas....When i came to Youtube, what a great, I found this idea, Can aircraft...Phewit...I was so excited to start...

I get everything ready, the can, the scissors, rulers, super glue.....bla bla bla...And you know, while i am processing this thing, my brother is just sitting aside, watching me, laughing me....bad boy....huh....

For the very first step, i cut the aluminum can into pieces...It is damn hard to cut it...finally, got it...

Then, coil and staple it to make the body...

Then, combine them to make the body...

Then, proceed to make the wings, follow any pattern as I like...i just cut it into simple shape...
After everything is completed, glue them up...

Here it is....the toy from trash, a can aircraft....=)

The passing of a friend

Life is indeed unpredictable...I just knew her in secondary, but i am not really remember her. When i saw her picture, then i recognize her. It's been a decade that i din get any news about her. When i heard her name again, she is no longer here. Life is indeed incapable to predict...

While the world is still running, there is a person disappear into another world. It won't stop running for everyone...not you, not me.....treasure your life...

May she rest in peace...

Food for thought..

"4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

" ¹³And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."

1 Corinthians 13:13

This is what i read this morning...
The happiness is landed on me, however, i let it go...

Afresh

I am what in a low passion lately....I easily get influenced by other, envy or admirer things belongs to other, but i never see what is in my hand...

I shouldn't be like this anymore...what for i kept on thinking something nonsense and useless? life still going on...time won't pause for anyone....only you chasing the time, not time waiting for you...

Think twice...even the present mode ain't the loving one, at least you are much more blessed than others...what so pity? you are just inviting ridicule rebuff...

Have you forgotten your family?

Have you forgotten your friends?

Have you forgotten the blessing is bounding you?

You are not blind, just you intended to be blind...purposely to be blind and deaf...

Holidays is drawing a close soon...Afresh and restart again...

Dream

We were ready to march forward...to face the world...no more in the comfort zone..

A bright future is waiting in front..

However, i am not satisfy with my present mode...
My ego is going to kill me...
I admit, i am a greedy gal..

Her life has been changed..

I went as a volunteer for life game for 4 days 3 nites. Still remember that, i was so hesitated in decide to go or not to go that day, as my best friend is not going...Yet, my mind stopped bugging by this verse...

"For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve" Mark 10:45

Again, i felt that i was so close with Father. This kinds of feeling was lost for quite a while since back here..This verse popped out that day, just like He wants to remind me of something....I shut up and decided to go at last....

For the first day, I can't have a hand in with other volunteers...I was feeling strange as no one who familiar is around...Indeed, Lord will guide us all around. I met with this gal. She is my ex-student. I can frank to tell you that, she is what a nonsense and headache before. I didn't teach her, i just went to her class for sit-in. But, can you imagine there is a student who can give you such a deep impression even you din teach her? I remember most because she is so 'diao'. She ignored you as invisible and never do her works. She just knows talking, talking and talking....What a great headache! Believe me!

BUT! This time, when I saw her, she is no longer the old one, she has been changed, changed a lot....She started to go to church, doing services, and the most important is she breaks off with her bad friends. She knows what should and shouldn't do...She cried while she shares her affairs... I was so glad that i was there to see this miracle....She confessed everything, repented and mended her ways...What is the power besides THE POWER OF LOVE?

Doing as volunteer really gave a great refreshment to me...It's been a while that i din be that enjoy and free my mind...School stuffs and affairs made me suffocated, made me like a robot to pass the life...indeed BORED...The delight as a server will never be replaced by anything...Even we were tired, but we knew what we were doing and for whom...Even until the last minute, some of the kids are still the old one, but, someday, there will be also someone like this gal, changed and renewed....God's timing ain't our timing.....Rejoice in Lord! =)

The gal and i...In Life team March 2010, YMCA

Photos with other volunteers

Y.M.C.A

The big Y

The Family photos!! Nice first attempt..

before to camp

This is the post that i wrote before i go to camp...wish to have a new attempt in this camp...and recharge myself...
Wondering, is it staying in comfort zone for quite a long time..I am lazy and worry to go...worry to face the strange environment...

Anyway, i think everything will be fine.....Wish me good luck...


"For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve" Mark 10:45

Unwittingly, hurted someone...

Unwittingly, I hurted someone...

He is nice, good, patient and considerate...

But, i have no feeling towards him, just treat him as my friend. He said he succumbed after i responded to him. I am sorry...still not the timing yet...

Anyway, we were still a great friend now, he is my newly met friend and we have a long chat last nite....glad to see that he is fine....We talk more compared to before, sharing life, sharing working experience, sharing future plans....he is indeed mature thinking..but why, i don't consider him?

Since i ended secondary, I seldom or can be said non...feel attached to someone...That's why i am still single now...Am i over-enjoyed single life? I love to be alone? definitely no....I want to have my own household, my own baby...just i haven't meet with the one and the last....

My bosom friend always remind me, list out the criteria and pray for my future partner. Ok, now i state it here and pray...

Lord, here come my prayer for my life partner, who is the one i wishing for....
1) For sure, christian! have strong spiritual life than I..as I was damn poor...
2) Humor...I can't withstand mute...
3) Have a professional carrier ( no doing sales pls)
4) > 170 cm...easiest right..
5) No bad habits
6) not need handsome, but good looking...
7) guitar admirer....i wish to learn it..
Lord, done or not done, it's all rely on you...
Amen....

My friend did experience it, she prayed and just within a month, she met with him..now they are pondering to get married....i just think that it is just a coincidence....

Lord timing is not my timing.....i am still anticipating for it...

Hot! Hot! HOT!!

The sun is burning outside...the earth is screaming 'I am exhausting'....everyone is screaming...raining please...PLEASE!!!

Realistic

When we stepped into working field, is that true we will be realistic? we want everything to be good to ourselves only, yet ignored other..if we be mercy to other, then is our death...quite a self-conflict a while lately...

I don't want to take advantage on other, but situation forced me to do so...can i use this as a reason to let myself feeling better? I am selfish i admit...But, why must be me? is just because i am a junior? i am still a fresher? You bumped the unwanted to me, then, that's mean i can only accept? even I am not happy with that?! What a nonsense!!!

Homo-sapiens..the most complicated creature in the world...

The last day of Jan 2010

It's the last day for Jan 2010...how time flies...I have been a genuine teacher for a month....

Frankly speaking, i still can't believe that i am a genuine teacher now...I can't imagine in my hand how will the kids be after a year...

I teach one good class and one weak class plus a foundation. I faced a great challenge in teaching the weak class...Like the same as my practical time, I need to brief up all the important points and teach them in the most simple way...My mission is to teach them to pass, not to get an A, or B, or C, or D. Sometimes, i facing failure...They hardly can understand or master a topic...Sometimes i felt weird...They still don't know what is the whole topic talking about after I done the whole chapter....Oh...what a great stunning to me!! i felt a great pity on them...They have been studied for at least 10 years, but their standard is not equivalent to their syllabus...Oh...

If you comment that i am the lucky one, yea...i agree with you too...I have been posted to my own hometown and get to teach my own major. Before the posting, we all afraid that we will be posted to outskirts....but who knows, get own hometown...then afraid again that won't get our major as my hometown was crowded with science teachers....yet, who know, get to teach also....I am blessed indeed...

Yet, somehow, i still not satisfied with it...

Don't know why, i am afraid other ppl will know that i am teacher... I don't like ppl asking me this kind of questions...

Don't know why.....................

Sophaholic....

I think I was too stressed lately...

It is Friday yesterday...After I finished marking the exercise books, it was 3:30pm in the afternoon. It was raining cats and dogs outsides....No deal, I wait till 4pm...I was so blur at that time...Finally, I can go home....

While driving, I suddenly have the urge to shopping....Oh...CNY is around the corner...Thereafter, I drove to Parkson, the only place I shopping here....As it is still raining, so, i parked my car at the car park...Walking with flying legs, it's shopping time^^...

Oh....There are too many choices for jeans. I need to update my jeans...as all are quite loose after years...I bought three pieces of jeans, one piece of skirt and one piece of shirt.. All together RM157.65...Ok, then i went to pay the money...Oh man!! My cash are just exactly enough to pay it!! But, how to go home? My car was in the car park!!!

What a coincident my hp was flat that time....I rummage my wallet and handbag...Thank God, i found 30 cents...=')....smile with tears... I used the only 30 cents to call my Mom to rescue me....Get the money from Mom and drove myself home...

On the way, thinking that I was just an insane...what a big laugh to myself...=)

Nauseating....

Do you ever see this? You can also swim here besides swimming pool....good idea...saving money, saving time and sunbathe....

I think this is the n time i saw these boys swimming in the drain...very disgusting....Imagine that, the amoeba, paramesium, euglena is swimming together with them, not only around them, but also inside their blood vessel...together with their lungs, with their heart....What an unbridled 'sport'....yuck...

From mono to poly, from B & W to colour screen.....

I got a new handphone lately...it was from my brother...no deal, i always use the second hand ...hmm....it doesn't matter as i am not hand phone madman...

Well well, it's been the 2nd week i used it. Overall, i was quite satisfied with it's function...It has wifi connection, therefore, while in school, this is the only entertainment for me during free period. I was mad to online with handphone now...haha...use it to update my FB status, to check mail, to reply msgs....bla bla bla...one more thing, it has nice stereo...I am loving it...

Well, i guess this is the 8th handphone I used. Still remember that I have the very first handphone while i finished F5 as I do part time job in the holidays...therefore, Brother gave me his handphone...2nd hand again...haha....It was 8250, i used it for about 3 years i guess..

Then, I got the offer to uni...then, Mom bought a new handphone to me...Fuyoo...finally have my very first brand new handphone...That time i was frenzied with folding handphone, so, I choose Samsung E600..the very first Samsung handphone i used... But i just used it for 3 months i guess..it's has a bad function.

Then, I changed to Sony Ericsson T630, as saw some of my friends using it, and sounding good....Oh...i can say that, this is the most unlucky handphone..It 'died' so badly....Just that day, i put it on a cupboard, then someone calling, and it dropped from the cupboard...the screen, all spoiled....I was so pity to see on it...Anyway, i still not convenient in using Sony or Samsung, i admit, i still prefer Nokia...

Thereafter, my brother gave his handphone again...again, 2nd hand...haha...the pink Nokia 3100..Another story for this handphone...I took it to Penang in my 2nd semester of first year...That day is Chap Goh Meh, I just back from shopping with friends...damn tired...I just throw my shirts and pyjamas into the pail...then open the water tap...After the water halfly covered the dirty shirts, i just realized that i forgot my hp in my skirts!!!! Oh man...I cried as I thought that i need to buy a new hp again...I felt so guilty that time cos i changed quite a number of hp before this....Then, i try to hair dried it....So thanks, it still can be used...

Then, is the most long life handphone to me...Nokia 7610...Again, from my brother too...I used it until I graduate...It is really good hp. I like its camera, clear and sharp...I always use it to self-portrait...haha....In between, I also use Nokia 6288 and 5610, but all have a short life span...what a pity....

And, the last one, N81, my darling at the moment....^^..Again, from my brother..haha..

Blogging with my new handphone..

I just get a new handphone last few days..it is N81. I love it very much now...as it has wi-fi connection..thats mean i can connect anytime i like as long as there is wireless..So,now,i testing by blogging online in school..its work! So,this is the first post i written by my new handphone..

WITH ALL I AM

This is a christian song sang by Hillsongs...I was quite keen on this song lately, even I had listen to it for a few years dy...It's lyrics is like so:

Hillsongs United - With all I am
Into your hand I commit again
with all I am for You Lord

You hold my world in the palm of your hand
and I'm yours forever

CHORUS
Jesus I believe in you Jesus I belong to you
You're the reason that I live the reason that I sing
With all I am

I'll walk with You wherever You go
through tears and joy
I'll trust in You

and I will live
in all of Your ways and
Your promises forever

I will worship I will worship you forever

Still remember that, that day, i was on my way to school...woke up quite early in the morning, as have duty for these three months...When I listen the chorus part, unpredicted, I cried...Tears rolled down my cheeks..."Jesus I believe in You, Jesus I belong to You". I know, Jesus wants me to be here, He has He owns reasons....I don't know when I will get to know it, but, He had planned everything to me...

While getting older, I did frustrate with future...I still have a lot of plans that haven't undergo yet..I still have a lot of places that haven't go yet...Sometimes even have a lot of ideas, yet, I hardly can deal my own favor...

I have a pretty picture with my future...I want to have my own home-sweet-home, have my own babies...During family day, I have my hubby sitting besides me and I can rely on his shoulder, watching our babies walking towards us..In the evening, we can walk hand in hand at the garden, with our babies....When we are old, we still sitting on the bench, watching our children bringing our grandchildren walking toward us...

Who said I don't want to get married?

Blessed year

Year 2009 is going to end soon...2 days left... Then, we have to say again, Adieu 2009, Aloha 2010!!
Every year, until this moment, we will look back what we have done for this whole year....Yea, at this moment, i confess, 2009 is a blessed year to me... indeed..

In the earliest of year 2009, I attended my practical school, together with Belle...And glad that, even we were tired and full with challenges, but thanks, we have nice teachers and colleagues...We finished our practical...with flying color and happy ending....

In the mid of Year 2009, I went back to my hometown, with fullest of unwilling....Mind brimming with grudge...the dark moment in my life after went back...I don't want to stay at home, I want to go away, but I can't choose my way...Bickering, wrangle, squabble congested my home...But, thanks, I have undergone it...

Then, is time for GSTT...I rejected the offer from my most wanted school...But, thanks, what i got for the rest is much more then what i have wished...The blessing is ample...I met with the lovable kids in the school, the nice and friendly principal and the good colleagues....

In August, I graduated...Mom and Dad have their very first child wearing the graduation gown...I am glad to be their proud as well...At this moment, I no longer a braces gal. Two years of braces life ended too with my foot stepped out from the threshold of my university...Hurray!!

I met with a lot of friends this year, as started to have fellowship here...I have tried to be usher as well in my church...Since i will be staying long here, then I cannot stop my service as well, this is the basic responsibility for every Christian...

I went to 3 schools this year, and the third school will be the most challenging school to me and i will be in this school for a long long time, i guess....Maybe 2 years, 3 years, or even 10 years.. O.O!!!

Sometimes i am thinking that, i am a rebellious gal and full of sin...as i always quarrel and irrespective to my parents, to my friends and never think for others...But, why? why He still loves me? sustained me to encounter everything? years by years....

Single is a sin?

Is single a sin? Why you are still single? Why no boy friend? Oh...everyone is urging me to pah toh...It's my deadline....

Lately, there are so many anonymous texting me...I was bored with that. When we exchange FB, I have that kind of feeling, am I that lousy to meet with them? Why do I need such a way to meet my life partner? Is that a sin if I have never been fall in love before?

No feel is zero feel...how to start if really have no feeling with them? Love is never try....It is hurting if not managed properly...I don't like matching!

Caroling in hometown

This year I have Christmas celebration in my hometown...Every year, i was so looking forward for the Christmas...But, this year seems nothing fresh...the mood, no longer enthusiastic...

Don't know why, I was quite down with my social relationship now...From today's caroling, i just realize that hardly can find a close friend to accompany me to go....I suddenly felt that, where is my friends? I hardly can find some intimate friends to hear my mumbling....I was quite down now....even I still said Marry Christmas to everyone....Such an irony, huh?!

A friend have been posted to Bintulu..She was cried once she knew the news...I was sad too....She is the one who i always phoned when i want to have a long chat...She will always listens and then say something to cheer me up....She is the type free to play and kidding one....But now, she is going soon....haiz....sigh.....

She is Irene, the tallest gal....
This pic was taken when we are doing a farewell for another friend....let it be her farewell too....
Bye gal....meet you soon in Chinese New Year...All the best!!

Merry Christmas!

Wish to have a different Christmas this year, but seems that everything still the same.....

It is Christmas today! Have a blessed Christmas everyone!!

Ending?

Year 2009 is drawing a close soon...It is 10th of December today...But there are lots of thing not yet a close....

The hottest news that hauling 7 billion people in the world, the Global warming...Is it ended?
This is no more a fresh news, years and years it been repeated and have been highlighted for n times....but there is no conclusion at all...By all means, Climate Conference 2009 in Copenhagen is what a damn essential to solve this problem, but where are the solutions? Earth is gaining hot and hot....Warning have been given that if the Earth's temperature gained 4c, then there will be the end of the world..the real end! Those who attending the conference are all like famous celebrities. They have a great show in the conference. What a great condolences that not only them, but us too...We are just like a frog beneath the transparent well, we know what is happening outside, but we have no action...Have eyes, but can't see, have ears, but can't hear....

Starvation...Is it ended?
7 billions population in the world, 6 billions have 3 meals, yet, 1 billions having starvation...When you are putting the bread or chocolate into your mouth, do you ever think that there is a kid who is far away from you having kwashiorkor now? We were so blessed now, as we always have a full tummy, but what about them? Don't grumble that you are not full yet, be grateful that you have food to eat....

Economic decline...Is it ended?
World Economic have no bright future for the moment....In America, there are 1540 millions unemployed. Among 3 families, there are one unemployed family. Life is gaining harder and harder....

Abortion, divorce...Are these ended?
Once a pair decided to marry, they had promised that they will love each other till the end of the life...But nowadays, divorce is simply done...Just a signature, you are not my life partner anymore...
I don't want this baby...just abort it...I hate this baby..This is not my baby...just abort it...Abortion is simply done nowadays...

Where is the ending? Or I should ask, will there be an ending? Sigh...

Grandpa

Grandpa was passed away last Monday...All were very sad that day...A bit fine now...

Grandpa...May you peace in God and let's God leads you to the promised place....I love you...

Diet is a long life story

I have been seriously to keep fit since i back to my hometown, since June....Till now, it's the 7th month I putting much effort on it...Glad to see the result as my weight lose from 55kg to 51 kg, even just a decrement of 4 kg, but it is a great succeed to me dy....Give myself a big clap..^^...I have never lose any single kg in before...But, my ideal weight is 47 kg, still have another 4 kg to cut....No change at all now....=(...Hmm...

I think i need to find another way to make it real....My diet plan is, exercise for at least 40 minutes everyday and control my mouth....I always defeated by the food, this is what most bothering me now..as I am a big-eater...hehe...Just step by step, don't give up and satisfy with the present mode!!!! Diet is a long life story.......