A day to remember.......25/7/07

finally i have the full set of my braces. the wire finally being installed and now, started the my braces life...no doubt, it is really painful and awful, not at the time installing the wire, it's not painful at all... but is a few hours after the wire being installed...it is that kind like, u are having a decayed teeth inside your mouth...whole of ur teeth is hurt... really !!!!really awful and painful...

last night, i was cried...it is too hurt...even i just scroll my tongue around my tooth or just open and close, it makes me feeble, cant do anything and hard to concentrate....and now, i have to take more than half an hour to finish my meals, eat slowly, eat fluid meal....yuck......damn troublesome...ohoh....hungry now, no rice but porridege....sobsob...T.T

My love will get you home

this is a lovely song that i was fiendishly like, after i watched "The Last breakthrough" (a Hong Kong drama series). check this out.....
My love will get you home

if you wander off too far
my love will get you home
if you follow the alone star
my love will get you home

if you ever find yourself losing long alone
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home

if the bright lights blind your eyes
my love will get you home
if your troubles break your strike
my love will get you home

if you ever find yourself losing long lone
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home

if you ever feel ashamed my love will get you home
whenever is only you too blame my love will get you home if you ever find yourself losing long alone
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home

if you ever find yourself losing long alone
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home

thank you, dear friends...

now i know, i was so blessed...just because i have the ever and the best friends...since last sunday, they helped so much...they don't care about their sleepyness, their tiredness, they just helped me as far as they could...i was so touched......they were so sincere...

guys, telling you that, without you all, anything won't be work smoothly..no one will see the success...everything just ended with zero...we know, we are doing this is just for the only one, the only one who is worthy for all of these things, THE LORD, Our Father... we want to give Him our best, as He is deserved for these all...

guys, thanks a lot...i was so touched!!

hurtful...painful

it is really painful...the braces keeps on rubbing my mouth...damn hurt!!! and now, i can't even eat hard food, u can't imagine the agony...it's drove me crazy...it just like, ya, you know that ther is wound around there, but u cant do anything to remove the it...i cant withstand with it anymore, it's just starting and i am almost give up...wondering why some of them who is wearing braces is just like a piece of cake, but i just like fall into hell...ahahah......it is really painful...helppppppp!!! feeling so pity....:(...

God, pls, pls give me support, i dont want to give up...and it is no way for me to give up...i just hope that it will be less pain....

braces installment

haha...finally my braces is being installed, but it is not complete yet, as the wire is not yet be installed...well, it took overall 40 minutes to finish all the procedur. firstly, the dentist washes my tooths...hmm...the water he spray got lemon flavour...ahha..quite nice....

i am nervous at first, coz he didn't tell me what he is going to do....after 40 minutes i lie on the chair, it is not painful at all....sure la, the dentist havent install the wire yet to drag the tooths all together...sure not painful la...it will be done on next week, then i will be extremely suffer!!! :(

then, after all, i was shocked just as i looked at the mirror...wao...my tooths just like a broken teeth...so ugly ne...and it is uncomfortable as the metal will rub with my lip and my tongue...hmm....it is hard to eat also...

now, the braces is my tooth's darling now...if i dont care of it, it will 'attack' my teeth.. it is a part of my life now, in these 2 years...a long way to go...be patient, don't be awkward with it...smile as usual.......say cheesse....

the 3rd tooth out today

finally a total of 3 teeths were pulled away...how fast it is, it just took 15 minutes to have a tooth out...today, feeling just like usual, nth special and no more phobia...haha...

by the way, i wish to install the braces the faster the better, as the big hole is noticeable, made me not dare to laugh big...hmm...=

ooo...my teeths

finally, i took a big nerve....my heart beats fastly when i was on the way to the dentist clinic...my mind kept on thinking about how is gonna be later on? will i cried out? i am really really nervous to pull the teeths...oo-h-h...i pulled my teeths not because my teeths was decayed...i am going to do orthodontic....hahah....it is really a breakthrough for me...actually i did think of it b4, since my teeths started to grow distortedly...but, i know, it's just a dream, due to many circumstances...

to be honest, since that, i was so self-abased...how ugly is my teeths, i was so envy with those who have a row of neat teeths...after i grew up, mom said that, it is not really bad looking, and just like the japanese gal, so cute...haha, sounds good...then, years passed, and i dont ever think about it in that few years...just deep buried in my mind......

but now, i made a change of mind! I want to have a tidy teeth as well!! dad was so supportive and determining with it, he just told me, go ahead...no need worry about anything...just do it, dad, thanks for ur concern, i appreciate it...and mom also gave me big courage...i struggled...

but at last, i pulled my teeths, as an initiation. overall, i need to pull 3 teeths, to give an enough space for the adjustment...
acutally, it is not painful at all, to pull the teeths..i was over-reacted..haha....even the dentist keeps on telling me, dont be too nervous la...not painful...haha...while the dentist is pulling my teeths, maybe my teeths is too strong or what, he pulled hard and my teeths 'flies' and hit on the wall...i heard the sound and saw my teeth on the floor...oohhhooohh...my teeths....:(.....

it's gonna be a history..no more reverse lo...so, now just waiting for the date to install braces...and it will be a date to remember...still a long way to go............:)

what has gone wrong with her????

today's headline on Star, 'Girl killed'. she was only 3 years old...and how sad she was killed by her lovely mom...hey.. is her mom, how ridiculous and how cruel is her!!! how come she did that to her children? what is most despicable is the violent crime committed against the defenceless children.......what a pity...

why take the life of an innocent child? they are naive, they dunno anything...they dont do anything harm, but why? why they do such thing to them? what they want by killing the children? is it just for own desire? just for their own dread? hey, stupid woman, you want to start a new life with your new boy friend, you don't want your children to impede you...so, you made them lost by killing them...how dare u do that? do you ever think that, they were now here is because of you, you are the one who bring them here...they are such cute, naive....but how u dare to put the knife on their neck???? you know, SOB..your child wants you to protect them, not to hurt them..

i was so sad while reading the news. The child, Shearwey Ooi Ying Ying, was killed by her mom. her fragments strewn in at least four different places in penang...how sad is that gal was born in this kinds of family...hope that she was peace in God...

a spell of my recent life....

it's really tired these two days as it is our registration day for our new semester...the 1st day (yesterday), we walk for about 8 hours around the school just to finish our registration. it included waiting for registration , go to language school to find out whether we were accepted for language or not, ...bla...bla..and the most complex one is arrange the schedule...we need to arrange the timetable ourselves and decide the papers to take. if there is any crash, we cannot take it, or even it is crashed, we still need to take it, if the units is not enough...damn, why we need to do this all this sucks??!! we were scared...anxious...afraid...we wonder if we missed one of the class, what will we lost? if there is a test for both, how we gonna appear in two places at the same time?! it is ridiculous...other uni students not even really need to worry about this, because they had registered earlier before the previous sem ended or the uni already arranged everything for them....

i think there is really need a deep change of our school system, it is really out of date....the most hated day, in the beginning of every semester...we were doing the same stuff for every semester...

it is not the end of the story for yesterday...ok, after we done everything, we were really happy. u can't imagine the tiredness...we were really really exhausted... and the only one thing we wanna do is go home...but, just when we stepped out, o-o-ohhh....the clouds is dark outside...then...raining!!!GOSH....penang is never raining lately..it is damn hot!! we were sweating everyday... but why it is raining on that day?? just after we wanna go home...the heavy downpour made us all like a 'lok tong gai' ya....haiz....wat a bad day...

i think the only entertainment lately for me-watching 'Prison Break'. i am 'sticked' to it..really fascinated with it...u will absolutely up and down with the progress of this series, it will bring u along just like you are one of the characters inside...Excellent!!!

五味杂参的心情。。。

明天就要回槟城了。。。现在的心情很舍不得。。。舍不得爸妈，舍不得弟弟，舍不得一帮死党。。。还没长大的我，依然想躲在父母的臂膀下，想要时时刻刻都呆在他们的身旁。

爸妈慢慢的老了，我很怕那一天的到来。那一天还未信上帝的父母将去哪里呢？而现在的我还有剩多少时间来孝敬他们呢？ 父母总是对我一呼百应，他们那无私的爱，是多么的无价。希望我持续的祷告，主会垂听我，不放弃我的父母。就像我最近所看到的一篇见证，作者是祷告了整整25年，主才应许他，他的父母才信主。那一杀那，所作的一切都是值得的。。。可是该如何让我父母有这个感动呢？

dad,mom,take good care of yourself....pls forgive me for cant stay long by your sides...i love my family....