Shoes collection

Now i know, i have a lot of shoes....okay, i admit, i like to buy shoes...haha...

When i go to church or special ocassion, i wear these...the high-heel shoes

This is the one i most like...for the moment..haha

Previously is this

But, i seldom buy this kind of shoes, as it swelters my legs and made it felt mugginess inside the shoes...This is the first wrapping shoes that i bought, as i like the pattern....

For the high-heel shoes, i always face this kind of problem...headache...The heelpiece often shelled...is it due to my walking posture? wondering...

Here comes the sport shoes...When i go to school,

I will wear this, but a bit spoiled already...i just wore it for almost two sems i think.

But, for this one, i just wore it for one time. Mom bought it for me in Miri, but it is a bit tighten and made my legs uncomfortable....I was tired in buying sport shoes, almost every two sems, i need to buy the new one...so, this time i decided...and, finally i have a better sport shoes...

The very first Nike shoes i bought...^^..i am loving it....

Hmm...then, what kind of shoe i wear when i go shopping?

This all owed to this shoes, if not, where i can walk and shopping for a long time to buy all that shoes??!! I like to wear flattie when i go shopping, if not, i will have terrible cramping legs...haha...

My collection of shoes...^^

P/S: Coming next, earrings collection.

原来我只是一个井底之蛙。。。

好不容易，这个学期的小组开始了。可能是最后的机会给我做这小组的组长，心中有好多好多的想法，好想好想做些我应该做，但还没去做的事。以前，我为小组付出太少了，我只是因责任而去做，为责任而服侍，为不让别人失望而去做。我总是以别人的标准衡量自己。每一刻我都感到疲惫，心灵的空虚。我从没问问我自己，你的心真的有在小组吗？ 你是为什么而做的？

一个学期过去了，你能为小组做的没剩多少时间了。昨天的小组，给我一个当头棒喝。原来我和其他拜偶像，信佛的，没什么两样，对自己的信仰一点都不了解，对自己的信仰有听没懂。只不过我比他们幸运点，因我相信的是今在，永在的真神。很多福音的故事，福音的真理，我都不知道。我很惭愧，因我亏欠了神。我承认我从没向身边的人传福音。他甚是爱我，但我有为他做过什么吗？只是自私的只把他的爱佔为己有。只因我害怕，害怕被别人问倒了。

我对自己的鞭策太宽了，只想得过且过，过了一天是一天。但，到基督再来的那天，我该拿什么去对他交代呢？神说，你没带一个灵魂来，你凭什么进入我的国？！

Desire

There is too much things i desired for..
Desired for vacation...
Desired for shopping...to buy a lot of things..
Desired for good achievement..
Desired for love....

Oh man....How greedy i was...I was so lose in last week... I expected i could achieve Dean list in this sem, but, i expected too high for it, i didn't get it, just a few few few point, i could achieve it...man, this is the 3rd time, the 3rd time i can get Dean list by a finger's breadth...i was so dissapointed at that time when i get to know those who get Dean list in last sem may have a meeting with Dean....I was lose... I don't desired too much, I just wish that i could get just once, just at least one time in my 4 years (8 semesters), but I didn't get, even once...I asked Lord..what do You want me to know? What do You want me to learn? patient? faith? i was totally lose my faith to Him at that time...Lord, is that you want me to know, the more I want, the more You dont want to give me? The feeling is just like........i don't know how to express....

In that whole day, i pretend myself to be happy, to be as usual, don't want to let anyone to see the true I...i was so sad actually at that time...even i was smiling, but not with the true smile..hard to understand right? u can try it yourself....

Again, I wish to meet my true love, but searching in 23 years, i haven't meet with him yet...the unknown him....feeling dissapointed with that....Where is my love?!!

But, Lord never forsake me...He still loves me...He still loves me....Just in last prayer meeting, He told me by the persons besides me, don't lose faith with Him, but with just believe and just simply be faith in Him....This song '坚定相信' gave a big nudge to me....I cried...The tear just rolling down my cheeks...God sacrificed Himself for you, for all of us to have a new life...but you lost faith in Him just because of a bagatelle...It is really a big waste for His love...ya....where is your faith? from mouth saying that you believe in Him, but how is your heart? i should not repeat my mistake ever and ever again...Now, i am not dare to desire, putting high expectation for everythings....I just want to be easy and simple, not too much desires, but just simple....I have been frightened by desire......

It is the 3rd week since i back to Penang...In the past 2 weeks, i was busy with church services... There are a lot of first tried...Thanks for giving chances...

p/s: Need to 'tidy up' my feeling to study....Actually no mood to study....