Health

I went for a simple body check up on last Sunday (the day I knocked down a gal...=.=....)

Overall, my health is ok, and BMI is ideal...no big problem for that....I done a blood testing too, on last Wednesday, which the result will be declared on coming Monday....Excited with that....=)

Oh yes!! finally my weight is started with the forth digit now...
I was 55 kg before I start the keep fit journey....I am 48.4 kg now....haha...Can't imagine how I did it...I reduced 6.6 kg...but my height still the same....sigh....='(...

A journey of a year and 6 months, this is what I gained today....gained my health, gained my confidence, gained joy...It is not hard to keep fit, as long as you have a must do determination, slim is not far from you...it is not always the plan for tomorrow or the day after tomorrow....it is now and only now....

I still stick to jogging, as this is the best way for me to relax and keep fit also..Anyway, the most essential one is control your mouth and desire...Once you ate burger, then you should skip any other junk foods and jog for at least 30 mins to burn the fats....Always balance the IN and OUT...

Well, i still wan to reduce 2 kg, and do part firming, especially my thigh and upper arm...The shaking fat is so ugly..yuck....

Just finished annual dinner last nite, and what is most headache this time is looking for a dress....oh......all dresses are sleeve less....but my arm is so fat....I only found my dress the nite before the actual day....I have to start the journey of arm firming first so that I have more choices for next dinner and friend's wedding....

Friends, always be determined and trust that you can do it....
Keep fit will be a joyful and interesting journey...=)

World Vision

Finally I have an approach with this NGO, World Vision...This is my dream to sponsor a child since I started working in the earliest of this year...Well, today is a day to remember, I sponsored a child, with just only RM50 per month, which is able to change a life of, not even just a child, but life of children who are in poverty...

Well, I will only know which child to sponsor after 2 weeks, kind of excited to know it...ha.....I also registered as the volunteer of World Vision...There is a question asking in the form, Why do you want to register as a volunteer? ha...I just wrote, to help others....ya...I just wish to help other with whatever I could do...

Accident....

It is Sunday today....Just finished service and going to somewhere to meet Mom and Dad...But, accident is smell less....An accident happened this morning....I rammed to a motorbike and the gal is injured...I am alright cos driving a car....But..she is unlucky, injured her thigh and knocked her head on the road....

I was stunned and chilled...

It happened just such a sudden...I want to turn left to a small road, marked the signal light...but sigh, i didn't notice the motor besides me....Ponngg!!!!!... Gosh...I rammed someone!! I was so frightened and dunno what to do...I saw her helmet flew away and she was pening-pening after the accident...I am afraid she might has brain concussion..Afraid..really afraid...

After a deal, I paid her for her medical fee and repair fee and leave my contact number to her...But just regret I gave her my contact number....Shouldn't rite...cos might give her a chance to claim and claim more...but I didn't think too much at that time...and I think she is not that bad, from what I talked to her...She conceded that she is wrong also as she saw my signal light already, but everything is happen too fast...the next second, she falls down already.....It's too late...

I was thankful..at least her face is all fine...no scratch...only her thigh is raw...I think she is not that bad-hearted right...want more and more....I hope so....

I should be more be careful on the road next time....Be careful to secure our life and other'slife also....Thanks God, we are safe.....

She just messaged me and informed me that she is alright and asked me don't worry about her....Thanks God...Even though I had an accident, but it alarmed me to be more and more careful as I always driving fast...and Thanks God, she is ok....Really thanks God...=)

Mood..

I felt calm a bit today....Mood is good and everything is fine now....I need time to accept and adapt with it...ha....fate again gone from my palm...Anyway, with faith in God, there is nothing to fear....

I believe in God for His wonderful plan...If that guy is mine, it will be mine in the last, no matter how far we were.....

Thanks Sze Mama, as my 'dustbin'...lend me your ears...

Thanks Blogger, a space for me to grumble...

Thanks God, for Your wonderful guidance and never forsake me....I love You GOD...=)

A letter to God...

Dear God, are You free?

It is the second time I let him go...

Lord, this guy is the first person that clinged me for a long time, at least for a year, when I was in Form 6. And he is the first person appear in my blog, the first person dragged my heart....ha...puppy love at that time....But, he is the first person I like...I concede...

For whole of the year 2003, I kept on hoping to meet with him again, to have his news, to keep in touch with him....but, we didn't have that chance to do so....I used almost a year to delete my feeling toward him...ya, I did it in the last...phew...such a long time...


We didn't contact each other for 7 years....In these 7 years, we have no news from each other...we finished our education and now, we are apart at different place in different carrier...Everything is different after 7 years...

17 July 2010....

is the first date we met in FB...It is just a coincidence where I simply type in my colleague's name and found his profile....Well, I was quite excited at that time to meet with him again....

And...

Last month, he was back for two days...what a short time.....We went out for a movie....He presented me a pack of chocolate as I only notified him once that I like to eat chocolate...ya...its not a big matter....he is gentleman and caring...makes me feel like a lady like gal...ha....have a sweet feeling with him....There are still got many things....just bury it in my mind...

30 Oct 2010...

He confessed to me in MSN at first....Yet,I rejected him..Doubt rite...sounds everything is so good and fine....but how come the ending is like so....he called me and made me stunned...he is working oversea and it is quite expensive for the fare...Yea...I told him, it is more cozy as friend, better stay in present mode...

But...

Only GOD knew the real reason....

There are too many things to consider about...it is not about anything...but religion....Religioun made me ponder and ponder again...let me prohibitive to start...we are different in religion....In before, religion is not a problem but feeling is talking....But now, religion and feeling both are talking now.....A friend reminded me....Human's love is limited and conditional...when a relationship comes to a bottleneck, only GOD's love is able to lead along both of them together and heal the relationship...Two is better then one, yea...., only GOD's love is able to make the couple more lovely with each other....everything will fade with the passing of time, but GOD's love will never fade...
And....We are apart also...I am not really know about him...and either him towards me...ha...so, don't think that i will start before i really know about someone....

Yea....I just wrote the upper half of this post last two days...but, kind of suffer while I am writing this post...I cried desperately...can't continue to finish...Cry....the tears...solaced my sigh...yea...I was sigh for the situation right now...I am a coward....not dare to tell him my true feeling.....

After I rejected him, so surprised I was so down and down...Am I mind? Am I regret? What is that mean? I also don't know...I was tired...tired to wait, tired to guess so many uncertainties...Only God knew about my needs.....I want to rely on Him and let Him decide everything for me...

Yea..I still hoping for a turning back....frank to say.......But I know, it is not for me to decide everything....waiting for God's timing and planning.....I am tired Lord....

A gal who is waiting for love to come...a shoulder to rely...

p/s: ha...just ignore this post...I just want a space to shout out...

Today...........

It's what a busy day today..but indeed ample..

I had a LDP this morning...It is quite boring.....yea...almost fall asleep....finally it is time to back home at 1pm..Well,guess it is my napping time at 2pm...

However, a rang pulled me up from my bed..oh..i have to go to church...We had an inter flow with BC Sunday School on how to improve ourselves for BM Sunday School...Well, they are so creative in designing the teaching aids...using the most simplest way to transmit the knowledge to the kids...Shame on me,i always ready the lesson on the spot and making everything messy. Its such a good experience to interchange the ideas..We learn a lots..

Serve in Lord, fruitful and joyful..=)

p/s: blogging while having a banquet at hotel..it's so boring here...all uncles and aunties..no handsome boys...LoLS..

Volcano...

It's Friday today!! My favorite day!! Well, it is bonus link member day as well...and is time for shopping queen to grab the likes home...it's a long time i didn't buy any attires at the shopping center. I bought all together 7 pieces home and kinda welcome to the new arrival to my wardrobe...well, my wardrobe is going to burst...haha...It suppose to be a happy nite, as I can go to fellowship, to listen to God's preaching...

well...........sigh.........

Today is the day that I will never forget, a day marked the change of the history of our family...

Just a small kidding made the volcano erupted....Tonight, whole of our family sit there and talk about it....Two of my brothers fight against each other, just because of small matter, just because of a joke....Mom is so desperate and angry....She is kind of despair with us, as non of us is listen to her, but, against and against only.....

Talk, talk with sincere, talk what do you like or don't like...tell us your borderline...Brother is hot and he is cried.....He cried, because no one is sided him, no one bother about his feeling, but only protect and sided to the younger brother...This kind of feeling, been denied by other, especially our beloved one, is torturing...This is the first time I saw he cried because of this matter, he buried his sigh feeling in the bottom of his heart...no one know about his truest feeling....yea....he is kind of sad and sigh tonite....

I cried too....as something that I did during our childhood time, was left a black shadow inside him...my bad...I never knew that he has such an unhappy childhood time....I m feeling sorry to him and apologized to him...

I wonder, will it be a crack between us each other, my parents and us....but, I know, everything is burst and we talk nicely.....we never have such conversation before, always ended with quarrels and quarrels....This is the very first time we talk about our feeling....Mom is willing to listen, but Dad still need lots and lots room to improve...He is quite impatient...ha...

God, thanks for giving us this opportunity to us, to burst out...to shout...to cry....We need it, and You knew when is the best timing to let everything happen...Thanks Lord, I pray, for Your LOVE to befall on us...No matter how worst the situation is, thanks Lord, You still gave us a breath, gave us life, gave us a chance to cry....

Lord, there are lots of natural disaster occurred lately…the dual disasters in Indonesia, a 7.7 magnitude triggered the tsunami on Monday grabbed 430 life and Mount Merapi erupted on last Tuesday..The people and the country are struggling as the death poll still on a rise…Everyday, there is at least a person evaporated from the earth…We don’t when will be our turn or our day, but we must know, it is a grace, for us still have a breath until today….Thanks God…

Lord, now I come to You..

Lord, I am tired now....I want to utter everything to You....I pray and You know everything about me....Since the earliest of this year, You told me true love waits....I obey to you and reject a guy who is not really my liking as well....Lord, I still need more voices from You, as I dunno what is my decision now and dunno what should I do.....

I have many things to say to someone, but I can't say it out...because the situation now is not allowed....kind of weird with myself now...doubt with what I want, doubt with what I really want....Apart, makes us never feel close at any moment....、

Lord, I am tired now.....I want to quit from this circle...tiring and exhausted...Can I hear Your voice and get the wisdom from You? Recharge from melancholy...

Lord, people around made me felt sigh....Promise is not to keep but to break?! Don't promise if you can't make it...Don't ever think to be over self protected.....That day Jesus reminded me with this scripture, [Keep your heart with all diligence, for out of it is the wellspring of life] Proverb 4:23. I must stand firm under Jesus...Never hurt other for own sake...

Online shopping

Online shopping is one of my hobby nowadays...well, I am kind of enjoy it....There are bundle of reason why I like it....By clicking on the mousie, I am able to view and surf million, even trillion of choices of the clothes, bags...and other items available on the website....if shopping outside, sure non of us are able to glance at all the items, or compare between shop and shop....

Sure, choices are widely available, but not quality guaranteed...Some bought items are totally different from what had viewed online, the color perspective, the length, the cloth's quality, had ever once made me wanna stop to take further stroll in online shopping anymore...despair did shout for quit....haha....anyway, I still stick with it now.....

Online shopping is kind of fun...What it most attracted me I don't have to deal with for the items face to face...Even I decided not to buy it the last, I don't have to see their frustrated face too....Sometimes, I will not really know who is the dealer unless one day we came out to meet to collect the items....Well, I have few experiences where the dealer are my students....haha....kind of surprised when met with them....Oh....teacher....it's you....haha....LOLs.......Well, is it now you think that I was so supportive to this kind of hobby? Not really...So far, I only have countable items which I am really satisfied with.....Some are really bad in the quality and price have no much different....sigh.....But most recommended to buy online is the purse, handbag and jewelery. I had never bought a pair of shoes online....

Well, I have a bad experience now...There is a dealer where gave the annoyed replies and really made me disappointed with............hmm....him or her??...So far, all the dealer I met are gals.....It doesn't mean that, I asked mean I place the order..No final confirmation with you, how could you place my request? Please, make it clear first, it is a request, not an order....

Anyway, this kind of experience reminded me don't simply ask or request for something, that I am just have a sudden interest.....Place an order when I am final concluded.....=)

I have a Dad who don't know respect privacy

Something happen today that really made me think that, my Dad still the same as before..he always think that he is always right never admit his mistakes....So what you are my Dad?! It doesn't mean that you can disturb my privacy.....control everything.....

Don't disturb my privacy, this is my borderline....you are penetrating something that's always good, Now, I was so frustrated with what Dad you had done...I wish to talk nicely with you, but sigh....you never think that u have done a mistake...

Dad, could you please give us a room? Even just a small space, a space that's belong to ours only...Don't ever think that you are always right...So what you are the master of the house...you still need to respect others....we are your children...you didn't give the minimum respect, how you expecting us to give you in return....

Dad, we all love you..yet, your ears seldom opened for us....

Ahhh.............frustrating........

Please give them a chance....

Well, it is October now...And, I had a long sigh for a week already....There are many things I want to grumble about.. I just dunno where to start from....

Am I doing the right decision? I was feeling bad now...a student was stopped from study after I sent her to see the principle...as she is always ponteng...sigh...nobody wants to give her a chance, even though she promised she will...please, she promised she WILL continue her study...do you still need to make a pardon? Why don't give her a chance....yea....I just simply want to give her a warning so sent her to meet our boss...but, everything is unexpected...she is leaving now...Gosh.....

I can only say, unfair and bias to the weak class...Well, once there is a piece of rubbish appeared on the floor, the whole class will be graded as the most dirtiest class....But, if the situation changed to good class, well, everyone will be blind...I am not commenting anyone...I just hope that, please give them a chance....just simply a chance for them to prove themselves....They did do all, sweep the floor, lap the window, line up the table, empty the dustbins, clean the blackboard....bla bla bla...What they done have no difference with the good class, but, why, they still graded as dirty class...Through out the whole year, they are just honored with the one and the only first runner up....sigh.......

So what they are weak in academic?! So what they are not brilliant?! This is not a sin....why treat them with unfair? They are apart of our school too....They have no problems, just a bit talkative...but, where got student that is not talkative, unless he or she is dumb...

Alright.....I just felt sigh....

My friend teased me that, I am not like a gal, even Mommy is scolding me to change a bit...I don't even do make up..Well, fellowship on last week which is about makeup had grabbed my interest to go deep on it..Hhaa....I asked quite a number of opinion, some said necessary, some said ain't...some said natural pretty is the everlasting one...well, in a nutshell, I still prefer natural looking, no makeup and no harm...just to be natural....well, I am not against it...still will do facial treatment....LOL...

How deep do you know yourself? Able to say that you know yourself very well? I am not dare to say so.....Wonder what is playing in my mind now...wonder about many things.....wonder what do I want actually....wonder about reality...wonder about myself......Wondering............................

Curb my hand

I have been working for almost a year, and damn pity to admit that, kinda disappointed with myself....yea...the life here is too comfortable and no need me to worry about..and it's make me never worry about the usage of money....I didn't save much money in this year...Well, I have no housing loan or car loan, the only I owe is PTPTN...It ain't a big burden...but, how come I didn't save much money?

Well, I listed down all my usual expenses here...
For petrol, the biggest expenses, RM160 per month...
For mobile reload, RM60 per month...Oh...no 084 at home is a nightmare....
For entertainment,yamcha, movie...bla bla bla... RM100...
For shopping, RM100??RM200?? RM 300... this row.....always drove me crazy.....I know where is my problem now...

Shopping, I am not only doing outdoor, but I also do online shopping....Well, both coming together, the end of my purse....Can't really figure out when did I addicted to online shopping....There are only, maybe 1 out of 10 I was satisfied...but I still like to buy online...Cheap? is this the reason? newest pattern?? Yet, I didn't even wear it...as the quality is toooooooo bad......What for I still want to buy it?

My wardrobe is going to burst up...the hanger is going to drop....as it cannot affort to carry all my clothes and dresses.....It is kinda pity...I better stop my shopaholic nightmare..before it is too late....

My friend taught me a tactic, where she forced herself ONLY and ONLY spend RM500 per month, included expenses for her family...She is paying housing loan now, but she still can save up to RM10k....but, looking at me...I was still a zero less then her...

I have such an unspeakable horror inside now...Doubt...Am I really a good finance chamberlain?

Even I am ain't a good time chamberlain....online occupied most of my schedule....for what? just for crap...just for FB! Arrrrggggghhhhhhh................

I am a tomboy?!

Well, tonite, there are 2 friends saying that I am a tomboy...hahah...kinda funny on this description...But I like it....=)

Yea, I don't like make up, I seldom wear skirt (**not don't like), I am not the kind of meek...I laughed so loud, not the kind cover my mouth with my palm when I am laughing...I wear slipper when dating out, seldom high heel nowadays...T-shirt and short pants are my favorite now...Haha....yea, I should say I am a boyish gal...

They suggested me to do make up, wear skirt, and more girlish like dress....wear dress to go dating?! oh...that's not my style...I will feel weird and restrained...Then, it will smash everything in the dating...haha....isn't it self-defeating?!..LOLS...

I m just trying to be natural, the truest i....as i don't like pretending...so, every time, been laughed and teased by others.....Alright, it doesn't matter...don't bother about it....

Life should be simple, full with joy and cheers....=)

Melancholy....

Holiday just pasted...how sad we all can't force it back...It is gone under our consciousness.....

For the last week, I experienced Wednesday blue and Friday blue... I am going to have Monday blue tomorrow...kinda tired...Arrrgggghhhhhhhhh...........I am damn lazy, damn idle, damn indolent, damn slothful to back to reality.....Oh gosh....i shouldn't simply shut down myself easily....still a lot of work chasing me behind...like a tiger waiting for its prey....it's going to 'eat' me.....scary..=.=...

Actually there only one month left, some days more, for the actual teaching days.....then, it is exam weeks and the end of the teaching life in 2010....sure, 2011 is still head in front....

Bloggy, I had forsaken u for few weeks....Many things I wanna write it here.....yet, low motivation....sigh....

Qin, sober up!!! no time to waste anymore!!! Life isn't boring...it is in your hand for you to make it interesting.....There are still many things to do other then just online here......Don't in low pace anymore....

If there is a return back....

If there is a return back, how I wish I could change the situation now....It's out of control now....

I thought it is the end of the story once the good news been declared...but, no...not the end yet...

If there is a return back, I wish I will never meet with that person....Friendship is cracked, tears is rolling down...For what? Who knows the pity? when the wound will be remedied?

Please, let her go.....She is scarred!

Two parties are enough in a relationship....Third party is surplus...Dear friend, you knew this....just let them be....bless them and pray for them....

Do you really have FAITH in God?

It is a bit messy this morning....

I woke up late in this morning..I rushed out to open the gate, but what a coincidence, my friend called...After answered the phone call, I just left my mobile on the bonnet....and drove off my car...Gosh...I just left it there....After I arrived my friend's house, she is taking her time to ready and haven't come down yet...So, I rummaged my handbag in order to get my mobile to call her....I guess, if she is waiting me down stair, I will never realize I forgotten my mobile and it is showering by the rain now....

I stunned and told her to return back to find my mobile. I was almost cried out cos it is such a grief why I was so blur....But, all happen already, grief also mean nothing...All along the searching pathway, my heart was so up and down....afraid it was the corpse under the tires already..afraid that it was taken by someone else....Mind brimming with everything, but never with God...I didn't pray for it first....

What a great timing, at the T-junction around my house, I saw it!! I saw my mobile!! It was so pity there as the rain is killing it...It is half-lived...

Even just a small incident, but I have a great lesson from it....My friend asked me a question and made me dumb to answer it...Have you prayed to God for this incident? I answered, NO....Then, she continued, Do you really have faith in God? I stunned....。My faith is just like under covered by a layer of chiffon...seems clear, seems unclear also...And I thought I had the great faith...Yet, this question mangled it....that my faith is not entire...is still not sufficient...I will more rely on myself and asked myself what to do first rather then seeking His way....I know it is wrong as Bible tells us, He is an awesome and faithful God....But, i still haven't totally practice myself on it...

Everything seems good in this comfort zone, and myself is following to be brittle ...Everything is ready made, seldom need I to worry about...Even though I did pray, but did I really pray for it? or just a modus?

Always been late to prayer meeting, to fellowship, but never be late to school, to a date....Where did I place Father？ Even I was regret afterward, but, the same thing repeated in the following week...aiz...I need to practice myself to be punctual....

Father, can you hear me? Sorry, that I always forget You....always place you to infinity...Yet, You still love me...as much as I always encountered....I am sorry, Dear Father....

Work-to-do list

Holiday is started...I gonna have a great plan for it...otherwise, it will be gone with nothing....Time time...you are kinda lovely and scary...

Well well...first of all, i need to tidy up my darling room...Again, it returned back to her ugly face...messy and messy...oh dear, i m sorry to design you with all rubbish...And, the whole house now is kinda ugly too....is time to tidy up...

Exam papers is heaped on my table...I have to hold red pen in this holiday in order to see how is my performance within these few months...performance judged by students' results...Well, i just marked the weak class, history is repeating....drawing question mark is continue...sigh...my performance is still bad....

Time flies....I am going to SG for Christmas this year.. and I am kinda excited with that...Sure, the great plan need to be done first for a great memory...And Hong Kong in next year is waiting for us to plan too....Date others out for planning....

I need to brush up my English nowadays...it is going down the drain....since got time now, sure need to pile up my brain with English...how to do? reading newspaper, blogging...etc...

And gathering and movie are a must in holiday...so, wish to have a great gathering with friends and watch a great movie...

What else?

Tears

Love, makes us feel so sweet...Everything seems good when we have someone besides...but sigh,
Love, makes us feel so suffer as well...Gloomy...Only companion of tears when there is no longer someone besides..

There is no wrong to cry....just cry...as loud as you want.....It needs time to go through all of these...Don't pretend yourself as you are sad now....No use to be a crown...and I don't know that my words keep playing in your mind...You laugh, as you don't want people around to worry about you...You eat, as you don't want people sense that you are unhappy...Gal, it's tired rite....

Rolling tears will wash over your grieved heart....We will be companions, however, in the last, you still need to go through by yourself....And God will always be with you...

Great flood...

A non-stop rain spoiled the dream of all Sibu citizens...We guess, the flood no longer haunting us...But, the facts told us that, history still is playing...

Well...our dear gov, our dear top-notch heads...where are you all? Did you ever heard our scream? I grew up here and I am 25 years old now....But the history is still the same....FLOOD is still haunting us....25 years...it's 25 years already....you can't do anything in these numbers of years?!

you did nothing within these years! What you gave us only the plaster cloth road....good...we are riding everyday...you took away our green notes, but return us with bad drainage system...Why the flood don't come in the earliest of the year, then we all can see our PM walking in the flood and playing water with his body guard.....phewit...highlight of the year....

You said change the name, 诗巫 to 诗富...whao...富with what le? 富with water? we have lots.....really lots...how we can develop before we settle all these small matters first? drainage system is not a huge project.....can't settle in 25 years? It is really a great laugh and crap!! our gov is really a smart gov...give them a big clap!!!

Who's responsible for all of these?


We are on the ship now....



Car for sale? No no...car for repair...

Saturday morning

It's what a free Saturday...I need not alarm myself to wake up early, but woke up by the twitter of the birds...Oh, they told me, sun is risen....haha..what a lovely day today...Well, today is a brain off day....I want to take a break and full my hands with my favorite.　Well, i watched the testimony of Sammi Cheng on Good TV. She thoroughly utter how does she go through her depression, with the faith and love from JESUS, how awesome is our God. Our God is an awesome and faithful God. He knows what is the best for us. His timing is never wrong. Even we forsake Him, pretended that we don't know him, hide ourselves from Him. But He is everywhere, no matter how we ran away from Him, He will never forsake us...And He will find us finally..

Sammi Cheng did a very good testimony to the world.. Money, prettiness, fame and wealth cannot fulfill our desires...but it will eat us...silently, and lead us to the end of the world...only LOVE from Jesus can fulfill our spirits...When we are tired, He always be our refuge...our hiding place...every rumor, teasing, despair, been thrown unto Him...He is like an empty stomach, never bored with our grumbles, never angry with us, but still loves us with unconditional love....Thanks you Jesus, for loves us so much...

Hmm....again, teachers in the school, talking about our partners again...they are so surprised that we are still single....bla bla bla......oh man, what so surprised...single ma single la....not a big deal...it is not the end of the world...Single is not a sin k....Anyway, thanks for the concern....we know they care about us...They said, I was fussy in choosing partner...well, you guess wrong...I ain't...what a gal want, is the one and the last...the one who is suitable forever....is FOREVER!! Marriage is holy, is blessed by God...sure need to find the suitable one....

God, Your timing is never wrong...You know who is the best for us....slow down and listen to Your voice...I believe in You...

Ups and downs....

Bloggy, I have something to tell you...We are going to Hong Kong in coming year 2011!

Its what an up and down nite...I fooled myself a great joke tonight....Friends asking me, why I am so confirmed with the holidays next year? Well, I told them I googled that holidays is available for the date we go HK.....But, I wonder again...so, after back home, I checked through again...oh gosh!! I just realized that the calendar that I was so confirmed was 2010...It was history already....Man...i dunno how to tell other friends, cos some just booked the ticket this afternoon, right after I told them....My limbs turn so cold... giggling....no appetite to eat...I was so guilty, for making such troubles...I made the bad planning, re-book...

However, a friend called and confirmed that, there is holidays for that period....I was so high!!! The trip is on!! How up and down.....can't control myself to scream...haha....Luckily she is not as blur as me....Thanks Chew...=)

It was quite dramatic....From the very first, there are only two of us, Carol and I decided to go...We also very worry at that time, worry about the staying place, worry about the transport, worry about the safety...but now, we have 8 people going together...How thanks and how glad to have this vacation group...And maybe there are 2 people going to join us....lol!!

I should change a bit...cannot be that blur anymore....I booked that ticket, when i m not confirm the date yet...how careless I was...but anyway, thanks God, You are so lovely, for giving all of these...I am so blessed!

Hong Kong, we are coming in 2011!! =)

p/s: Newest update: 10 people confirmed to go!!

Crap

waiting for mom in the school now..i just finished a meeting for a while..mind,spirit,eyes,foots..all crying for a rest...school works are bored.. Going to swim today with frens..well..been farewelled with swimming for a long time..

Starting of the journey...

Today, marked the starting point...
It might be a long way to go...really...
Other things can be excused...
Handbags, shoes, shirts, foods, cheese cakes ...-.-...all can be excused....
But, the precious moment cannot be excused....
I admired it and been clinged by it for a long time...
Save the money...start from now...

One day in future, I wish to own you~~

NIKON D90...=)

Life still going on...

How time flies...it is the 8th month in year 2010....2010 is coming to the 2nd half end....Well, life still going on....and I love this sentence...life still going on..

Well well....I have been moved to my new house in last two weeks...I m still adapting with the new long distance to my school...How to say, i felt so sickening driving here...just like car racing every morning..And, why people always keep to the right?? Don't they know that, 'ikut kiri jika tidak memotong'? The board is standing there, big enough to see...Most headache one is the cars both at the left and right, driving at the same speed...oh..i really want to ram into the either one....yea....I should go out earlier next time....

Dealing with my darling room, well it is most arranged now, and i am grabbing my time, step by step to tidy it...I m still not satisfied with it...some corner still messy....just let it be la, I need to ready my exam paper first...

My life is given by God, I always remind myself to be thank giving, with everything I had in lifet...yea...desire sometimes shout suddenly...and sometimes been overwhelmed by it...but, return to the point, you are much more blessed by other....Never feel being taken for granted...accept what is not counting by you...life is still going on...

My mind was congested with travel...I want to go travel...to oversea...where is my kaki le???

Glory to the Lord...

Thank you, Lord...other then that, still Thank you...

It was BM Sunday Services on last Sunday...And, we prepared kids singing performance. We have been ready them for a month. Still remember in the first day of practice, the kids are so hard to control, even we need to shout at them...Indeed, they are what we called hyperactive, both the limbs and the mouths...We need to entertain them with tit bits some more....haiz...just like pampering the babies....

Time flies....it's the real day of performance....We all get ready for the kids to come....But, it's 6:15am...only 4 to 5 kids there...We have the last plan where all the sunday school teachers join the singing...oh....how come?? Praying in our hearts, God, we believe in You, for Your wonderful guidance...It's 6:30am....we saw a crowd of kids coming.....We all smiled...Their smiles even more adorable...

See...the kids are so excited....

They are rehearsal for the performance, to give the best to Lord...They had done their very best in the last....acknowledged by the claps from below....=)

The closing of the day...Glory to the Lord...=)

Servants to the Lord....Happy Serving!~

2010 with them...

The first class photo been taken in the first year of my teaching life....In 2010, i am with them....4A3 and I...=)

Life with kids...

It's Maths time for 4A3...The students stood up and greeted me....Good Morning teacher....Sit down class...I replied...After placed all the monkeys on their chairs, we started the lesson...

There is a kid talking while I was teaching....I purposely raise up my voice, to warn him I am talking now....Oh...he stunned, and kept quiet...What he said later, made me can't withstand to burst out a laugh!!!

Teacher, have you ever watched Jurassic park? This fellow is teasing me that I am like a dinosaur....I can't help myself to stop laughing...All the students laughed at me....My cheek turns so red...Stopped the lesson for few seconds, finally calm myself to continue...

I am the form teacher for this class...At first, I was in great worry in how to handle them. Out of my expectation, they are lovable...at least, they respect me and give me face as their form teacher...They are not brilliant in academic, but, they are nice...dunno how to describe the feeling....=)....Until now, I am still willing to serve them...sure, there are black spots there also, which might make me upset with them, but, always forget it with the smile on their face....=)

No more delay

I just listed down my to-be-done list...what a shock, the tasks are chasing me....tests and workbooks to be marked, meeting's minute to be done, and bla bla bla....What a mess...I have to do all of this in a short while....suffocating....

There are some changes in students....Oh man, I need to change the name list again...Tiring works....Every time, when there are new students been placed in my class, I will make them clear first about my rules...To be here, OBEY!..And, don't know I have repeated for how many times until the students couldn't bear with me....hahaa.....they said I am so wordy...='(...

Nudged myself, ya..I am becoming lazier....In previous, I will stay in school to finish my works first, works the first place...then packed to go home...But now, I trained or urged myself to go back as early as I could...I want to go back to my darling room...Rolling on my king sized bed, cooling by the air-cond, it is so comfortable...

Finally, I have my own room in new house...my privacy room...What a damn i wished for it for a long long time...Now, i can stroll around every corner....to place my footsteps at every corner....my darling room...

But, big headache now...we just moved everything from the old house in last two days....It is damn tired...Mom and Dad intended to move the old things here, made the new house so packed and messy...I don't like it....Anyway, hope that it might change back to its new looks....

And, there is a corner in my darling room where I mostly don't want to approach....I felt pening looking at it....lol...But, that's are all my properties...No way to throw away...=P...K, make a promise with myself, DO IT ON COMING WEEKENDS, NEVER TWIST DARLING ROOM INTO RUBBISH ROOM....Hmm....that's mean I am sleeping with rubbish every nite?! OOpppss.....

Where should I place you all??

Life still going on....=)

Rotten apple

One day, I saw a reddish apple..My goodness, it looks so juicy and fresh...So, I grabbed it home...However, day by day, when I wanted to dine it, the first bite gave me such an 'unforgettable' taste. its all rotten inside!! whao...what a great different from its outlook. How thanks, I noticed it earlier. It looks nice, but with time flies, we are able to notice the truest face of something or even someone...

Are you the rotten apple?

They are many rotten apples in this realistic world. But, we are blind sometimes, been cheated by their pretty or sincere outlooks...At the same time, we also purposely cheat ourselves, persuade ourselves with thousands of excuses. Yet, the mask of the rotten will be peeled down piece by piece. The true face under the masks will be sunbathed and bringing a great stun. But, don't be upset, at least, you have a chance to meet with their true face.

God created so many apples...There must be good apples there..Always, someone will be waiting there, walking towards us and bringing us the good apples...Never upset with realistic...

My favourite

My favourite milk , Desa fresh milk...like it very much....

Stamina of a day, 100 plus!
Tit-bit of a day...

Digit doesn't mean everything

It's the 2nd parents and teachers' meeting... I got a great melancholy after the meeting....same words and same thing i talked in the past meeting...Indeed, it is really a great responsibility once we gave a birth to a child. We need to take the responsibility to teach them, to lead them, to guide them, to encourage them and to forgive them. Even they are failed, they are still our kids....We have to pardon them...with patience and endless love...

Digit doesn't mean anything....Characters talking in my philosophy....Even they are not excel in academic, it doesn't mean that they are a failure forever....But, it's useless in reality world...In reality, digits talking..the more digits u achieved, the more succeed u were...Digits had covered their characters. They also have self-respect, but who are going to hear their cries? their griefs?

As long as a person have a great character, I don't think that he or she might face failure forever...Wish to help them, but dunno where and how to start from....as they are not appreciating as well...

Gov is going to abolish public examination, yet it's still under discussion. I gave a great thumb up to this good news...Smiled with tears, finally they recognized this problem...Students nowadays are exam machine, they studied just for exam, for the cert....But, they wonder what is the aim in the end...I wish the day to come faster, to twist the world of education in Malaysia...

Tolerate

Homo sapiens....we have been created in so many characters...but, still, where we were, where the mess there...

In reality, we need to carry ourselves nicely...tolerate with one another and try the best to solve the problems....But, how, if there is someone who never understand and even turns us down, how do we need to deal with?

We were in one team....what we need is reliable and responsibility....Hard and tiring...we keeps on pushing, but someone keeps on pulling at the another end....sigh...

Life for late

Been started work for the second week of working after holidays... life still packed with tasks, this and that....Students are still like before....I am feeling pity with them..wish to help them with whatever i could do, but, I don't know where to start from....and how to....
They came with empty brain, back with empty brain as well....Will there be a miracle someday?

How thanks I have things to do now...at least, mind no longer brimming with rubbish and somethings i wonder...But, how to do with holidays in September? I am terror with holidays now...Everyone anticipate for the holidays...but I m the reverse...When can I get out from the circle? indeed cling me for a long time...

Closing of the holidays..

Today, the last day of our three weeks holidays, it is drawing a close soon...I just read through the post that i wrote on the first day of holidays...how time flies, today, i will write for its closing....lolz...

Well, i didn't feel much reluctant for it...I even wanted the school days desperately...Maybe stay idle for a long time, fully recharged! I am ready! Have something to do is much better then nothing to do right?!

In this period, i had done with marking, table cleaning and vacation. The last one, house moving, only done half...I was headache to move my things to my darling room...I have too many pairs of shoes, bags and clothes...I wonder where to place all the things....My mom just teased me yesterday that the shoes I owned are enough to open a Vincci...Hahha...really? then I need to buy more to make it real...Shoes, my favorite item!

Talked with a friend this morning and listen to her plan for future...She is going to change her present mode, to upgrade her value...mean she is going to leave here...I did envy as she can choose with her own willing, but I can't...In previous, I will in great grief, but now, can be said, I am numb already...It doesn't mean that, i satisfy with my present mode...I still hope for a change ...But, i don't desire much...let it be...I promised to give myself 3 years, 3 years for me to love my job, 3 years for me to find my partner...If after 3 years I'm still the same, I will quit...It looks like a great obstacles in front, the most one is my parents....But, i will try to talk nicely with them....let them to understand me and give me support as well....The only thing that will change my mind is marriage. When meet with the right person, I will get married..

What a myriad world out there, but I just circling in my own world, the only world belong to myself, how tiny it was....

Yea...mind brimming with 'How are you' as well... Regard that I wanted to send most to a friend...Many hesitations congested as well...doubt how will it be after it been sent...Hope you are fine, friend....

Rainbow..

Rainbow after the rain...
it's illusive, it's authentic...
Dark clouds around...
just like a thief
come without sound, come without signals...
snatched our joy...
create a dead road just there is no way out...
Yet, the rainbow....
Its arise shaded the dark spot to become colorful, even just a corner or just a piece...
It's enough to put a grin on our face...

Always...
Life seems to be no way out, loaded with obstacles, loaded affairs, loaded with sorrows...
But, still remember God's promises and faith with God?
The promises under the rainbow....
God will make a way, where there seems to be no way

From: http://www.musicbabylon.com

Raise your head, look up to the blue sky...
Sky is not always cloudy...
Life is not always in low tide...
There is always a way out...
Always, a rainbow after a tempest...

Life without ups and downs is not called life..
It's called drama...
It's called wonderland...

Come on~~

How dirty is my table in the staffroom....I had made up my mind to clean up since last holidays in March...but sigh....the time always ran away from my palm...Finally today, I pushed myself to complete the mission...It's done and was quite satisfy with my job...Well done!~~

Before I tidy my desk, it is what a damn the lizard's stool are seen everywhere...yuck....disgusting~! I took out my drawer..Oh man~~ what a mess...
After I took out everything inside the drawer, my table is just like student's table, full with rubbish....LOL~~
Ok...now is time to arrange everything properly in my drawer.....Step by step...i almost done...singing the songs.....Out of my notice, the cover of the punch opened and left all the white snow inside the drawer...sigh...need to take out everything and restart again....
hmm....who's leg?

Deng deng....finally done my work....the messy drawer is now orderly arranged...but dunno will last for how long....hahaaaa.....

Oooppsss....forgot to take the photo of my desk...take it on the first of school day...

School is going to start, how many days left?
Countdown is coming...Anyway, this long holidays recharged me to face the coming challenges....
Well...not feeling reluctant, but anticipate for school days....

~The End~

Boy cannot do housework?!

Ah jie, sweap the floor...
Ah jie, wash the plates...
Ah jie, no more drinking water lo...
Ah jie, it's raining...collect the clothes...
Ah jie, don't just sitting there and watch tv lo...tidy the house~~ (even though their big butts are hot baking on sofa)

Sigh...this is what i heard every day and night in my house...I am a kakak now, even I am their kakak...

It's just like naturally, we won't ask the boys to do the housework...is it their hands are silver or golden made? I am definitely despise boys who never ever or don't know how to do the housework...There are one idiot in my home....Luckily not two...

Ok, this idiot, know only how to move his mouth, use his mouth to work...to order people to do somethings, to eat, to shout, to bla...bla...bla....his limbs are just a display, to show that he is a normal people...normal to have limbs, just enough for him to walk, to run, to drive the car....

My two brothers has pretty different characters. The elder one, lazy, hot-temper, big eater, big sleeping bug and dirty....The youngest one, the happy bug, more hardworking, easy going temper, big eater also, online game maniac and more hygienic...Well well...sure I love the youngest one then the elder one, he is much much more adorable....Sometimes, when I was running out of time, the youngest one will reach out to help...help to wash the plates, to collect the clothes and sweap the floor....I never saw the sleeping bug doing so...That's why i wondering...is it boys cannot do housework?

Guys must do the housework!! This is a merit in gals' eyes...as they know how uneasy to do the housework, how tiring it was~Standing aside, with hands on their hips...oh man....you are just a big rubbish to be sweep away... phew~~~~~~ Bingo!! into the bin!!

So now, do housework is noted down as my list....Disqualify if you don't know how to do housework!!

Happy 25th Birthday!!

It's my big day today!! I have gone through for 25 years, what a great blessing and pamper from God....Thanks for Your guidance in these few years...

I am a lucky gal...

To have Father in the heaven
To have family on the earth...
To have bosom and close friends around me...

Impressive song - 听妈妈的话

听妈妈的话

词曲：周杰伦 编曲：林迈可、洪敬尧 制作人：周杰伦 　歌手：周杰伦

小朋友 你是否有很多问号

　　为什麼 别人在那看漫画 我却在学画画 对著钢琴说话

　　别人在玩游戏 我却靠在墙壁背我的ABC

　　我说我要一架大大的飞机

　　我却得到一只旧旧螺旋机

　　为什麼要听妈妈的话

长大後你就会开始懂得这种话 哼

　　长大後我开始明白 为什麼我 跑的比别人快 飞的比别人高

　　将来大家看的都是我画的漫画

　　大家唱的都是 我写的歌

　　妈妈的辛苦 不让你看见

　　温柔的事 是否在她心里面

　　有空就多多握著她的手

　　把手牵著一起梦游

　　听妈妈的话 别让她受伤

　　想快快长大 才能保护她

　　美丽的白发 幸福中发芽

　　天使的魔法 温暖中慈祥

　　在你的未来 音乐是你的王牌

　　那王牌谈个恋爱 而我不想被你教坏

　　还是听妈妈的话吧 晚点在恋爱吧

　　我知道你未来的路 干嘛比我更清楚

　　你因为太多学习的同学在这块写东写西

　　但我在 妈妈我会用功读书

　　用功读书怎麼会从我嘴巴说出

　　不想你输所以要叫你用功读书吗

　　妈妈交给你的毛笔你要好好收著

　　因为不许告诉我 也告诉他我还留著

　　对了 我会遇到了周润发

　　所以你可以跟同学炫耀 赌神未来是你爸爸

　　我找不到你写的情书

　　你喜欢的要承认

　　因为我会了解你会在操场上牵她

　　你会开始喜欢唱流行歌

　　因为张学友开始准备唱吻别

　　听妈妈的话 别让她受伤

　　想快快长大 才能保护她

　　美丽的白发 幸福中发芽

　　天使的魔法 温暖中慈祥

　　听妈妈的话 别让她受伤

　　想快快长大 才能保护她

Kick back and relax...

Robotized for few months, now it's my own time to do my own favorite..

Well well...we just back from a vacation in KL and Penang, feeling so relaxing and recharged...probably aim for shopping and gathering with friends...On the day of flight, our flight delayed for 2 hours....sigh...the credit of Now Everyone Can Fly no longer a merit...Therefore, we arrived late in KL..Burger King is our first meal in KL.

We didn't do the shopping in the first day as we were very tired...After checked in, we just walk around the Bintang Street...what to say, big city, crowded!
On the second day, we were ready for our shopping journey. Sigh, it is not really the happy one....I strained my ankle before the journey...Oh, it is damn painful...How come?! i wore slipper only! At first, thought that my journey might be ruined...Thanks God, I still can walk around after a rest..=)

When we talk about Malaysia? What does it come first to your mind? Culture? good shopping complex? what else? Well, to me, indeed, Malaysian still need to improve their hospitality. We met with what a kind of rude salesgirls. Please, it's our right, our right as a consumer to choose, to buy or not to buy, it's our own business, you cannot force us to buy it! you need not come to entertain or serve us or even ignore us...we will more enjoy in this case...What a disappointment that day we didn't buy the things, then the salesgirl return back with harsh words...Oh man!! what a damn frustrating after heard her words, even I knew that is their style, their pattern as I experienced before in Penang. But, do you need to be like so, you are chasing your money away!! It spoiled my good mood!!..But just for a while la...not worth for such kind of nuts...

I didn't do much shopping in KL...maybe not my favor....haha...

The next day, we headed to Colmar Tropicale. The first time we been there...Spent whole day there...soak in the culture of France?! can it be? haha....some sort of la....but, nice scenic spot~

yOOOO0000....It's time to Penang! Some friends asking me, why you still want to go Penang, since you just went there last year and have been there for 4 years?! Well, Penang gave me lots of memories...I met with my housemates, my uni mates and most important, I met with my dear Father here...If I have not been here, guess no where am i now...I enjoy to shopping here, enjoy the delicacies and enjoy the culture here...This time, can be said shopping to the fullest...I bought 5 pairs of shoes!! what a shoes maniac!!hahha....but it's worth!

How time flies! Yesterday was the last day of the trip...Before we go home, my friends celebrated my 25th birthday. Touched to have their blessings...Well, for sure, still, my wishes are wish my family healthy and fine, and end my single life...hahahaha....

The end of the trip, aim for oversea for next vacation...Bangkok or Taiwan, will do....Count me in!!

Thanks guy, to meet you in my life...

He thought this is a game, he said this is a game...just a game...k, fine...we all quit from this game...

The end of the story, the story between us...I wondering is it a fault that we met up in the earliest? And, always, he back here, our conversation ended up unhappily...and he should be back here to reunion and enjoy the moment with his family...but, why always been ruined by me? it is indeed tiring..

Two is better the one? Not really...I am not despair with relationship, i just tired in this case and need time to recover too...pause first for the next and God's timing...Iwis, i decided too much thing with my own willing, i didn't seeking for His timing...Not need rushing rite....=)

In this case, i learn about many first hand lesson....Most, never involve too many parties....yea, it is good to have mutual friends, they are lubricants...But, when dealing with relationship, still, two parties are easier to settle....we never want to hurt anyone, but when comes to mess, mischief is hardly to be solved...even a sorry also doesn't mean everything....

I was so determined to make up my mind in before, no feeling, bye bye~~ I have to hold this principle tightly forever and after...in order not to hurt anyone...never be hesitate, never be shilly-shally...

My friend reminded me I shouldn't be harsh in order to let him give up even I was in madness...Ask him to cool down first and talk nicely to him....even we can't be couple, we still can be friends, forever friends...Thanks gal, for that day what a good timing you called me, as I was in great vexation in dealing with that guy....Otherwise, until today we are still in hatred...

For him, I was thankful...thanks for being so lovely and nice to me....thanks for sharing his works, his dream, his life with me...thanks for teaching me those lessons....We all grown up...for our next relationship...Even till today, we still no contact and I don't know, how is him now....but, at least, we are not in hatred anymore....Even he said this is a game, maybe from the earliest, he thinks this is a game dy...but anyway, I didn't blame him...as he gave more then accept...

Thanks guy...Wish you all the best in looking for your next relationship...you will find the one and the last...as you are not honored to be single rite...=)...Wait for God's timing....

So do I, waiting for God's timing...true love waits....=)