Countdown 30 days...

30 days to go to our wedding. I was pretty alarmed that time is really going fast! How time flies?! Only one month left before to our wedding! kinda excited!

There are many stuffs that I am not done yet..but luckily, some are done with helps from my buddies and my dear.... What I want for my wedding is only the DIY wedding, where I can do everything by myself and spending least money.. hahaha...but, now seems, over budget ady... Ohhhh......Nevermind la... Will never have the second chance to do DIY wedding anymore...=)

I just done 5 hand bouquets for my sisters where they will be the rainbow sisters! Red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and purple! 7 sisters with 7 colors! Well, pretty easy to do it by only buying the flowers and styrofoam ball...

What gave me the most support to do DIY is, saving money and explore my creativity. What can be done by other people, I can make it also as long as, it is by hand.... So, what for spending so much money to get something that is not come from my mind? Yea...it is eat a lot of time, but, it makes fun.... So, keep going~

So, here come the post that remarked the opening of the coming soon 30 posts.... Hope that it won't be late for the only 30 posts to our wedding....=)...

 Done the thank you cards for the guests!

DIY hand bouquets for sisters.

Yea! Keep going! It's coming soon!

=)

Can it be simple?

Indeed, headache in preparing wedding...Wonder why need to be so many pantang, rules, this and that...Why cannot just let go all of those unnecessary things? Marriage will not be any better if ourselves don't exercise hard for an intimate relationship... Traditional is really driving me crazy.. Please throw away all of the tradition please........

Im feeling that Im alone in preparing wedding, as he is far apart and not beside me. Ya...frankly speaking, I felt lonely and nervous in preparing it. I am lonely and headless as sometime I have lots of idea in my minds and I wish to make it comes true...so I need someone to be firm and tell me, don't do day dreaming as my patience towards every freshment is very short one. So, always I will do something without any planning, and always too late to change...and even regret sometimes....thereafter, sometimes I hope that he is by my side to guide me and tell me, what should we do next together...well, he is lending his ears and I am lending my hands, we are cooperating....hope nothing is doing in last minute~

Not dare to imagine how will be my marriage life after this...Dear will not by my side and I have to start a new life in a new environment with my new identity as wife or should call Mrs. Yong in future.... Religion will be the most afraid one as it may blow up the wind and swing the whole house into messy...How to face with them as Im the only one who are different in religion with them....Wonder... let it go to my Father in heaven, He will guide me..

Well..one day of wedding day will be how many days of not-sufficient-sleep's preparation... Then how bout whole life of marriage??!! -.-lll

Kosong

Kosong only... Really kosong...

I'm forsaken...

Sobbing............. Uncle Yong is forsaken me and he is hugging his new baby....I have been forsaken! He can  focus on it for whole day and not text me a message...how dare him to do that! I am pretty surprised!...

Well, serious man is the most handsome one.... that's why Uncle Yong is the one who's able to attract me and be my life partner.... I can do it....just I need time to adapt with it....remember for his sake, not focus on you....he need more time on it.......

Who's that dare to be our third party?!

It is no life....

Books..........................

You grabbed my love........

='(....... sob sob....

But..........

You will put a grin on our face in future......

=).....

Cheers!

Hugging Blogger

It's been a long time ago since my last post. Sorry blogger, for abundant you for a long time...

Back to hug blogger, ya..... I almost forgotten it...Anyway, will update from time to time again...It is my private space ever and ever....

My dear started his master class since last August. He is kinda hardworking studying the notes and the homework. He needs more time to catch up as age did mean in this brain work. I felt pity when I saw his condition, as he is studying and working at the same time. It is not easy to do it...need a lots of time and stamina.... But he still comfort me for no worry about that as God is leading in front. HE will never forsake him, I know....

I called him Lao Piang after back from prewedding shoot....ha...he is quite like it....ya...Lao Piang is nice and treat me well...that's why some time I am afraid of losing him, not to other gals, but back to heaven. It is not easy working in a super stressful city, the merlion city, where people is talking with speed, walk with speed, eat with speed and everything by speed....Rush and rush.... we all don't know when we will be called back by our Heavenly Father....so, we appreciated the moment so much when we are together...

Distance ain't a problem to me now as it's still consider a problem by some people..Well, it depends on how serious you are execising your relationship...no shortcut right, but only practicing and servicing.... As long as you are doing it seriously, no matter how far you two are, chemical does work there! No doubt, we still need to keep our relationship in prayer as God is the power to hold our relationship. No HIM, no us.....=)

Lord, please give Lao Piang more wisdom in order to know Your order in his life...Bring him know YOU more....

In Jesus name, we prayed, Amen...

A cup of hot tea

A cup of hot tea.... warmed my heart... he noticed and he remembered...he is my dear..

We celebrate my 27 years old birthday on 9 June 2012. Yea, I am officially 27 years old now...my last single birthday...haha....we went to have Kushin-bo Sushi buffet and..what a bad news, my period is visiting that time, the second day.... it is kinda suffering.... But, seeing all the attractive and yummy delicacies, all pain flew in the air~! 

Well well, I want to drink the oxides drinks, but is cold...I begged him just to let me to have a little tipping of it...Then, he walked to help me to get a drink....

A cup of hot tea....

It looks not attractive at all, but it melted me....totally... Just how grateful I was to have him as my partner.... he is not following what I want, but he knows what I need and what is good to me.... If he get me a cola, maybe I will feel disappointed....Thanks for pamper me and caring me....

I am getting mad so often lately as he is quite late to back home recently.. I was feeling sleepy and I couldn't bear with the tiredness... Wonder why, it is always a bad timing for our chatting time lately.... 

I don't want to say a single word even though he urged me to say... I refused...I thought he will get mad and shout at me...It is 11pm and he just back home and settled for 30 mins...Isn't it he is more tired then me?!

Yet, he still talk nicely and always, he has the way to let me telling him the problems willingly....Ya, telling him honestly, I was angry that he was late to back home and work had almost covered our time... Thanks God for giving me patience.... finally, he tells me too about his packed schedule for whole day.... On that sudden of time, I really wanna dig a hole and jump onto it...I felt I was so childish and always want others even him to put me on the first place....not other thing.... But, where did I place him?

Dear reminded me the three keys that Jesus gave us to treasure in life. Cheer always, Pray always and Thanks Giving always....he helps me to pick up the keys..  I was so salute with his mature and positive thinking...he is living in a place which is full with tension and selfishness, but he still can draw a smile on himself and other, even on me.... he is my great soul mate...Thanks God for bringing him into my life..YOU know what did I lack of, that's why you brought him forwards.....

From now on, learn to think on behalf him....he needs my support...

It's a month ago from my last post....kinda a long time ago...ha...it's good, as I had vomitted everything to my dear...he is my blog now..LOL...

Not the end of story yet....Phase two of life is going to start soon on next year...=)

Miles away yet close in heart =)

He is miles away, not by my side, Im alone here when I am composing this post...Well, miles away yet, he is close in my heart.....

Woo Ching is the first guy I loved and he will be the last guy who will accompany me for the rest of my life. Salute with his temper, he always be good and pay patient with me when we are in small or huge quarrel. It is good to have quarrel as we knew what each other want via quarrel...No one is perfect right, but, always end a quarrel with God only and always remember back to Bible.... No Bible, no ending....=D...

Well, I am kinda excited to prepare my wedding, as I am going to get married with the guy I loved. Kinda addicted to paper craft or handmade, but I have no time to start it. My time been grabbed by all those exercise books, paper works, marking and bla bla bla.......... I hate school work... even though it been accompanied me most of the time....aiz.......

Woo Ching always advices me to love your job and be grateful for it....I always salute with his happy go lucky mood.....OK.....God knew I am weak in this point so that's why HE brings you into my life..We are puzzles right.....lol....

Time is flying and we have really a neat time to be together.......I cherish you, my dear...=)

Thanks God for not leaving me and bringing the sunny guy into my life at the right timing...=)

Love . Time.

Love is time....Time is love... Time is precious, Love is meaningful...No time, no love...

Since we know how is the time ticking, we celebrate Mother's Day with our beloved parents...But only on that day? or everyday we should say, Happy Mother's Day...

How time flies.. How long will be the time be together with our parents....No one else know the time... Cherish them while they are still beside you...Who knows one day, they are no longer there....

Cut the crap if you are still saying that I don't like my mom...Rebellious kids, look upon your mom who has born you, cares you, pampers you and educates you....How much she sacrificed for you... you have no right to say, you don't like her...

Mom, Dad, just knew that how you two feel pain with the aging.... Health no longer that strong as before.. I will try my best to stay at home, to accompany you more and more...Well, cut the service doesn't mean that I am running away...I just want to stay at home more..

Happy Parents' Day, to my beloved Mom and Dad..=)

Our first anniversary!

How time flies....finally we had our one year nett for our relationship.. Thanks God for bringing him into my life...I really cherish him...he will be my partner, listener and my soulmate in future....Thanks God, Im not alone here...as You always lead us in every circumstances ...

Within this year, there are really lots of madness and depression..... I did think of break up! I want to end the relationship because I feel so tension in this relationship...like I always force him to do some things that he doesn't like..I felt guilty... he treats me with patient and passion... Tears rolling down after talk with him after the incident....we frank to each other....the only way we always back to God and pray for our relationship...we need His mercy on us as we are not strong enough and always depressed with situation around... Woo Ching really treats me good.... Why he treat me so good! Thanks God.... You had trained him to be so good....

We had promised each other, no matter what happen, we never call off the relationship, but in other way, we back to God and pray to Him.. We always train ourselves to end a quarrel with a prayer...yea...it's remedy our tiring heart....

Dear, you say you will never let it end, now is I will say, I will never let you go....Let's us study and work hard together with God's mercy for our future!.. Yeah!! Our God always the winner!

Never get slam down by worries!

Uncle Yong is back to Singapore today and we had done with what we should done in these few days.. Thanks God for Your wonderful guidance...what I am worried is all done smoothly....

We finally bought our house! The contract is done! The loan is done! But, have to start to save money... a huge amount to pay each month...No worry, God's grace is ample for all of us....=)

Wonder why, I miss Uncle Yong so much after he was back to SG. I am fall in love with him more deeply day by day...he is nice to me and what I admired him most is his good temper...yea, he is a bit fast temper sometime, but this is called efficiency in other word we said.... And, always..he will move one step backward when we are quarrel.... 

Still remember the first day when we are in a relationship, I was so cool to him...he is still treat me good and always will discuss everything with me...I prefer such way even in some cases people around will see that look like he is monitoring everything, but all outcomes are came from our discussion and not from one side only... 

Distance relationship seems hard for me now, as I miss him so much...I miss the time when we went to fellowship together, we went to visit our just-foundationally-built's house, discuss how to design our new house, miss the time when my foots was inside the muddy field and he shouted," watch out! you a... just follow me at the back, follow my footsteps...". Hhaha.... my man, you are my head in future~

Well....

GOD , all of these graces came from YOU. We are nothing without YOUR mercy on us... We are in the relationship as YOU knows who is the most suitable person for us...Once again, we put our relationship, our marriage, our family in future in YOUR hand....YOU gave us a house and once again, we put our future house in YOUR hand. Housing loan, developers...all are not big worries. What we know is GOD is in control in everything and YOU has the most power on everything which can shake the mountain! Tell worries that we have the Almighty GOD and not telling GOD, I have a big worry...

Gal, you should grown mature, to be the great companion to your partner...control your emotion and be a lovely gal....grown up to be a lovely lady, to be a wife and to be a mom in future...

Thanks GOD again, for giving us so much grace...May LORD leads us in any moment, any place, any circumstances in future..

In JESUS's name, we prayed..

Amen... 

Today's meeting

It is 4:30 in the afternoon and we are still trapped in the meeting... 2 hours gone but haven't go into the topic of the day! What is going on? Are we too free and have lots time to be your audience?!

I'm really salute to you, ah tao... Do you ever notice that non of us is listening.. It's too bored.. What's the point we know all that facts? seems pointless for us.. What we want is just simply a rest and a neat nap.. Don't grab our time please..

7 mins past, finally it is going to start.. But ah tao is gone! He is left! Oh man! How dare he did that?! Disappointed with him... We are low bat now.. Low bat and low bad...

iPhone always my best companion during the meeting when rubbish talk is flying in the air.. Well... I'm busy in the meeting! Hehe.. First, take out my iPhone, surfing or check mail, then I'll take a picture around me just for fun! Anything can color the white square paper. If it's too pretty, well... I'm not fussy to share in FB! Haha.. Sometime syok sendiri is a way of release tension.. Lol! I just figure out that the wifi in the meeting room is strong enough for me to blogging! Oh... It's time to update my blog!

See, how busy I was in the meeting! Who says meeting is boring! Lol!! =P

JUDGEMENT

We care for people judgement...we mind about others' judgement... but, do we mind about Lord's judgement?

Learnt JUDGEMENT in tonight's disciple. Feel horrified and examine myself once more..

We as a people, is really stubborn and arrogant... we always mind about how is the world looking on us, do what ever in other's favor, but do we ever think of what does God's want in His eyes? Do we ever think of that? Sometime, we ignore our own mistakes and pretending that we are not doing wrong, other people also do like that, anything wrong? no right...and please don't be too sensitive....blablabla...

Do not be stubborn anymore as JUDGEMENT is coming soon!

I'm nobody without HIM

Seriously, I was quite need to examine my belief now.. Am I really rely and believe on my Savior King? I will worry about something even I prayed for it already.. What for I worried about tomorrow, for tomorrow is in HIS hand..

I was quite down when thinking of our future house where it's quite a big amount we need to pay.. Ya.. Bit regret to buy such an expensive house.. When can we finish paying those loan? How long the time will be taken? If both of us lost our jobs, what will happen then? Will us still happy like now?

Just back from SG last Sunday and had a chat with Ping ping... She doesn't has mind of marriage anymore! So shocking! She was so enthusiasted to get married last year when we meet in Christmas. Her reason is she still want to enjoy single life. Once get married, she wants both are side by side but not apart. Look in me...Uncle Yong and I are going to get married next year, but we will still stay apart after that... Most of buddies saying that, after marriage must stay together, if not, just delay and delay.. I'm fine with that.. For me, staying apart is not a big problems for us, at least now we agreed to nearly finish paying the housing loan first.

Yea.. Only God know something deep in my heart.. Who say I'm not worrying... Everything looks fine now but who knows what will happen in future? Will he get trapped at outside? Gosh! My mind is full with him anytime... I'm the one trapped by him... Ha... My first love...

God, I pray to you again.. I'm nobody without YOU.. You bring us together and I'm so grateful with Your gift to me... I put him on Your hand for You are our Father.. Do not worry for tomorrow for everything will be fine as we prayed! Thank you Lord..

In Jesus name, I pray..Amen..

Life of recent

My blog is outdate now.... It's such a long time I was away here...Yea, less writing the blog...Ha,...as I have the real ears besides me...where he can be my listener and my mentor....

yea.. life is still busy, and looks more clumsy this time....hmm....what's going wrong?! Anyway, still thanks giving as God brought all stuffs to me...and He knows how far is my ability....

Well, I would like to comment a bit about 4S2 in 2010 with 4S2 in 2012. It is really really a great different. Well.... I like 4S2 in 2010..They are active and brilliant! Even thought they are talkative, yet they are smart! But, 4S2 in 2012 are so so disappointing.... They are passive and impolite and worse! not serious in study! I was frustrated finally yesterday where a boy sparked it! I was screaming madly and feeling that my blood is boiling and it's going to burn out anytime! I was so angry at that time... The most unwanted is when asking about whether they are able to follow or not, they are just keep silent and silent.... Excuse me...please give me a response! Headache!!!!

Just hope that their result wont be too worse in the end of the year......

Dates

I just rolled back to the dates to recall the important dates with Uncle Yong...I feel so.......just an undescribable feeling with him besides me... I am ready myself towards marriage life where I am going to hang out the rest of my life with him..... All sweet memories within... Thanks God for attached us together..... May our relationship glorify Thy Name...!

It's so unfair!

I just wonder why my school will make such a decision... Just realize that it is so unfair!

Why we need to use two work books for one subject? Poor students have to use the more simple one just because they will definitely not able to answer...

Oh man! it is so ridiculous... The work book is too simple and the question is not the standard examination question... OK... if you says it is to attract their attention in learning, so, we just teach them the most basic one for each chapter...Is it fair? it is fair enough to the poor students? We are teachers and we should teach every part of the chapter... it is not our rights to choose which part to score by the students.. If he or she is a smart student in that poor class, no matter how hard he or she works, the most he or she gets will be just what they learn, but they never know that there are still a little small part of the question which ignored by teacher...

I felt so angry today and I just wonder, how come the heads are so clumsy in making such decision...they never stand on behalf of the boys and gals who are poor, but just thinking on behalf of teachers, to make the job easier... But, who is going to responsible to the students? They just like been cheated by the teachers after they knew the actual pattern of the questions.... Aiz...I was so sigh~

It's just grumble here...

Domestic violence

Man should not hit woman, this is called domestic violence...

Only one reason will lead to divorce and this is the reason...

I really don't like meeting

It is really breaking the record! I had 4 meetings continuously for this week... It is such a nonsense!...

I really don't like meeting... Always the meeting comes out with zero conclusion, but time has been wasted...what we gain? We gained the pain, the tiredness and the sleepiness... I wonder why my school like meeting so much....

When the meeting is ongoing, most of us who are the teachers are not paying attention...After the meeting is finished, we don't even remember or don't even understand what is the purpose of the meeting...sometime, there is no conclusion for the important point to be discussed! This is what I most hated.... Please make it short and neat...don't drag us for a long time!

Well, I had two disgusting meetings lately.... their words are like shit and nonsense... If you called us for meeting, to discuss something, asking us to settle something in a meeting, then why you fight back all of our opinions? We are just comments and bringing out the problems...the problem is there.... we are not fooling you around ok.... Yet, why you are frustrating? I wonder... Are we demanding? Eating the food with high price but still not tasting good...are we demanding for more quantity and quality? Eating the same food in all weekdays throughout the year and yet, still the same foods for the new year, are we demanding for asking more choices in the new year? Birds' shit is seeing around, are we demanding for a cleaner place for dining? Wonder.... People are just like doing the show... I really feel disgusting....

How I hope there is some changes in our school...but without the unity, it is hard to be done.....

Lord is training me to be more patient.... to deal with people, to love the one that is not my liking.... ya...accept them just like how Jesus Christ accept me also.... =)

First day of school reopen

I was so bek tahan with my school, always playing magic huh?! fooling us around and around.... and, they do not like to keep their promise! I hate it!

I have to teach 3 BC classes this year which I was so frustrated now. In the earliest, just two classes been promised, but end up with three classes now! DAMN! I am not expert in this subject la....you want me fooling the students, just like how you fooling us around?! Why it is third year but I still need to worry with my subjects to teach? and now, BC, guess I have no way to run out again..... I been trapped and cheated! It is so bek song!

So, I went to fight for two classes only this afternoon, yet cool water poured on me....Hard to change o, try your best la, your SPM results is so good, you can do it, no worry! Shit la.... don't bullshit me ok! Is me teaching, not you!

I want to fight again! Pray to God first before fight with you people! I believe justice is always there!

Big surprise!

Uncle Yong gave me a big surprise tonight!

Dui di dui di....!!!

Like usual, Tango rang up and the clock shown 10:10pm, where it is the time that we are going to have our oversea conversation. I was not feeling well tonite as I was still caught in flu and a bit blur~

In the mid of our conversation, Uncle Yong told me that he has asked his Dad to book the hotel or restaurant on next year for a big occasion! My eyes suddenly bling-ed! I BEG YOUR PARDON?! I never heard you mentioned before! I kept on asked him how could he made such a big decision without acknowledge me first....ha.....

Anyway, I am not angry but I felt touching and cared! he is not playing trick with me, he is serious with his words..... I don't know what to say at that moment, but only know laugh and laugh...cos I felt it is such a miracle that we can be into this progress.... This is all Glory To GOD, as HE is leading us all this way.... HE cares us so much! Thank you LORD!

Recall through 2011, I dragged him for 9 months but he never give up... I kept on asking the same problems about religious after we started the relationship for 2 months, but he never give up... I have been so childish for so many months, but he pampered me with patient.... Frank to say, I am afraid to lost him sometimes.... It is so unreal, since he is not besides me always... But he gave me the simple confidence and the faith... And the most important is, we have JESUS CHRIST between us. HE tied us tight and more tight. Without HIM, no idea where will us be apart, even face to face we are still strange with each other...

Full of grace for the year 2011...... Thank You LORD! And...............

Thanks for your companion throughout the year!