The last day of Jan 2010

It's the last day for Jan 2010...how time flies...I have been a genuine teacher for a month....

Frankly speaking, i still can't believe that i am a genuine teacher now...I can't imagine in my hand how will the kids be after a year...

I teach one good class and one weak class plus a foundation. I faced a great challenge in teaching the weak class...Like the same as my practical time, I need to brief up all the important points and teach them in the most simple way...My mission is to teach them to pass, not to get an A, or B, or C, or D. Sometimes, i facing failure...They hardly can understand or master a topic...Sometimes i felt weird...They still don't know what is the whole topic talking about after I done the whole chapter....Oh...what a great stunning to me!! i felt a great pity on them...They have been studied for at least 10 years, but their standard is not equivalent to their syllabus...Oh...

If you comment that i am the lucky one, yea...i agree with you too...I have been posted to my own hometown and get to teach my own major. Before the posting, we all afraid that we will be posted to outskirts....but who knows, get own hometown...then afraid again that won't get our major as my hometown was crowded with science teachers....yet, who know, get to teach also....I am blessed indeed...

Yet, somehow, i still not satisfied with it...

Don't know why, i am afraid other ppl will know that i am teacher... I don't like ppl asking me this kind of questions...

Don't know why.....................

Sophaholic....

I think I was too stressed lately...

It is Friday yesterday...After I finished marking the exercise books, it was 3:30pm in the afternoon. It was raining cats and dogs outsides....No deal, I wait till 4pm...I was so blur at that time...Finally, I can go home....

While driving, I suddenly have the urge to shopping....Oh...CNY is around the corner...Thereafter, I drove to Parkson, the only place I shopping here....As it is still raining, so, i parked my car at the car park...Walking with flying legs, it's shopping time^^...

Oh....There are too many choices for jeans. I need to update my jeans...as all are quite loose after years...I bought three pieces of jeans, one piece of skirt and one piece of shirt.. All together RM157.65...Ok, then i went to pay the money...Oh man!! My cash are just exactly enough to pay it!! But, how to go home? My car was in the car park!!!

What a coincident my hp was flat that time....I rummage my wallet and handbag...Thank God, i found 30 cents...=')....smile with tears... I used the only 30 cents to call my Mom to rescue me....Get the money from Mom and drove myself home...

On the way, thinking that I was just an insane...what a big laugh to myself...=)

Nauseating....

Do you ever see this? You can also swim here besides swimming pool....good idea...saving money, saving time and sunbathe....

I think this is the n time i saw these boys swimming in the drain...very disgusting....Imagine that, the amoeba, paramesium, euglena is swimming together with them, not only around them, but also inside their blood vessel...together with their lungs, with their heart....What an unbridled 'sport'....yuck...

From mono to poly, from B & W to colour screen.....

I got a new handphone lately...it was from my brother...no deal, i always use the second hand ...hmm....it doesn't matter as i am not hand phone madman...

Well well, it's been the 2nd week i used it. Overall, i was quite satisfied with it's function...It has wifi connection, therefore, while in school, this is the only entertainment for me during free period. I was mad to online with handphone now...haha...use it to update my FB status, to check mail, to reply msgs....bla bla bla...one more thing, it has nice stereo...I am loving it...

Well, i guess this is the 8th handphone I used. Still remember that I have the very first handphone while i finished F5 as I do part time job in the holidays...therefore, Brother gave me his handphone...2nd hand again...haha....It was 8250, i used it for about 3 years i guess..

Then, I got the offer to uni...then, Mom bought a new handphone to me...Fuyoo...finally have my very first brand new handphone...That time i was frenzied with folding handphone, so, I choose Samsung E600..the very first Samsung handphone i used... But i just used it for 3 months i guess..it's has a bad function.

Then, I changed to Sony Ericsson T630, as saw some of my friends using it, and sounding good....Oh...i can say that, this is the most unlucky handphone..It 'died' so badly....Just that day, i put it on a cupboard, then someone calling, and it dropped from the cupboard...the screen, all spoiled....I was so pity to see on it...Anyway, i still not convenient in using Sony or Samsung, i admit, i still prefer Nokia...

Thereafter, my brother gave his handphone again...again, 2nd hand...haha...the pink Nokia 3100..Another story for this handphone...I took it to Penang in my 2nd semester of first year...That day is Chap Goh Meh, I just back from shopping with friends...damn tired...I just throw my shirts and pyjamas into the pail...then open the water tap...After the water halfly covered the dirty shirts, i just realized that i forgot my hp in my skirts!!!! Oh man...I cried as I thought that i need to buy a new hp again...I felt so guilty that time cos i changed quite a number of hp before this....Then, i try to hair dried it....So thanks, it still can be used...

Then, is the most long life handphone to me...Nokia 7610...Again, from my brother too...I used it until I graduate...It is really good hp. I like its camera, clear and sharp...I always use it to self-portrait...haha....In between, I also use Nokia 6288 and 5610, but all have a short life span...what a pity....

And, the last one, N81, my darling at the moment....^^..Again, from my brother..haha..

Blogging with my new handphone..

I just get a new handphone last few days..it is N81. I love it very much now...as it has wi-fi connection..thats mean i can connect anytime i like as long as there is wireless..So,now,i testing by blogging online in school..its work! So,this is the first post i written by my new handphone..

WITH ALL I AM

This is a christian song sang by Hillsongs...I was quite keen on this song lately, even I had listen to it for a few years dy...It's lyrics is like so:

Hillsongs United - With all I am
Into your hand I commit again
with all I am for You Lord

You hold my world in the palm of your hand
and I'm yours forever

CHORUS
Jesus I believe in you Jesus I belong to you
You're the reason that I live the reason that I sing
With all I am

I'll walk with You wherever You go
through tears and joy
I'll trust in You

and I will live
in all of Your ways and
Your promises forever

I will worship I will worship you forever

Still remember that, that day, i was on my way to school...woke up quite early in the morning, as have duty for these three months...When I listen the chorus part, unpredicted, I cried...Tears rolled down my cheeks..."Jesus I believe in You, Jesus I belong to You". I know, Jesus wants me to be here, He has He owns reasons....I don't know when I will get to know it, but, He had planned everything to me...

While getting older, I did frustrate with future...I still have a lot of plans that haven't undergo yet..I still have a lot of places that haven't go yet...Sometimes even have a lot of ideas, yet, I hardly can deal my own favor...

I have a pretty picture with my future...I want to have my own home-sweet-home, have my own babies...During family day, I have my hubby sitting besides me and I can rely on his shoulder, watching our babies walking towards us..In the evening, we can walk hand in hand at the garden, with our babies....When we are old, we still sitting on the bench, watching our children bringing our grandchildren walking toward us...

Who said I don't want to get married?

Blessed year

Year 2009 is going to end soon...2 days left... Then, we have to say again, Adieu 2009, Aloha 2010!!
Every year, until this moment, we will look back what we have done for this whole year....Yea, at this moment, i confess, 2009 is a blessed year to me... indeed..

In the earliest of year 2009, I attended my practical school, together with Belle...And glad that, even we were tired and full with challenges, but thanks, we have nice teachers and colleagues...We finished our practical...with flying color and happy ending....

In the mid of Year 2009, I went back to my hometown, with fullest of unwilling....Mind brimming with grudge...the dark moment in my life after went back...I don't want to stay at home, I want to go away, but I can't choose my way...Bickering, wrangle, squabble congested my home...But, thanks, I have undergone it...

Then, is time for GSTT...I rejected the offer from my most wanted school...But, thanks, what i got for the rest is much more then what i have wished...The blessing is ample...I met with the lovable kids in the school, the nice and friendly principal and the good colleagues....

In August, I graduated...Mom and Dad have their very first child wearing the graduation gown...I am glad to be their proud as well...At this moment, I no longer a braces gal. Two years of braces life ended too with my foot stepped out from the threshold of my university...Hurray!!

I met with a lot of friends this year, as started to have fellowship here...I have tried to be usher as well in my church...Since i will be staying long here, then I cannot stop my service as well, this is the basic responsibility for every Christian...

I went to 3 schools this year, and the third school will be the most challenging school to me and i will be in this school for a long long time, i guess....Maybe 2 years, 3 years, or even 10 years.. O.O!!!

Sometimes i am thinking that, i am a rebellious gal and full of sin...as i always quarrel and irrespective to my parents, to my friends and never think for others...But, why? why He still loves me? sustained me to encounter everything? years by years....

Single is a sin?

Is single a sin? Why you are still single? Why no boy friend? Oh...everyone is urging me to pah toh...It's my deadline....

Lately, there are so many anonymous texting me...I was bored with that. When we exchange FB, I have that kind of feeling, am I that lousy to meet with them? Why do I need such a way to meet my life partner? Is that a sin if I have never been fall in love before?

No feel is zero feel...how to start if really have no feeling with them? Love is never try....It is hurting if not managed properly...I don't like matching!

Caroling in hometown

This year I have Christmas celebration in my hometown...Every year, i was so looking forward for the Christmas...But, this year seems nothing fresh...the mood, no longer enthusiastic...

Don't know why, I was quite down with my social relationship now...From today's caroling, i just realize that hardly can find a close friend to accompany me to go....I suddenly felt that, where is my friends? I hardly can find some intimate friends to hear my mumbling....I was quite down now....even I still said Marry Christmas to everyone....Such an irony, huh?!

A friend have been posted to Bintulu..She was cried once she knew the news...I was sad too....She is the one who i always phoned when i want to have a long chat...She will always listens and then say something to cheer me up....She is the type free to play and kidding one....But now, she is going soon....haiz....sigh.....

She is Irene, the tallest gal....
This pic was taken when we are doing a farewell for another friend....let it be her farewell too....
Bye gal....meet you soon in Chinese New Year...All the best!!

Merry Christmas!

Wish to have a different Christmas this year, but seems that everything still the same.....

It is Christmas today! Have a blessed Christmas everyone!!

Ending?

Year 2009 is drawing a close soon...It is 10th of December today...But there are lots of thing not yet a close....

The hottest news that hauling 7 billion people in the world, the Global warming...Is it ended?
This is no more a fresh news, years and years it been repeated and have been highlighted for n times....but there is no conclusion at all...By all means, Climate Conference 2009 in Copenhagen is what a damn essential to solve this problem, but where are the solutions? Earth is gaining hot and hot....Warning have been given that if the Earth's temperature gained 4c, then there will be the end of the world..the real end! Those who attending the conference are all like famous celebrities. They have a great show in the conference. What a great condolences that not only them, but us too...We are just like a frog beneath the transparent well, we know what is happening outside, but we have no action...Have eyes, but can't see, have ears, but can't hear....

Starvation...Is it ended?
7 billions population in the world, 6 billions have 3 meals, yet, 1 billions having starvation...When you are putting the bread or chocolate into your mouth, do you ever think that there is a kid who is far away from you having kwashiorkor now? We were so blessed now, as we always have a full tummy, but what about them? Don't grumble that you are not full yet, be grateful that you have food to eat....

Economic decline...Is it ended?
World Economic have no bright future for the moment....In America, there are 1540 millions unemployed. Among 3 families, there are one unemployed family. Life is gaining harder and harder....

Abortion, divorce...Are these ended?
Once a pair decided to marry, they had promised that they will love each other till the end of the life...But nowadays, divorce is simply done...Just a signature, you are not my life partner anymore...
I don't want this baby...just abort it...I hate this baby..This is not my baby...just abort it...Abortion is simply done nowadays...

Where is the ending? Or I should ask, will there be an ending? Sigh...

Grandpa

Grandpa was passed away last Monday...All were very sad that day...A bit fine now...

Grandpa...May you peace in God and let's God leads you to the promised place....I love you...

Diet is a long life story

I have been seriously to keep fit since i back to my hometown, since June....Till now, it's the 7th month I putting much effort on it...Glad to see the result as my weight lose from 55kg to 51 kg, even just a decrement of 4 kg, but it is a great succeed to me dy....Give myself a big clap..^^...I have never lose any single kg in before...But, my ideal weight is 47 kg, still have another 4 kg to cut....No change at all now....=(...Hmm...

I think i need to find another way to make it real....My diet plan is, exercise for at least 40 minutes everyday and control my mouth....I always defeated by the food, this is what most bothering me now..as I am a big-eater...hehe...Just step by step, don't give up and satisfy with the present mode!!!! Diet is a long life story.......

Saturday night

Last night wast the first time I went to club in my hometown. We were there is to celebrate a long-time-no-see friend's birthday, just due to curious....nothing more...Anyway, to put it bluntly, i don't like it...

Stepped into the club, the loud music is going to blow up your brain, your heart and every cell in your body..Talking inside, is just like shouting as a lunatic...hardly can talk...sitting on the barstool, we just look around, seeing what are the people doing....Whao.....the gals there....they are so sexy....we are out...haha...night kitties...And all were dancing kings and queens....chikki boom boom...chikki boom boom.....

Our friends, the birthday boy were drunk and he no longer can entertaint us...Haha..other are holding Heineken in their hands, but we are holding Coca-cola...Thereafter, we ordered Vodka and finished in one goal....Yamsheng!!! What to say, just 5% alcohol, nothing surprised....

We stayed there for one hour and half....the smoke inside polluted our hair, clothes....and we all screamed, die lo....gonna detected by Mummy.....haha.....We adieu at 12am....Say good bye to the birthday boy, we jostle between the crowd....and finally, we can breathe the fresh air outside...phew......In a nutshell, we all said that, we are not belongs to here....

We still haven't enjoy ourselves to the fullest...so, we decided to go to Tanahmas Hotel. We want to eat cheesecake.....Oh, so sad....no more.....No deal, we just ordered a cocktail with almond jelly (forgot the name actually...=P)..Hmm...nice naming, but actually just a can fruit....yuck~~~~

We chitchatting till 1.30am...is time to go back.....When reached home, i pretend Mom doesn't know that i went to club....So, i told her, Mom, i went to club just now.....Haha....she laughed at me and saying that, i know where were you going just now.....Sure la....she is my Mom...And my brother, teasing me that, he already went to a number of club already....I am the first time....so lamb.....LOL^^

Quite a frequent i dine out with my friends lately...Sometimes enjoyable, sometimes ain't...For what?! Just for fun! Just for holidays! ^^

L34's dine out

Last Friday have the first gathering of L34 in our hometown...yea...din see each other for a long time. L34 actually is the apartment that we stayed while we were studying in uni....We don't know each other before, just came to uni and we knew each others... Staying under one roof for 3 yrs, we treasure each other...yea...such a great memory in my mind....Gals, glad to meet you all....

7 of us...Oh...myue ngiik is not here...she is still in Penang..

We are teachers...sigh...


See the first gal, she is an animated gal...

Those photos are taken by our another 'sister', Mr Allen..^^

Great stunning

9 years before, we were candidates for SPM. We cried out for time to study, to learn, to finish answering the questions...9 years after, they are candidates for SPM. Yet, they cried for too much times, too much questions, too much words to write....Damn!!

Being a guard for SPM in last two days in other school, it gave me really really a great stunning... Students nowadays are such a great disappointment....I was so wondering...what was inside the students' mind? It is SPM examination, their future...They don't even bother about it!! 2hrs30mins exams is their bedtime...Sleep first....nvm, seems i don't know how to answer it...what la...they are such $#*$$%xx%%.................Some students even the exams just started for 10 minutes, they can sleep directly...When we knocked them up, they said, i finished answering already.... 0.0?!....Stunned?! They just don't care about it...I have such a great despair even I am not their teacher, what if their subject teacher or their principal or their parents standing here, what will be their feeling? Cry? Shout?Thump their chest in deepest sorrow?

Yet, what irrigate my distress is I saw a handicapped boy trying hard to answer the questions,he din waste any single minute to sleep....Even the most hated one, History, he still tried hard to answer....I have a great impression of him because he looks like samseng gia...but when I look at his name, he is bumi...So, never judge a person from his or her outlooks....In the hall, there are many well-looking and tidy boys and gals. Nevertheless, most of them are look impressive but lack real worth....Now, i realize, the hardest students to teach is not the stupid one, not the silly one, not the handicap one, but the stubborn one!

Haha....Thinking that there is no more hope? No no..sure there are students who are still like us previously, cried out for time, squeeze their brain to answer the questions...So, cannot said that teacher, why you like the good students more? No fair o....It is not about fair or what, but they deserved to have that....If you want it too..change yourself!

p/s: Do you know that which subject teacher will be the fastest one who finished marking the papers? Deng deng deng....The answer is History teachers!! Hurray~~~ -.-!!!

Rainy Sunday

It's raining outside and can't go jogging as well....So, I find pleasure with nail art this afternoon...Hehe..this is the pattern that i most likable for the moment, which i used the silver powder and colourless nail enamel to make a simple design...saw it from a magazine...

Halfway....

Done.....

Let's take a pic....

And...

Finally i received the bag that i purchased online last week. Now I will update the post that i wrote two months before...Hmm...quite a long time waiting for it....
So far, I am quite satisfied with it's pattern. But, frank to say, nice to see, yet not comfortable to carry. My shoulder felt tired and can't put much things inside...Never mind la, just for ornament.
My first Camel brown bag

And

Like what i said, if I like it, will order other bags again, so, here are the bags that i purchased....Another two months to wait....

Frenzied with camel brown..^^

Responsibility

It is raining cats and dogs lately....And, yesterday I saw a touching incident...

Yesterday morning, while everyone are preparing the hot and delicious breakfast, preparing to read newspapers...Hmm...where is today's newspapers? Oh man.... the paperboy forgot to deliver it again....Just a short while, a motorcycle rode in and gave me newspaper. He is not a boy, but an uncle...And, what touched me most, is he was drenched...He has raincoat, but he used it to wrap the newspapers....in order to deliver it to customer's hand in good condition. I was quite touched while I saw it...He is really a responsible worker even he is just a deliveryman....

Yea, every work should be done with responsible...Where am i,where the responsible is....I think no one can withstand with those who is NATO (No action, talk only). Responsible is the major principle in life...by this, we can won other's trust...

Stepping into working life, really, every work need to be done with responsibility and never afraid being taken for granted...By this, you can learn more....never afraid to suffer.....Do what you think is correct and should be done....

School holidays is going to start. At first, I have a pretty plan for my holidays, where I am going to have vacation somewhere, but now all are froth....=(...I need to guard SPM examination...It is a 'good' news to me...Hahaha~~At first, I was not in the list as i just came to the school for few weeks. But, there is a teacher who he needs to accompany his wife for operation. Then, he found another young teacher to substitute him. Yet, that young teacher went back on his promise, as he stayed quite far away....Then, they targeted me.....I don't want. also..Who wants such bored thing?!...I asked them to let me ponder for a while....Anyway, i promised them at last...Don't why, after I said okay, both of them looks like discharged, and I have no feeling of sad or regret too...Just helping others, indeed, they really need help...Hmm...Holiday? holiday with students? haha....

I wish to have a different Christmas this year, the first Chirstmas I gonna have in my hometown after being away for 4 years....=)

p/s: That uncle is deliveryman from See Hua Daily News..^^

How to be a good teacher?

I am on my way searching for the suitable to entertain my students....How to be a good teacher? This is the question I asked quite frequent lately... I want to be strict, but this teacher will be blacklisted by the students..will become the thorn in students' flesh...If I be smooth with them, they will 'climb up' high, to the forehead, even you asked them to come down, they don't even want....

Teaching nowadays no longer about teach only, but about class control...I always being reminded that, teacher is judged by how is he or she controls the class....Teaching can be improved anytime, but priority is well-administering the class... once you failed to control the class, the students won't follow you anymore....It is indeed tired to be strict every time, to be firm every time....Oh....will I get hypertension after few years? hmm....wondering...

The 3rd week i came to my new school...I have more or less fit with the environment...Don't know why, i felt that i will be stay in this school for a long time.....will i?

I am still the same

Still the same? ya, the bad habits still the same....4 years staying outsides, i though i have learned of how to get around with others, even with my family...Worse that I am still the same, maintain as a self-centered girl, maintain as a bad-tempered girl, maintain as an easily frustrated girl....

Since back, frank to say, i don't much treasure my family. Worse that i always quarrel with them and 'peel' their heart, who the most is my parents....Never once i say sorry to them, but always is them who started to talk to me...But, the thorns are still there....

In the last 4 years, i seldom quarrel with them, i doubt that, is it away from family will make me treasure my family more? staying under one roof only makes more conflicts? That's why i always want to leave...Since i know my posting in my hometown, i was so disappointed and told my parents, that's what they gave me...They have to withstand the consequences....

I hate myself, i know i should not talk that every heartrending words, but i can't control my damn mouth! Always regret after everything is too late..All of these were just excuses, excuses to make myself feeling better for not have brave to leave....I am a coward....