Blessed year

Year 2009 is going to end soon...2 days left... Then, we have to say again, Adieu 2009, Aloha 2010!!
Every year, until this moment, we will look back what we have done for this whole year....Yea, at this moment, i confess, 2009 is a blessed year to me... indeed..

In the earliest of year 2009, I attended my practical school, together with Belle...And glad that, even we were tired and full with challenges, but thanks, we have nice teachers and colleagues...We finished our practical...with flying color and happy ending....

In the mid of Year 2009, I went back to my hometown, with fullest of unwilling....Mind brimming with grudge...the dark moment in my life after went back...I don't want to stay at home, I want to go away, but I can't choose my way...Bickering, wrangle, squabble congested my home...But, thanks, I have undergone it...

Then, is time for GSTT...I rejected the offer from my most wanted school...But, thanks, what i got for the rest is much more then what i have wished...The blessing is ample...I met with the lovable kids in the school, the nice and friendly principal and the good colleagues....

In August, I graduated...Mom and Dad have their very first child wearing the graduation gown...I am glad to be their proud as well...At this moment, I no longer a braces gal. Two years of braces life ended too with my foot stepped out from the threshold of my university...Hurray!!

I met with a lot of friends this year, as started to have fellowship here...I have tried to be usher as well in my church...Since i will be staying long here, then I cannot stop my service as well, this is the basic responsibility for every Christian...

I went to 3 schools this year, and the third school will be the most challenging school to me and i will be in this school for a long long time, i guess....Maybe 2 years, 3 years, or even 10 years.. O.O!!!

Sometimes i am thinking that, i am a rebellious gal and full of sin...as i always quarrel and irrespective to my parents, to my friends and never think for others...But, why? why He still loves me? sustained me to encounter everything? years by years....

Single is a sin?

Is single a sin? Why you are still single? Why no boy friend? Oh...everyone is urging me to pah toh...It's my deadline....

Lately, there are so many anonymous texting me...I was bored with that. When we exchange FB, I have that kind of feeling, am I that lousy to meet with them? Why do I need such a way to meet my life partner? Is that a sin if I have never been fall in love before?

No feel is zero feel...how to start if really have no feeling with them? Love is never try....It is hurting if not managed properly...I don't like matching!

Caroling in hometown

This year I have Christmas celebration in my hometown...Every year, i was so looking forward for the Christmas...But, this year seems nothing fresh...the mood, no longer enthusiastic...

Don't know why, I was quite down with my social relationship now...From today's caroling, i just realize that hardly can find a close friend to accompany me to go....I suddenly felt that, where is my friends? I hardly can find some intimate friends to hear my mumbling....I was quite down now....even I still said Marry Christmas to everyone....Such an irony, huh?!

A friend have been posted to Bintulu..She was cried once she knew the news...I was sad too....She is the one who i always phoned when i want to have a long chat...She will always listens and then say something to cheer me up....She is the type free to play and kidding one....But now, she is going soon....haiz....sigh.....

She is Irene, the tallest gal....
This pic was taken when we are doing a farewell for another friend....let it be her farewell too....
Bye gal....meet you soon in Chinese New Year...All the best!!

Merry Christmas!

Wish to have a different Christmas this year, but seems that everything still the same.....

It is Christmas today! Have a blessed Christmas everyone!!

Ending?

Year 2009 is drawing a close soon...It is 10th of December today...But there are lots of thing not yet a close....

The hottest news that hauling 7 billion people in the world, the Global warming...Is it ended?
This is no more a fresh news, years and years it been repeated and have been highlighted for n times....but there is no conclusion at all...By all means, Climate Conference 2009 in Copenhagen is what a damn essential to solve this problem, but where are the solutions? Earth is gaining hot and hot....Warning have been given that if the Earth's temperature gained 4c, then there will be the end of the world..the real end! Those who attending the conference are all like famous celebrities. They have a great show in the conference. What a great condolences that not only them, but us too...We are just like a frog beneath the transparent well, we know what is happening outside, but we have no action...Have eyes, but can't see, have ears, but can't hear....

Starvation...Is it ended?
7 billions population in the world, 6 billions have 3 meals, yet, 1 billions having starvation...When you are putting the bread or chocolate into your mouth, do you ever think that there is a kid who is far away from you having kwashiorkor now? We were so blessed now, as we always have a full tummy, but what about them? Don't grumble that you are not full yet, be grateful that you have food to eat....

Economic decline...Is it ended?
World Economic have no bright future for the moment....In America, there are 1540 millions unemployed. Among 3 families, there are one unemployed family. Life is gaining harder and harder....

Abortion, divorce...Are these ended?
Once a pair decided to marry, they had promised that they will love each other till the end of the life...But nowadays, divorce is simply done...Just a signature, you are not my life partner anymore...
I don't want this baby...just abort it...I hate this baby..This is not my baby...just abort it...Abortion is simply done nowadays...

Where is the ending? Or I should ask, will there be an ending? Sigh...

Grandpa

Grandpa was passed away last Monday...All were very sad that day...A bit fine now...

Grandpa...May you peace in God and let's God leads you to the promised place....I love you...

Diet is a long life story

I have been seriously to keep fit since i back to my hometown, since June....Till now, it's the 7th month I putting much effort on it...Glad to see the result as my weight lose from 55kg to 51 kg, even just a decrement of 4 kg, but it is a great succeed to me dy....Give myself a big clap..^^...I have never lose any single kg in before...But, my ideal weight is 47 kg, still have another 4 kg to cut....No change at all now....=(...Hmm...

I think i need to find another way to make it real....My diet plan is, exercise for at least 40 minutes everyday and control my mouth....I always defeated by the food, this is what most bothering me now..as I am a big-eater...hehe...Just step by step, don't give up and satisfy with the present mode!!!! Diet is a long life story.......

Saturday night

Last night wast the first time I went to club in my hometown. We were there is to celebrate a long-time-no-see friend's birthday, just due to curious....nothing more...Anyway, to put it bluntly, i don't like it...

Stepped into the club, the loud music is going to blow up your brain, your heart and every cell in your body..Talking inside, is just like shouting as a lunatic...hardly can talk...sitting on the barstool, we just look around, seeing what are the people doing....Whao.....the gals there....they are so sexy....we are out...haha...night kitties...And all were dancing kings and queens....chikki boom boom...chikki boom boom.....

Our friends, the birthday boy were drunk and he no longer can entertaint us...Haha..other are holding Heineken in their hands, but we are holding Coca-cola...Thereafter, we ordered Vodka and finished in one goal....Yamsheng!!! What to say, just 5% alcohol, nothing surprised....

We stayed there for one hour and half....the smoke inside polluted our hair, clothes....and we all screamed, die lo....gonna detected by Mummy.....haha.....We adieu at 12am....Say good bye to the birthday boy, we jostle between the crowd....and finally, we can breathe the fresh air outside...phew......In a nutshell, we all said that, we are not belongs to here....

We still haven't enjoy ourselves to the fullest...so, we decided to go to Tanahmas Hotel. We want to eat cheesecake.....Oh, so sad....no more.....No deal, we just ordered a cocktail with almond jelly (forgot the name actually...=P)..Hmm...nice naming, but actually just a can fruit....yuck~~~~

We chitchatting till 1.30am...is time to go back.....When reached home, i pretend Mom doesn't know that i went to club....So, i told her, Mom, i went to club just now.....Haha....she laughed at me and saying that, i know where were you going just now.....Sure la....she is my Mom...And my brother, teasing me that, he already went to a number of club already....I am the first time....so lamb.....LOL^^

Quite a frequent i dine out with my friends lately...Sometimes enjoyable, sometimes ain't...For what?! Just for fun! Just for holidays! ^^

L34's dine out

Last Friday have the first gathering of L34 in our hometown...yea...din see each other for a long time. L34 actually is the apartment that we stayed while we were studying in uni....We don't know each other before, just came to uni and we knew each others... Staying under one roof for 3 yrs, we treasure each other...yea...such a great memory in my mind....Gals, glad to meet you all....

7 of us...Oh...myue ngiik is not here...she is still in Penang..

We are teachers...sigh...


See the first gal, she is an animated gal...

Those photos are taken by our another 'sister', Mr Allen..^^

Great stunning

9 years before, we were candidates for SPM. We cried out for time to study, to learn, to finish answering the questions...9 years after, they are candidates for SPM. Yet, they cried for too much times, too much questions, too much words to write....Damn!!

Being a guard for SPM in last two days in other school, it gave me really really a great stunning... Students nowadays are such a great disappointment....I was so wondering...what was inside the students' mind? It is SPM examination, their future...They don't even bother about it!! 2hrs30mins exams is their bedtime...Sleep first....nvm, seems i don't know how to answer it...what la...they are such $#*$$%xx%%.................Some students even the exams just started for 10 minutes, they can sleep directly...When we knocked them up, they said, i finished answering already.... 0.0?!....Stunned?! They just don't care about it...I have such a great despair even I am not their teacher, what if their subject teacher or their principal or their parents standing here, what will be their feeling? Cry? Shout?Thump their chest in deepest sorrow?

Yet, what irrigate my distress is I saw a handicapped boy trying hard to answer the questions,he din waste any single minute to sleep....Even the most hated one, History, he still tried hard to answer....I have a great impression of him because he looks like samseng gia...but when I look at his name, he is bumi...So, never judge a person from his or her outlooks....In the hall, there are many well-looking and tidy boys and gals. Nevertheless, most of them are look impressive but lack real worth....Now, i realize, the hardest students to teach is not the stupid one, not the silly one, not the handicap one, but the stubborn one!

Haha....Thinking that there is no more hope? No no..sure there are students who are still like us previously, cried out for time, squeeze their brain to answer the questions...So, cannot said that teacher, why you like the good students more? No fair o....It is not about fair or what, but they deserved to have that....If you want it too..change yourself!

p/s: Do you know that which subject teacher will be the fastest one who finished marking the papers? Deng deng deng....The answer is History teachers!! Hurray~~~ -.-!!!

Rainy Sunday

It's raining outside and can't go jogging as well....So, I find pleasure with nail art this afternoon...Hehe..this is the pattern that i most likable for the moment, which i used the silver powder and colourless nail enamel to make a simple design...saw it from a magazine...

Halfway....

Done.....

Let's take a pic....

And...

Finally i received the bag that i purchased online last week. Now I will update the post that i wrote two months before...Hmm...quite a long time waiting for it....
So far, I am quite satisfied with it's pattern. But, frank to say, nice to see, yet not comfortable to carry. My shoulder felt tired and can't put much things inside...Never mind la, just for ornament.
My first Camel brown bag

And

Like what i said, if I like it, will order other bags again, so, here are the bags that i purchased....Another two months to wait....

Frenzied with camel brown..^^

Responsibility

It is raining cats and dogs lately....And, yesterday I saw a touching incident...

Yesterday morning, while everyone are preparing the hot and delicious breakfast, preparing to read newspapers...Hmm...where is today's newspapers? Oh man.... the paperboy forgot to deliver it again....Just a short while, a motorcycle rode in and gave me newspaper. He is not a boy, but an uncle...And, what touched me most, is he was drenched...He has raincoat, but he used it to wrap the newspapers....in order to deliver it to customer's hand in good condition. I was quite touched while I saw it...He is really a responsible worker even he is just a deliveryman....

Yea, every work should be done with responsible...Where am i,where the responsible is....I think no one can withstand with those who is NATO (No action, talk only). Responsible is the major principle in life...by this, we can won other's trust...

Stepping into working life, really, every work need to be done with responsibility and never afraid being taken for granted...By this, you can learn more....never afraid to suffer.....Do what you think is correct and should be done....

School holidays is going to start. At first, I have a pretty plan for my holidays, where I am going to have vacation somewhere, but now all are froth....=(...I need to guard SPM examination...It is a 'good' news to me...Hahaha~~At first, I was not in the list as i just came to the school for few weeks. But, there is a teacher who he needs to accompany his wife for operation. Then, he found another young teacher to substitute him. Yet, that young teacher went back on his promise, as he stayed quite far away....Then, they targeted me.....I don't want. also..Who wants such bored thing?!...I asked them to let me ponder for a while....Anyway, i promised them at last...Don't why, after I said okay, both of them looks like discharged, and I have no feeling of sad or regret too...Just helping others, indeed, they really need help...Hmm...Holiday? holiday with students? haha....

I wish to have a different Christmas this year, the first Chirstmas I gonna have in my hometown after being away for 4 years....=)

p/s: That uncle is deliveryman from See Hua Daily News..^^

How to be a good teacher?

I am on my way searching for the suitable to entertain my students....How to be a good teacher? This is the question I asked quite frequent lately... I want to be strict, but this teacher will be blacklisted by the students..will become the thorn in students' flesh...If I be smooth with them, they will 'climb up' high, to the forehead, even you asked them to come down, they don't even want....

Teaching nowadays no longer about teach only, but about class control...I always being reminded that, teacher is judged by how is he or she controls the class....Teaching can be improved anytime, but priority is well-administering the class... once you failed to control the class, the students won't follow you anymore....It is indeed tired to be strict every time, to be firm every time....Oh....will I get hypertension after few years? hmm....wondering...

The 3rd week i came to my new school...I have more or less fit with the environment...Don't know why, i felt that i will be stay in this school for a long time.....will i?

I am still the same

Still the same? ya, the bad habits still the same....4 years staying outsides, i though i have learned of how to get around with others, even with my family...Worse that I am still the same, maintain as a self-centered girl, maintain as a bad-tempered girl, maintain as an easily frustrated girl....

Since back, frank to say, i don't much treasure my family. Worse that i always quarrel with them and 'peel' their heart, who the most is my parents....Never once i say sorry to them, but always is them who started to talk to me...But, the thorns are still there....

In the last 4 years, i seldom quarrel with them, i doubt that, is it away from family will make me treasure my family more? staying under one roof only makes more conflicts? That's why i always want to leave...Since i know my posting in my hometown, i was so disappointed and told my parents, that's what they gave me...They have to withstand the consequences....

I hate myself, i know i should not talk that every heartrending words, but i can't control my damn mouth! Always regret after everything is too late..All of these were just excuses, excuses to make myself feeling better for not have brave to leave....I am a coward....

Life still going on....

I met with some new friends lately...It is really happy to get around with them..But, yesterday, a boy texted me got any interest to buy insurance...I was quite disappointed and stunned...I hate this kinds of business...and no interest at all... Since this, I started to think, did he got such intention since he met us? Why friendship cannot be simple? Is it friend is to be 'used'? I doubting....And, when met with him again today, I have some kinds of weird feeling....Am i too sensitive towards this? Am I overlooked it?

Posted to new school last week and it is really a 'special' school to me...I still need a long long time to change, alter, shift, adapt myself with the new enviroment...The students are the damn big headache to me....They are so 'special'....and such a great different with the kids in my temporary school....Haiz...I miss my kids.....Such a great pity that day can't accompany them for the last day...Sorry kids, for my broken promise....

I don't know how long I will stay here....I admit, i don't want to stay here, even a minute is such a long time to me...But, i persuade myself, it is a fact and can't be changed anymore...face it, accept it....After some years, you may go, as you done with your promise already....Don't be upset anymore....Life still going on...

Weird day

Today i met with so many weird things...First, i went to the only standarded shopping center in my hometown. When i went to ladies' handbags corner, i heard that someone sounds like shouting or scolding people. When i approached, it is true...A girl is scolding her colleague in open air...And the words are so unpleasant to hear...Oh man, what a shame...You are smearing your company's name just because you are 'deviating'... Ok, fine, you are in anger, you want to voice out, ok....But, please don't in public place...It is so unpleasant...

Then, in the afternoon, i went to another shopping center...Oh my, I was pretty happy as i found my liking again....phewit....><...So, I asked the sales girl to put it at the counter first....But, But, oh man....when I want to pay the money, it's lost...Then the cashier told me, a woman bought it.....Abu............Should I say she is blur or she actually wants to buy it, but i was one step faster than her? Then, the sales girl said she will call me if the woman returns it...Haha...what a crap....Who will return it? just a shirt....hai...This is the first time i met such absurb thing.....=( Then, i went jogging after back from shopping....You know what is the hottest item among students nowadays? Deng deng....It is magic cube...I saw children bring it all along their life. In classroom, i saw it. In outdoor, i saw it again...I saw it everywhere.... Students are very crazy with this plaything nowadays. Even primary students at my tuition center are also crazied with it....They even testing me for how fast i can finish it...Haha...what a big laugh...i don't even play it before...So, i went to buy one and try myself....Oh...so racking my brain..... I haven't resolve it...=(...

With a magic cube in hand, you are an IN people....^^

The final countdown for PMR

It is PMR examination tomorrow. And this is what the students waiting for. Today, i saw a top-notch Form 3 student cried while discussing the essay topics with her teacher.... When i saw in eyes, i felt so pity with the student. Sometimes, not be the top or the last, but be the middling is the best. And i was so glad that my students until today still happy go lucky. Studies should not a nightmare, but nature and welcoming....Students nowadays facing lots of tension and stress. They are the machine for exam. When you are good, you will be praised and vice versa.....It is reality...

Talking about my students, what to say, sometimes i felt that they are a little bit over. In these five days extra classes with them, what can say, they want to learn, but, their basic is too bad. Rome doesn't built in a day. Good work is accumulating and not miracle....No one can escape from it. But, I did see that they already tried very hard... All the best to the students.

How time flies!!! I have been accompany the kids for 5 months. Frankly speaking, i really hate them at first, but now, i can say that, i will cry if tomorrow is my last day with them. They gave me lots of happiness and memories. Sure there are despair and headache things, but, just forget about that, they are still likable. In these few months being a temporary teacher, what i learn most is face any circumstance with ordinary heart, don't put too much expectation. If planning doesn't work or became a nonsense, it doesn't matter. Sometime no planning is good too..As heart is still flexible, when changes came, just shift my heart to face it...

God, i pray for my students. Please give them an ordinary mind and heart as well as wisdom to face the exam. No matter how is their performance, that's is what the outcomes of their efforts. Ready them for the changes coming.....What is in my mind now is I hope that the kids will try their very best and never give up at the last moment. May God bless you all, kids!!!

Crazy with online buying....

Lately i was crazy with online buying, but the level still below my friend. I just like to view and explore, but not really will buy it...
Introduce you two websites where you can buy the bags online without fly to taiwan or korea...You just have to explore, target a bag, contact the dealer, bank in the money and wait for the bag to arrive...Actually i am follow my friend who is so smart in such thing and she can be said an expert dy...haha...

http://www.price.jimfashion.my/and http://baglovers08.blogspot.com/. I usually will go jimfashion as here have more choice and much more pretty...And, this is the first bag that i buy online, but will arrive after two months. So, after i received the bag, i will update my post....

If the quality of the bag is ok and the dealer is reliable, then i plan to buy those bags,
If in irony, sorry...won't consider anymore

Actually i wanted to buy it for a long time dy, but, tahan first...tahan...wait...

hmm...still considering to buy two of these...

Online buying got risks too...No refund or product exchange is you don't like the product. But, it is fun...At least we have more choices...It is really hard to buy bags in my hometown...

Am i make them too tension?

Public exam is around the corner and I was teaching one of the exam class. Indeed, i always keep on reminding them that don't waste your time anymore...No more time for you to relax. But you know how was the students response me...Oh, teacher, don't talk anymore, we are tension too....One of the student even wrote this scene in her essay....haha....But what i saw from them, they are still senang-senang....=(...Haiz...headache...

Last week, i attended a prayer meeting for the students...During the prayer, I kept on thinking that, am i giving too much stress for the students? Am i? Students nowadays no longer only facing academic stress, but also stress from their family, school and peer. Their studies no longer simple...When they got the bad results, teachers will only scold them..But who knows, they did really try hard to excel...Yet, out of expectation...I hope when the school reopen, i can use a more wisdom way to accompany them to tide over this period....

Last night, have a gathering with my uni mates....Phew...what i heard from them, all have the same opinion - after started working, the value of the note is limit and limit again... I hope i can cope with such problem in future...

Again, i met with her last night, a girl who is really really tough and again, I was so solute with her....Even she's facing so many family problems, yet till now, she still can be a happy-go-lucky gal, just like a normal and happy gal....she is really a tenacious gal...She always said that, If there is no God, she is also no longer there...Just haven't seen for a few months, she is just like grown up to be a big sister... In before, she is absolute acceptance, but now, she is the determiner. Yea...If surroundings no longer can be changed, then change your heart to face it....That is the warrior and not coward.... Gal, hope that you can continue to cast off all of these with the power of God's love....May God bless you....

Response..

What i read from the last post, all replies are so warm and touching...I now face everything with open heart, no more turning in the square...yea...it is indeed tired to always facing same thing with same mood, dull.....when something no longer can alter, then alter my heart in facing it...

Teaching life is indeed a great challenge to me....Many things are my first trial and my very first hand experience...maybe I am putting a pretty high expectation on myself, even i don't how far i can go...learning from the previous, don't always expect the outcomes will be pretty good...something may happen....=)

Well well...till today, i can only say that teaching nowadays indeed uneasy...I was wondering, why students are so easy to get satisfaction? satisfy with their 'good' result... satisfy with their present mode... Hardly can feel their urge to promote...Even the long experienced teachers are headache....Can the students change a bit....change to be better?