好不容易，这个学期的小组开始了。可能是最后的机会给我做这小组的组长，心中有好多好多的想法，好想好想做些我应该做，但还没去做的事。以前，我为小组付出太少了，我只是因责任而去做，为责任而服侍，为不让别人失望而去做。我总是以别人的标准衡量自己。每一刻我都感到疲惫，心灵的空虚。我从没问问我自己，你的心真的有在小组吗？ 你是为什么而做的？
一个学期过去了，你能为小组做的没剩多少时间了。昨天的小组，给我一个当头棒喝。原来我和其他拜偶像，信佛的，没什么两样，对自己的信仰一点都不了解，对自己的信仰有听没懂。只不过我比他们幸运点，因我相信的是今在，永在的真神。很多福音的故事，福音的真理，我都不知道。我很惭愧，因我亏欠了神。我承认我从没向身边的人传福音。他甚是爱我，但我有为他做过什么吗？只是自私的只把他的爱佔为己有。只因我害怕，害怕被别人问倒了。
我对自己的鞭策太宽了，只想得过且过，过了一天是一天。但，到基督再来的那天，我该拿什么去对他交代呢？神说，你没带一个灵魂来，你凭什么进入我的国？！
Desire
There is too much things i desired for..
Desired for vacation...
Desired for shopping...to buy a lot of things..
Desired for good achievement..
Desired for love....
Oh man....How greedy i was...I was so lose in last week... I expected i could achieve Dean list in this sem, but, i expected too high for it, i didn't get it, just a few few few point, i could achieve it...man, this is the 3rd time, the 3rd time i can get Dean list by a finger's breadth...i was so dissapointed at that time when i get to know those who get Dean list in last sem may have a meeting with Dean....I was lose... I don't desired too much, I just wish that i could get just once, just at least one time in my 4 years (8 semesters), but I didn't get, even once...I asked Lord..what do You want me to know? What do You want me to learn? patient? faith? i was totally lose my faith to Him at that time...Lord, is that you want me to know, the more I want, the more You dont want to give me? The feeling is just like........i don't know how to express....
In that whole day, i pretend myself to be happy, to be as usual, don't want to let anyone to see the true I...i was so sad actually at that time...even i was smiling, but not with the true smile..hard to understand right? u can try it yourself....
Again, I wish to meet my true love, but searching in 23 years, i haven't meet with him yet...the unknown him....feeling dissapointed with that....Where is my love?!!
But, Lord never forsake me...He still loves me...He still loves me....Just in last prayer meeting, He told me by the persons besides me, don't lose faith with Him, but with just believe and just simply be faith in Him....This song '坚定相信' gave a big nudge to me....I cried...The tear just rolling down my cheeks...God sacrificed Himself for you, for all of us to have a new life...but you lost faith in Him just because of a bagatelle...It is really a big waste for His love...ya....where is your faith? from mouth saying that you believe in Him, but how is your heart? i should not repeat my mistake ever and ever again...Now, i am not dare to desire, putting high expectation for everythings....I just want to be easy and simple, not too much desires, but just simple....I have been frightened by desire......
It is the 3rd week since i back to Penang...In the past 2 weeks, i was busy with church services... There are a lot of first tried...Thanks for giving chances...
p/s: Need to 'tidy up' my feeling to study....Actually no mood to study....
Idiot
How silly i was today... i did something damn stupid today....since there left 2 days before return Penang, so, i checked my flight ticket.....Out of my mind, i didn't have...oh man, i was damn thrilled and crazy...you know...i guess i did book it last time, but there is no flight ticket? i searched my mail box, phoned my friends, wake my dad from nap (for sure, been scolded... (-.-))..Again, i was very sure that i did book it last time, so i checked my mail box desperately again and again...FINALLY....FINALLY....I FOUND IT....Thanks God...if not, i need to spend RM350++ for another flight ticket....^^..LOL
How time flies...2 months past just in the blink of an eye....thrilled...this is the first i stayed at home, being a poppet for two months...i never did it in last few sem breaks, as i felt boring at home...haha....feeling good also staying at home...
After this holiday, time will pass even faster...coming July will be an opening for my final year and the last sem i sit in the lecture halls. I have been in uni for 3 years and coming 4th year, i will much more treasure it, and, as well, my cell group. I hope i can improve myself, to let them more enjoyable in it...
In this two months break, i was factually felt that how family is pretty important to me....In the past time, i made up my mind to stay in Penang for my carrier...day by day, now, i was more enthusiasted to stay in my hometown, Sibu...Life is short, but, as long as it is wonderful...i want to have more time with my family....and, serve them, while i still able...Mom and dad were gettin g older, and is time to enjoy a happy life....
‘涨’声响起
今天扭开收音机
听到‘涨’声响起来
我的心中有无限感慨
多少折扣不在
多少价钱已更改
我还没来得及反应啊
好像初次的风暴
听到第一声涨价
我的眼泪忍不住掉下来
经过多少失败
经过多少等待
告诉自己要忍耐
‘涨’声响起来 我心更明白
油价吃掉我们了啊！
‘涨’声响起来 我心更明白
如今要缩紧腰裤了！
‘涨’声响起来 我心更明白
面包和米实在贵啊！
‘涨’声响起来 我心更明白
大家一起种番薯吧！
听到‘涨’声响起来
我的心中有无限感慨
多少折扣不在
多少价钱已更改
我还没来得及反应啊
好像初次的风暴
听到第一声涨价
我的眼泪忍不住掉下来
经过多少失败
经过多少等待
告诉自己要忍耐
‘涨’声响起来 我心更明白
油价吃掉我们了啊！
‘涨’声响起来 我心更明白
如今要缩紧腰裤了！
‘涨’声响起来 我心更明白
面包和米实在贵啊！
‘涨’声响起来 我心更明白
大家一起种番薯吧！
p/s: 今天突然有感而发，好想对现在世界的局面怒吼！每天翻开报纸，扭开收音机，就是看到到处的涨！去逛个街，都听见大家的怒声，涨声，不知道这种的生活还会持续多久呢？还是它会变得更严重呢? 人民将如何面对未来呢？
It is really terrble now...
Since back from Sabah, really felt like wanna suffocated...life became hard and hard...everything up, up and up...and, today is the last day of the RM1.91 per one liter for fuel, then, tomorrow it will be RM2.70 per one liter..Oh man....it is really terrible now....bombastic increase of fuel price, indicate that, nothing will be excluded to be low the price...
What's wrong with our world? Now there are 37 countries facing foodstuff crisis, eight hundred million people facing starvation. We gonna have nothing to eat, gonna eat insects, as suggested by some American's scientis...Global warming changed the world climate, polar bears now are endangered species, glacier melting at their places made them unable to survive anymore....The whole world is in risk now....Did you feel the conjuncture? 502, cyclone Nargis in Myanmar, 512, a magnitude of 8.0 quake in China....just 10 days apart, there are two disasters which eroded two countries, how many life been perished? how many family been ruined? Cry with no tear, the ever heartrending....
Today, the ineluctability fuel price hike was announced by government. After today's midnight, you need to buy petrol with RM2.70 per liter, increament by RM0.79. So, prole as we, line up at petrol station just to have the last, can it be cheap petrol? i really qued for 45 minutes to get the refill, not just once, but twice, as the credit card can't use for the first time, therefore need to run for the second time...my legs are really ache now... :(...
Hmm...do you ever think that why we are so reliable to motor or car? Have you ever consider to take bike? hmm...not bad too...it is environment gentle right? Now, have to think twice in spending every sen...and less harm our world...It is you and I's responsibility...don't forget, you are ought to do so...
p/s: why i can't upload the photos? i actually wanna upload some photos showing the terrible que at petrol station....sigh....
Some one in my mind....
This is the very first time i write a post about him..he is some one that still in my mind, even though he may not remember me anymore...
I knew him while i was in Form 5, after i finished SPM examination. Like others, doing a part time job at a supermarket, wanna earn some pocket moneyla.. A few weeks after, he came and work part time job too. Still clearly remember that, my first impression to him, he is some one playful and not serious in working...But, never judge a book from its cover...my impression reversed by his good manner...He is a nice guy indeed, he cares for the friends beside and helpful...the pivot is, he is quite handsome....hahah.... =l....
What most delighted me was, when other friends telling me that, he has feeling on me....ehhmmmm...i admit, i have feelings on him too...He was the very first one that i have such a strong feeling....Since that, i don't know how to react to him, and try to shift off from him...i was such a craven...i just like suffocated while he is standing besides me....ohman.....abashment!! We don't have much interaction, just help each other doing the works...and he never profess his feeling to me....so, i don't take any serious on it after that...And, after few months, the results declared, for sure, it's time to say good bye~~hahha...we just left like so...Until now, we never contact each other.....=(
Now, i think, if i be the first position, ask about his feeling, maybe i won't regret now....haha....what a soul feeling now.. May it be my lesson to alert me to grasp my fate next time...
i wish to have a part time job!
hmm.....it is the second week i back to sibu..i haven't get my part time yet...wondering....i told myself, never go back to supermarket to do such work anymore, but if i can't get any, will i surrender and go back to there to work again? oh my...it is so agony now....i dont want to go back anymore, it is indeed tiring you know, following the shift, work at night...yuck...dont want it anymore....it's 2 months, such a long time you know....what to do withink these two months, other than just watch tv, online, eating, sleep, anything? i was so bored with this kind of dull living.....i wish to have a part time job! really...:(
地球怒吼了！
从前，地球是那么的美，人们也很爱它。地球和人们间有着互相依赖的关系。但，人们的野心越来越大了。。。
地球："人们啊，我觉得我有点发烧了"
人们：“有那么严重吗？只是没了几棵树，没了几片海，没了几座冰山。。。只是小件事。我们
做那么多还不是让你更加的美丽，更加的发展。"
地球：“是吗？那么为什么我的温度一直在上升呢？我真的觉得我要爆炸了。你们看，你们都不
珍惜我。我这里破洞，那里破洞。为什么不要帮我补补呢？你们这样做，我也保护不了你们了”
人们：“好啦，好啦，我们会尽量少开冷气，少开灯。”
地球：“人们啊，为什么我放在北极和南极的冰山一直在融化呢？现在，到处都是水灾，都是灾
害，都是你们咎由自取的！没有粮食，发生饥荒，都是你们一手造成的！”
地球开始怒吼了。。。它已忍无可忍了。。。
人们：“地球啊，我们快要没有食物吃了。你看，现在真的很热啊！好多的生态都改变了！为什
么会发生这些事呢？”
地球：“你们问我？！不如我来告诉你们吧。。。你们砍了树，可是不会种树。车驾了跑，烟就
到处喷。工厂天天喷烟。你们也好爱太阳的‘热情’啊，散发多多的二氧化碳，把‘热情’都关在里面了。碧绿的海，被你们弄得肮肮脏脏的。你们以为海里的生物是铁打的吗？不会死吗？你们现在才关心，会太迟了吗？”
人们："。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。”
地球：“你们已经剥夺了你们下一代生存的机会了。。。一切都已成定局了”
最近，发生太多的天灾。中国的大雪暴，全球的粮食危机，温室效应，大海啸。。。读到这些新闻，感到很痛心，很惭愧。身为人类的我们，我们能够做什么呢？有太多我们可以做的，只是，你愿不愿意...大家，爱我们的地球吧。。。停止一切的破坏吧！
地球："人们啊，我觉得我有点发烧了"
人们：“有那么严重吗？只是没了几棵树，没了几片海，没了几座冰山。。。只是小件事。我们
做那么多还不是让你更加的美丽，更加的发展。"
地球：“是吗？那么为什么我的温度一直在上升呢？我真的觉得我要爆炸了。你们看，你们都不
珍惜我。我这里破洞，那里破洞。为什么不要帮我补补呢？你们这样做，我也保护不了你们了”
人们：“好啦，好啦，我们会尽量少开冷气，少开灯。”
地球：“人们啊，为什么我放在北极和南极的冰山一直在融化呢？现在，到处都是水灾，都是灾
害，都是你们咎由自取的！没有粮食，发生饥荒，都是你们一手造成的！”
地球开始怒吼了。。。它已忍无可忍了。。。
人们：“地球啊，我们快要没有食物吃了。你看，现在真的很热啊！好多的生态都改变了！为什
么会发生这些事呢？”
地球：“你们问我？！不如我来告诉你们吧。。。你们砍了树，可是不会种树。车驾了跑，烟就
到处喷。工厂天天喷烟。你们也好爱太阳的‘热情’啊，散发多多的二氧化碳，把‘热情’都关在里面了。碧绿的海，被你们弄得肮肮脏脏的。你们以为海里的生物是铁打的吗？不会死吗？你们现在才关心，会太迟了吗？”
人们："。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。”
地球：“你们已经剥夺了你们下一代生存的机会了。。。一切都已成定局了”
最近，发生太多的天灾。中国的大雪暴，全球的粮食危机，温室效应，大海啸。。。读到这些新闻，感到很痛心，很惭愧。身为人类的我们，我们能够做什么呢？有太多我们可以做的，只是，你愿不愿意...大家，爱我们的地球吧。。。停止一切的破坏吧！
is it good to have a long holiday?
It is really heartreatening....i thought it is mine, but she grabbed out from my hand now...damn...what a bull shit promise....can't you just give me one chance, just one month, then what you want to do, you may just do it....ya, maybe i should not blame you for the broken promise....you have your right to do so. I have changed back to my previous life again...
It is what a sudden shock, that i actually got a part time job, just happen in this morning, i went back with flying legs, telling my mom and dad, even my grandma about this news. i didn't have any expectation for that job at first as i just can work for tw0 months, but she gave me the chance...ok, i was so thankful to her....but now, she grabbed back the chance for me...the reason is, she found the permanent....i was bothering to find another part time job again....haiz.............
Where is the way out? it just like what is happen in last year, still fresh in my mind. Last time i also so bothering with the part time job, until there is no way out, then no deal, i need to go supermarket, work as cashier, following the shift. But i don't want such job this time, i was so tired with it....i have no time for my family, the time is not my time...haiz...so contradict right?! There are jobs everywhere, just you yourself can't be humble to take it....let's me be a bit selfish this time...i don't want do the same job in every break....
Huh..is it good to have a long holiday? i not really think so...actually i am a bit nervous with the long break, just like i am sth useless, no point, no target everyday...no motion in life...the same old day....Lord, pls listen to my prayer. I was so thankful for you lead me to that job, but it is no more now, can You pls give me the another one? let's everything be in Your hands....amen.....
Will He still love me?
figure out that, i am too over now, i have challenging God! i knew that there is something that i should not do, but, always failed in doing something that is not in His liking....i am so sad now as i felt that i am no more close with God!! is it numb with it? always heard the same and same things? my heart is a bit closed...i felt so scary now as just i am just alone....nobody with me, nobody know me!! i even reject God to be close with me...Will He still love me? love me this rebellious child?.......i don't want to be forsaken by Father......I DON'T WANT!!!
where to go?
Langkawi? Singapore? Langkawi? Singapore? ahhaaahhha.......bugging me a few days...finally made up my mind, i go both, as i never been there before...
the reason that i decided to go Langkawi is my friends are going too and some of them are final year, so, wanna have the last trip with them...and, going to a trip with a group of friends will be very fun, right? taking the map, explore the place ourselves...whao....sounds challenging...
finally my dream to Singapore coming to be real. what to say, it is so complicated as we need to decide where to go in the first time, cos, no money no talk, k?! Whatever la.....We plan to go there after we finish our final...it is quite enthusiasted now and so looking forward for it...i am going to Singapore...hahahah....mum and dad this time have no reason to reject me, and thanks for their permission....**wink ^o^LOL......
But, haven't start final already plan to have vacation, you must be in crazy now....whatever, i have been 'compressed' for a long time...study week is quite boring and routine, doing same thing for everyday, what la...revision la....haiz....whatever!! strike for it, never give up and simply say tired, it's your responsibility to study!! GAMBATEH!!!
the reason that i decided to go Langkawi is my friends are going too and some of them are final year, so, wanna have the last trip with them...and, going to a trip with a group of friends will be very fun, right? taking the map, explore the place ourselves...whao....sounds challenging...
finally my dream to Singapore coming to be real. what to say, it is so complicated as we need to decide where to go in the first time, cos, no money no talk, k?! Whatever la.....We plan to go there after we finish our final...it is quite enthusiasted now and so looking forward for it...i am going to Singapore...hahahah....mum and dad this time have no reason to reject me, and thanks for their permission....**wink ^o^LOL......
But, haven't start final already plan to have vacation, you must be in crazy now....whatever, i have been 'compressed' for a long time...study week is quite boring and routine, doing same thing for everyday, what la...revision la....haiz....whatever!! strike for it, never give up and simply say tired, it's your responsibility to study!! GAMBATEH!!!
Life of late...
it is quite a long time i didn't update my blog...it is such a packed sememster...but all were history now...another semester is going to be closed...how times flies...i am almost finish my 3rd year...whao...
yeah...events on saturday night is really a great memorable for all of us...it is quite touched this time as 3 of my housemates is going to gratuate in coming convocation...it is quite nervous and complicated after gratuate, as we have to decide our way, our carrier, our future...Hey!!let go those things, let God to decide it...His time and decision is never expected by any one of us...we cannot be HIM...if we really commit everything to Him with faith, there really will be something that cannot be expected by you and i...why we still need to be afraid as He is always by our sides? wondering...i confest, sometimes, i will...my faith with Him is still not stable...Father, My Lord, pls let be to be more dependent on you, with myself, i can't do anything...
found out that, i became non-chalant with people and things around me...is it business covered your eyes? tiredness enclosed your heart? just think about it...
study week is started, but i am still searching my mood to study...not yet have mood to start my revision...but, cannot delay anymore...just a short study week for me to study...Qin, arrange your mood and mind...don't waste your time anymore...
p/s: this blog was written in library 2 in USM...haha...suddenly have a mood to write...have to stop here...many people is waiting to use the pc..
yeah...events on saturday night is really a great memorable for all of us...it is quite touched this time as 3 of my housemates is going to gratuate in coming convocation...it is quite nervous and complicated after gratuate, as we have to decide our way, our carrier, our future...Hey!!let go those things, let God to decide it...His time and decision is never expected by any one of us...we cannot be HIM...if we really commit everything to Him with faith, there really will be something that cannot be expected by you and i...why we still need to be afraid as He is always by our sides? wondering...i confest, sometimes, i will...my faith with Him is still not stable...Father, My Lord, pls let be to be more dependent on you, with myself, i can't do anything...
found out that, i became non-chalant with people and things around me...is it business covered your eyes? tiredness enclosed your heart? just think about it...
study week is started, but i am still searching my mood to study...not yet have mood to start my revision...but, cannot delay anymore...just a short study week for me to study...Qin, arrange your mood and mind...don't waste your time anymore...
p/s: this blog was written in library 2 in USM...haha...suddenly have a mood to write...have to stop here...many people is waiting to use the pc..
Deepest sorrow to lost of Chen Dian Xia
Another happy star had fallen...Chen Dian Xia, a well-known and famous name in everyone's heart...She was declared death on Tuesday, 8.38am at Hong Kong Queen Mary Hospital. It is indeed a great lost to everyone...
Her impressive laugh and her significant spectacles frame, deeply infixed in everyone's heart. She is a happy-go-lucky celebrity. Yet, who knows, behind the laugh, sorrow and sadness haunted her....Liver cancer had grabbed her life...
a bit shocked while get to know this news...still remember that i watch her tv shows since i was still a child...what a great fun while watching her shows....yet, with the passing of time, wealth is there, but health is no longer there...she was peach in God now....
Indeed, treasure when you are still able...not let it be a great remorse....
Deepest sympathy to her family...May they be more doughty....
Her impressive laugh and her significant spectacles frame, deeply infixed in everyone's heart. She is a happy-go-lucky celebrity. Yet, who knows, behind the laugh, sorrow and sadness haunted her....Liver cancer had grabbed her life...
a bit shocked while get to know this news...still remember that i watch her tv shows since i was still a child...what a great fun while watching her shows....yet, with the passing of time, wealth is there, but health is no longer there...she was peach in God now....
Indeed, treasure when you are still able...not let it be a great remorse....
Deepest sympathy to her family...May they be more doughty....
Chinese New Year
i was home for chinese new year...since back, wonder why i was so lazy to go out....this i have no mood for cny, prefer to stay at home, accompany my mom and dad and have a simple gathering with old friends....it is indeed nice to have a simple gathering with them...they were still the same, still pretty and charm....i think the most precious time is even there are not so many friends together, but when you are with your intimate and the best friends together, that's enough for everythings. We chat a lot about our future, olden days, our recent...lotz...the endless story...? i love to be with them... lang, wen and beth, i appreciate you all....i am so thankful to have you all....stay touch ya...
Since started open-house, met with a lot of relatives...yo...the springal in olden day, now turned to gorgeous gals and handsome boys...how time flies!!! haiz...cannot deny that i was old already...even my youngest brother now is taller than i (cannot shout at him anymore..=(...)...no more young lo....hahah....glad to saw that they were still well-being and stay healthy...
BUT!!! it is a bit carking that everyone asking me about my beau!! hey, no rush, k?! i can't do anything for it, it is all about fate and luck...i also wish i could meet with someone who is able to catch my heart, who is able to make my heart ramming and make myself suffocate, but, i haven't meet with him yet...no rush, k?!! Let's Lord to lead me to meet with him...
Haha...it was just weird that we all circulating about our future...talking about $$$....it is reality everywhere, everytime, we need $$$. Am i too realistic? money-minded?? it is so weird!!
ya, i am taking education, that's mean that i will be teacher in future, right?but frankly speaking, it is not my wish since early...i don't want to be teacher. it was so strong in past month.... i even blame myself why i don't insist on not taking it at that time? but i told myself...pls bear in mind, just for the moment....no promise that i won't fall in love with it in future...maybe i will...who know?? Teacher...what a word that i ask much nowadays...
Dad and Mom were still the same, still happy-go-lucky. Ha...what an oddball Dad this year, he plays firecrackers with brother..so funny looking at Dad playing it, Dad is having rejuvenation... huhh .....-.-!!! Well, my big brother, what i could say, he is indeed different with the old him...What a surprise, he wants to buy a massage chair for parents as new year presents....if in old days, he never consider about parents' painstaking...what a big change for him... i am so thankful for what Lord had been done for him...even my big brother is not believe in Christian, Lord still bless him and renew his life...What a big blessing to my family, everyone are still healthy...the ever best present given by Lord...
How fast the time flies....10 days of holiday, left two days....need to return penang soon, haven't cram the exhausted vigor...my student life still left 14 months...after that, the end of my student life..haha..need to plan about my future...haiz...don't see any 'light' in front, still dunno where is my way....
p/s: GONG XI FATT CHOY!!! HAVE A BLESSED HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR...
Since started open-house, met with a lot of relatives...yo...the springal in olden day, now turned to gorgeous gals and handsome boys...how time flies!!! haiz...cannot deny that i was old already...even my youngest brother now is taller than i (cannot shout at him anymore..=(...)...no more young lo....hahah....glad to saw that they were still well-being and stay healthy...
BUT!!! it is a bit carking that everyone asking me about my beau!! hey, no rush, k?! i can't do anything for it, it is all about fate and luck...i also wish i could meet with someone who is able to catch my heart, who is able to make my heart ramming and make myself suffocate, but, i haven't meet with him yet...no rush, k?!! Let's Lord to lead me to meet with him...
Haha...it was just weird that we all circulating about our future...talking about $$$....it is reality everywhere, everytime, we need $$$. Am i too realistic? money-minded?? it is so weird!!
ya, i am taking education, that's mean that i will be teacher in future, right?but frankly speaking, it is not my wish since early...i don't want to be teacher. it was so strong in past month.... i even blame myself why i don't insist on not taking it at that time? but i told myself...pls bear in mind, just for the moment....no promise that i won't fall in love with it in future...maybe i will...who know?? Teacher...what a word that i ask much nowadays...
Dad and Mom were still the same, still happy-go-lucky. Ha...what an oddball Dad this year, he plays firecrackers with brother..so funny looking at Dad playing it, Dad is having rejuvenation... huhh .....-.-!!! Well, my big brother, what i could say, he is indeed different with the old him...What a surprise, he wants to buy a massage chair for parents as new year presents....if in old days, he never consider about parents' painstaking...what a big change for him... i am so thankful for what Lord had been done for him...even my big brother is not believe in Christian, Lord still bless him and renew his life...What a big blessing to my family, everyone are still healthy...the ever best present given by Lord...
How fast the time flies....10 days of holiday, left two days....need to return penang soon, haven't cram the exhausted vigor...my student life still left 14 months...after that, the end of my student life..haha..need to plan about my future...haiz...don't see any 'light' in front, still dunno where is my way....
p/s: GONG XI FATT CHOY!!! HAVE A BLESSED HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR...
what a funny day today...
Today, i have a test which is the ever fastest test that i finished just within 5 minutes....tell you what, just 10 ticks, our answers for the test is just 10 ticks...what a loaf of crap!! we study so hard but you just gave us such a test, will us satisfy?! i am absolutely stunned by it...a bit furious actually...but never mind la..at least it is simple, no need squeeze my brain to answer it....haha....
ok, then, with flying legs, we wait for the bus to go home....well well well, out of the blue, the road was blocked by the cars beside...Darn it, cool our heels in the bus for 30 minutes....=(
I crave that i am at my home sweet home now...i am really wanted to go home...sleeping on my bed, with mom and dad besides me, have a simple breakfast with family.... wao...what a wonderful moment...BUT!!! need to pay of it.. lotz of assignments which are going to killing me after return to penang...after 10 days, return to hell again...ahhhhahahahahahah........really suffer!! what a student life!!! All bothersssssssss... i warn you, i want to toss you all aside...Never disturb my Chinese New Year mood!
Now, i need you all help... i am going to have an oral presentation after 10 days. but, i have no ideas about the topics to present. Much ideas popping out, but just a short while, then, it disappears again...so, if you have any good ideas, do share with me....i am much much thankyou for your help....just any topics you think that it is interesting and easy to elaborate.....thanks ya.!!
is time to sleep...
blogging for the 3rd time in Jan
phew...it is 2 weeks left before i back to hometown for my chinese new year....i wanted most to go home now...i miss my home so much...found out that i am closer with my big brother now...if in the past, we seldom have a long conversation...hmm..maybe we are far apart, as i am in Penang, and he is in Sabah, and we can only reunion once in a year, that's why i appreciate every moment i have with my family....
it is really a long time no blogging...blogging here is a place where i can examine myself, thinking deeply and clearly what i had done in the past, what i had said, what others had done, what i hope for the future...but, sometimes, need to think a lot, thus, I took a long time to finish a post...haha....too prolix..
It's sounds weird that someone i am familiar with now are no longer familiar with...They were changed or they are not changed, i am the one changed? wordless...ya, there is no harm to change, as environment altered our life, even we don't want at all, but, pls, be the positive one...
i had lead my cell group for the first two times...Thanks for God's guidance, everytime i pray, i felt so released, just like a big rock removed from my shoulder....but, still got a little tension la...i afraid i made the atm just like in Artic...everyone freeze to 'death'..hey, it is really uneasy to let everyone to talk, need to persuade and persuade again....i know, it takes time...not everyone have the sentiment to share, they have their comfort zone...Give time to them, be patient...At the same time, so thankful to them who are so bla bla bla.....if without you all, i am just speechless...and just panic there...pls forgive for my nescience, i will try hard to learn!!
Learn to abase myself
Since the clock of 2008 started to run, i have no pause for it... indeed a bit tired lately...i went for a leadership camp in last weekend. i just as if forced to be there, if i am not a leader, i wont be there...the melancholy feeling haunted me few days before i go to the camp...since i sat on the bus, reached the destination, feeling so depressed, as if nobody understand me..ya, just call me cynic..just like wanna throw a tantrum to anyone at there!! Why force me to go there!!!
Yet, i want to proclaim one thing...I am expecting that i will be very suffer in this camp...i tell myself...don't want to join any programme, don't want follow the rules, and want to ruin all programmes...but i didn't do so...yet, i am glad and thanskgiving i have been there, flabbergasted that i have this kinds of peaceful feeling after the camp ended...i learnt a lot, somethings that really gave me a pretty big nudge ...
i never know that, i am such a proud and sinful man. i never be humble and humility never grow within me. i never follow Lord's wish. i asked myself, why being a cell group leader is on par with fall deep into the pit of no return?! it was just weird?!!!!!!!!!!! I really hate myself..i am sinful as i breach my promise to Lord. I promised to Him that i will try my very best, but, the job not yet started i gave up already...i am afraid, i am timid..Yet, Lord told us, 'For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.'. yea...He is mighty God, why i still need to be afraid if i am really humble in Him...As i haven't abase myself, i am still afraid...don't let yourself regret, if you still have chance to service Him.
Much of grouses, even myself also bored with it...ha....sounds weird...
To everyone, what is your 1st impression to a Christian? holy? good manner? kind-hearted? friendly? or hypocrite? just have a chat with my beloved mom last day about her view to Christian...just then, i knew that she don't believe in Christian...for her, Christian=hypocrite...step into the church with a face, with another face again outside the church...this is what her impression to Christian...my heart felt overwhelmed and dire sad. i cried. Yet, mom said that, she won't hold back my belief and religious... she even encourages me...i know she still have little believe with Lord...
Lord, what should i do? with myself, i can't do anything...i have no power! i need your support...just then, i know, i can only affect my family with my own life and character...she don't believe is because of the sham christians, then i need to sober her up with the real...with my life...mom, dad, Lord will never forsake you!!
Until today, again, my table covered with notes and exercises again..haiz...student's life is like so...keeps going ....be reminded, without Lord, you are nothing!!
Happy New Year!!
It is the first day of Year 2008...whao...whole world is celebrating it....Oh World!! Happy New Year!! haha...
Actually i am indeed a bit numb with celebration...even not feeling high with it...Yuck...what a bizarrerie feeling...maybe is due to my aging ..lol...
Anyway...we all are blessed, as we had come to today right? Wish you all have a fruitful and blessed 2008!!! Everyday indeed is a gift to you and me...Cheer!!
p/s:just the first day of new year, the air ticket annoyed all of us...Up upupppppppppppp..so hate looking at the air ticket price.........=(
Actually i am indeed a bit numb with celebration...even not feeling high with it...Yuck...what a bizarrerie feeling...maybe is due to my aging ..lol...
Anyway...we all are blessed, as we had come to today right? Wish you all have a fruitful and blessed 2008!!! Everyday indeed is a gift to you and me...Cheer!!
p/s:just the first day of new year, the air ticket annoyed all of us...Up upupppppppppppp..so hate looking at the air ticket price.........=(
New year wishes
It is Christmas today, what a big day to everyone...It's birthday of our Lord.. Happy Birthday, Dear Lord....
It is drawing a close to year 2007..whao...how fast the time is zooming...again, another year is going to be history, everything is drawn a close with the past of time, be the memories...be the recall
Here come my prayer for coming New Year, 2008...
I love my country, Malaysia.. I enjoy reading news, but, it is really feeling sick and sad of reading those heartrending news...it is such a great grief....
All Malaysian, can you sense the unpeaceful brouhaha in our country? We live in a multi-racial, multi-religious, multi-lingual society... At one time or another, our country are famous with it's peaceful, races' integrity...albeit we are not as develop as other countries...but at least, we are happy and hold together...Are we forgotten the moment we hand-in-hand, moving towards the same target, the same goal? No denial, we are 'degenerating'...the social safety is going down the drain...everyone became more non-chalant....what rape, murder, riot, inflation, is non of my business.....don't you ever aware of this? or you just pay attention to fashion, the latest mobile phone....bla bla bla...so forth...Come on, sober up!!! don't let it to rampant...We are in danger!! Dear gov...what is playing in your mind now? thinking of where to have occation? thinking of what brand new cars to buy?? Do you ever think of us?
I wish there will be no more disaster, no more global warming, no more pollution, no more killing of animals....pls, love our mother nature...the green land, the seas, the forests, the hills...don't just let our earth covered with skyscapers building....
To my family...
Thanks Lord, i am indeed grateful with my living now...eventhough there is a great flood at my home, i still thanksgiving...Thanks for His protection and great love to my family...Even if in a tough situation, mom and dad are not desperating, they are still happy-go-lucky...haha...That's my parents...
Regarding my family, i pray for them, everyday...They haven't see the miracle of Lord. Their life are still without Jesus...I bloodly hope that, one day, they will profess the faith to Lord, have a renewed life...just like what i experience...God really will make a way...Comparing my life with before, i am indeed empty...no joyance, no thankgiving, and never threasuring....what a great pity... But now, i have a change of life...everyday, for sure a great present for me....
To myself...
I always tried hard to do my very best, but, sometimes the results is out of my expectation...Just the incident in last few days indeed a great sorrow to me...just some kinds of weird. In essence, this is my first time, to start a new attempt, but what bring back to me is despair....Ha... maybe i should not draw a summing-up too early...it's still a long way to go..i should think like this, see, how wondorous is our Lord...how creative He is..He creates so many kinds of people, with different personalities, habits, temper, characters...whao...that's why everyone of us is exclusive, the one and the only...
If some one is not like what you expected, just ignore it...it's not a big deal...And, the most important is, how is your heart deal with your cell group...since you had promised to lead, then no way for you to regret ...you reap what you sow...What you done is just for HIM, my Lord....try your very best!!
i wish myself will not be a baby girl anymore...wish to have a change in coming year, sure the good one la...i wish i could do that....
phew....what a long grouses....In fact, it is my voice of heart...In a new year, everything will be changed, maybe sometimes will be a great letdown, but for sure, one thing that will never be altered, is THE LOVE OF JESUS...EMMANUEL!!
Moody
New semester is going to start soon. Actually, i am still in holiday honeymoon mood...now, woke up early in the morning is such a big suffer for me...haiz...
I took an English paper this semester which is different with my friends. And now, i am leaving my comfort zon where i may not go to the same class with the same group of friends...I need to meet with the new faces...So far, i am a bit worry about it, afraid that i can't handle the works and so forth....maybe i am just much ado than nothing, it won't be that difficult as what i thought...i should think in positive way...should learn to be more sociable and not just stay in my comfort zone...it won't be any sake for yourself...And, you are not alone, Dear Father is always by your side...How could you forget HIM...
Another thing bugging me...i am giving a chance to be cell group leader in this semester..but i confess, i am not ready yet. you gave me such a big mission to me, i can only keeping my mum. nothing to say.......................try my very best to live up to what i had promised...
It is big flood at my hometown, my home...Again, flood is again ruined my house...Never ending....Enough is enough...you will never know how is my feeling of depression if you never come through the nightmare...
worry about my home....worry about my parents and siblings...
Crap talking....
Ended of another week... a bit weird that i watched 2 movies in this week...ha, is it to have the last feast before start schooling...maybe...it's turn to hell again after next week...
It's been a while after the last movie i watched.... I watched the movies 'Enchanted' and 'The Goldon Compass' in this week...let's me have a pleasure to give some comments for both. As a matter of fact, i am so looking forward to watch 'Enchanted', but, whao...it's quite out of mind...how come the fairy tale girl can come to the real world and live happily ever and after with the real man and so the way for the real woman. Ya, you sure will say that, not a big deal, it's just a fiction, not need so serious about it...hmm...i just quite stand in amazement with the ending...^~^ Facing insomnia? well, don't worry...if you have sleeping difficulty, watch 'The Golden Compass'! Oops...am i too over?! haiz....to put it bluntly, i almost fall asleep when i watch this movie. The flow of the story is too complicated and looks like no linking. And, the bombastic name,haha...i need to take time to tell apart whether it is the name for the places or the characters...hmm...maybe i should just watch some briefness movies...........=)
Some kinds of sudden when we made our decision to go Taiping Zoo on last Thursday...We had a fun time at there...Tell you what, i was quite excited...Eventually, i saw hippo, elephant, rhinoceros, chimpanzee, black bear, zebra, Lion King, leapord and many many more..i did see them before, but is on the tv screen, but this time they were real in front of me...Yet, it was quite letdown as we didn't see giraffe. Actually, before that, there are six giraffes in the zoo..Yet, they died one by one...you know why? This was the human race's fault, simply threw the rubbish everywhere....They are animals, how could they differentiate what can be eaten and what cannot be eaten...so pity to hear that....even the zoomen are so pity to explain it to us...Let's ponder awhile...To all so called 'civilized ' Malaysian, please change your long-inherited habits...Throw the rubbish into the dustbin!!!...just my grouses...
My goodness.........There is something bugging me now....i am crazy with shopping now, really out of mind. There are sales everywhere...oh man, can't withstand with the cheap sale. sob sob.....=( my pocket got a big big hole now...running out of money...
well, well...have a long long talk with mom last night. Knowing that mom, dad and siblings are all doing well...i am so glad and pleased.......this was the greatest present for me....God, thankyou as You not only take care of me, but also my family. You love everyone even they haven't believe in You, but, i know, You will guide them all the way...I believe in You, throughly...
It is drawing to a close to my long holidays....i was pleased that finally i had go through the bored and the dull moments... and even if i was homesick in this period, i had managed it....not by myself, but Father is with me all the ways...I am not alone....New semester is going to start, need to have a change of heart again, to do my very best with the new challenges and attempts...it is going to have another stories to tell again..............=)
It is christmas season. What peace and lovely Christmas songs playing everywhere!!!
I love Christmas!!
Life of late
After came back from camp, i was sick and cough...quite a long time i don't have sick as i think that i am healthy enough...nevertheless, now i know, i still have to aware of my health...nothing is more important than it...darn it!! cough again...never mind la, at least this time of sick made me more treasure my health.
It's been the 6th day i came back from the camp..how time flies, today in the last week, i was still in camp, playing with the kids, listening to the talk, eating supper with the kids....woo...i was so missing the camp and the kids, it was so impressed and gave me so much sweet memories...LOL...wish to have a day to meet with them again, hope that they still remember me....haha...
Well, now, i am so eager to go shopping. Shopping bug is bitting me now...ouch....it is already 2 or 3 weeks i don't go shopping. haha...I have many things to buy. Refresh my wardrobe, even it is going to 'burst'..LOL... And, cut my hair. search a lot about short hair cut, wanna have a try..but, to put it bluntly, short hair is not suited me, maybe just cut to shoulder length la...
yawning....my bed is more attractive now....Good Night!!
New attempt
At first, i am not looking forward to this camp, i even bother to go....it is totally different with my expectation, i learned a lot from it...a new attempt. It is a 5days 4nights camp for children organised by 日新基督徒校友会团契。This is the first time i handle such a big number of children... ohhh....children nowadays were totally different with before..they have their own ideas and utterence. quite tired when dealing with them, but just children, they are so naive and kind-hearted, i love them so much....nice memory in mind with them....hope to have next chance to meet with them again...
jungle tracking with children
it was so touching when saw some of the non-christian children stand up and walk in front to say that they want to have a new life with Jesus. it is worthy for everything that have done...
Actually it is one of my regret too...i just get to know Jesus since i entered university, but in before, i never know Him, my life was such an empty and no praise...if i know Him earlier as in childhood, maybe my life will be totally different....but, i am still thankgiving, God guides me all the way, at least He lets me to know Him when i am still young, when i still have spirit and energy to praise Him..it is never too late. At least now i can say that i am pleaded with my life now....thanks God!!
jungle tracking with children
naive
wanna ask something??
007?? haha...a caring and good teacher...
see the boy at my left hand side? i was attracted by his dimple..haha...
Guess, how old is this boy? 21?23? no, he is just 17 years old....
Big family!! Sayonara!!
反省。。。
我的心现在很多苦毒。好想大哭一场。好想释放我心中的一切。刚通完话，我的心情突然低沉很多。很想很想，巴不得我现在就到家了。。。我很想回家！！救命啊！！
听了妈说的话，原来现在两个弟弟这么放肆，这么的不听话。突然觉得，自己是一个多么自私的女儿，一个多么自私的姐姐。我是爸妈唯一一个的女儿。现在妈要找一个人诉苦都没有。如果我现在在家，至少我还能在她身边，陪着她，陪她面对一切。。。为何我总是这么自私，不会懂得付出！
省机票钱？！真的吗？只不过是一个借口不回家。剖白了，我只不过想逃离家，不想回到家总是面对家里的争吵。看到两个弟弟，我不禁心寒。很想让他们了解，不可以再这样下去了。。但总是有心无力。。。
当我决定不回家的那一刻，我可有想到爸妈？没有！只是一味的想，没回家应该没什么吧！哈！！你这个笨蛋！口说爱家人，可看你付出了什么！只会乱花钱，贪玩。。。除了这些，你还为家人做了什么?! 没了吧。。。反省吧。。。在外读书，心也变野了。即使是放假，也不想回家。家人，往往都是在最后。。。家，是心之所在，是力量的根源。没了家，你还能去哪里？！还有什么比家人还要重要的？
主啊！现在的我充满了罪，心中有很多苦毒。您要我们孝顺父母。但我没做到！我是何等的不孝。离家的我，不能照顾我的家人，主，恳求您，看顾我爸妈，加添我爸妈力量，让他们时时刻刻都开朗，快乐。。
树欲静而风不止，子欲养而亲不在。。你明白这句话，但为何还不珍惜与家人的团圆呢？到时后悔也是枉然。。。
听了妈说的话，原来现在两个弟弟这么放肆，这么的不听话。突然觉得，自己是一个多么自私的女儿，一个多么自私的姐姐。我是爸妈唯一一个的女儿。现在妈要找一个人诉苦都没有。如果我现在在家，至少我还能在她身边，陪着她，陪她面对一切。。。为何我总是这么自私，不会懂得付出！
省机票钱？！真的吗？只不过是一个借口不回家。剖白了，我只不过想逃离家，不想回到家总是面对家里的争吵。看到两个弟弟，我不禁心寒。很想让他们了解，不可以再这样下去了。。但总是有心无力。。。
当我决定不回家的那一刻，我可有想到爸妈？没有！只是一味的想，没回家应该没什么吧！哈！！你这个笨蛋！口说爱家人，可看你付出了什么！只会乱花钱，贪玩。。。除了这些，你还为家人做了什么?! 没了吧。。。反省吧。。。在外读书，心也变野了。即使是放假，也不想回家。家人，往往都是在最后。。。家，是心之所在，是力量的根源。没了家，你还能去哪里？！还有什么比家人还要重要的？
主啊！现在的我充满了罪，心中有很多苦毒。您要我们孝顺父母。但我没做到！我是何等的不孝。离家的我，不能照顾我的家人，主，恳求您，看顾我爸妈，加添我爸妈力量，让他们时时刻刻都开朗，快乐。。
树欲静而风不止，子欲养而亲不在。。你明白这句话，但为何还不珍惜与家人的团圆呢？到时后悔也是枉然。。。
★保健的最佳时间
- 刷牙的最佳时间 饭后3分钟口腔内的细菌开始分解食物残渣产生酸性物质，易腐蚀溶解牙釉质，使牙齿受到损害。因此，饭后3分钟是漱口、刷牙的最佳时间。
- 饮茶的最佳时间 饮茶养生的最佳时间是用餐一小时后。不少人喜欢饭后马上饮一杯热茶，这是很不科学的。因为茶叶中的鞣酸可与食物中的铁结合成不溶性的铁盐，干扰了人体对铁的吸收，时间一长可诱发贫血。
- 喝牛奶的最佳时间 因牛奶含有丰富的钙，睡觉前饮用对于中老年人可补偿夜间血钙的低落状态而保护骨骼。同时，牛奶有催眠作用，睡前饮前有利于睡眠质量。
- 吃水果的最佳时间 吃水果养生的最佳时间是饭前一小时。因水果属生食，吃生食后再进熟食，体内白细胞就不会增多。有利于保护人体免疫系统。
- 晒太阳的最佳时间 晒太阳养生的最佳时间是上午8至10时和下午4至7时。此时日光以有益的紫外线A光束为主，可使人体内产生维生素D，从而增强人体免疫系统的抗痨和防止骨质疏松的能力，并减少动脉硬化的发病率。
- 美容的最佳时间 皮肤的新陈代谢在24：00时至次日凌晨6点最为旺盛，因此晚上睡前使用化妆品进行美容护肤效果最佳，能起到促进新陈代谢和保护皮肤健康的功效。
- 散步的最佳时间 饭后45分钟至60分钟，以每小时4.8公里的速度散步20分钟，热量消耗最大，最有利于减肥。如在饭后两小时后再散步，效果会更好。
- 洗澡的最佳时间 每晚睡前来一个温水浴（35℃�45℃左右），能使全身的肌肉、关节松弛、血液循坏加快，帮助你安然入睡。
- 睡眠的最佳时间 午睡最好从13：00时开始，这时人体感觉已下降。很容易入睡。而晚上的睡眠时间以22：00时至23：00时上下班床为佳。因为人的深睡时间在24：00时至次日凌晨3时，这时人的体温、呼吸、脉搏及全身状态都已进入最低潮，人在睡后一个半小时即进入深睡状态。
- 锻炼的最佳时间 生理学家研究表明，在傍晚锻炼最为有益。原因是：人类的各种活动都受“生物钟”的影响，无论是体力发挥或身体的适应能力，均以下午戒接近黄昏时为最佳，此时，人的味觉、视觉、听觉等感觉最敏感，全身协调能力最强，尤其是心律与血压都较平稳，最适宜锻炼。
update
today just wanna write something about my life of late. well, it is really dull and just like playing videos, the same for everyday...woke up, eat breakfast, online, read newspaper, napping and eat again. Luckily i still have my favourite sport, swimming. otherwise, i really wonder what else i can do other than sit on sofa...think twice, if i go back to hometown, i will be the same too..then why i decided not to go home? i also wondering... if i am given the second chance, i will contemplate to go home..definitely!
i love Kenny G's melodies. His music is what a touching and smooth...i like to play his songs while writing blog and surfing net...an enjoyable moment too while listening to his songs..
Just to latest update, we are now out of 200..what 200?! just a number?! Be cautions!! Non of our local university was listed in top 200 universities of the world!! what a great dissapointment reading this news. It was just weird! It is a drawback of our nation education. Our gov still not taking actions to solve this problem. It is much more fed up when they blame on the grading and judging standard was different with the previous. Oh really?! it is fine that we are out of 200. But we should not find any excuses for our mistakes! our gov are educated and even the top-notch! why they don't know this such a simple principle? even a layman or a child know about it! haiz.....
Again, an imminent of inflation...we are desperating!! everything up up uppppppppp, but never be the note' value. oh man!! if continue like this, we all need to dye our hair to green lo....coz just then we can undergo photosynthesis and make our own 'food'...not need buy any food lo...This is a joke that i read from the newspapers. hmm...lets think about...it can be logic also...the raw materials for plant's photosynthesis are sunlight, water, material, chlorophyll (the green pigments in leaves). We have every raw materials already besides the chlorophyll. Easy la...dye our hair to green la...the only way out..then, when there is starvation, we still can make our own 'food' ...haha...what a load of crap...
need to be spending wise lo..cannot just simply spent the money....
that's all...=)
see, Qin in green hair!! (edited by Dave)
after exam is homesick...
how to continue to write my blog? i have left this post for days and don't know how to proceed...just found out that i have only 2 posts in October...quite few....less eager to write nowadays....ha...actually, sometimes don't find anything new to write...just prefer to let it there..
i had just finished my final exam and again, declared the end of a semester...Thanks God for guiding me all the ways... Dear Father, i had done my part, for the rest, i commit it to You, let You to guide me, let You to decide everything that is in Your favour..even the one is not in my liking...
ya, should be damn high after finished exam,, right? well, just like usual....even worst...my homesick is killing me, but it's a bit okay now...it was more miserable yesterday...=(
Many things happen in this sem...soul or happy, eveythings were ended...whether i like or not, there's no turning back...just i know, i was always protected by Dear God, He is always by my sides..He knew my need, always sent angles to help me when i am in need...how well-being i was..even just a small things, i was so thankful for His blessing...
i had gained a lesson. Love your enemies, love the one you hate, the one you don't like..you cannot expect everyone matched with your target, right? no, should be, never set any target to anyone, then, just that you won't get disappointed...everyone is from different backgound. How was their performance is non of your business. you should just take care of yourself...perform yourself well...
And, learnt to bite my tongue, think before utter some words. ya, frankly speaking, my words always misinterpreted by others. wondering why it is always happening...even my close friends also think like that. i didn't mean that actually..anyway, speak the words that is helpful and not revengeful...
now, food for thought, how to spend my long holidays wisely...i planned to Singapore actually for this holiday, to my desired land....but, haiz..pity to say that, it was ruined! No one accompany me for the long journey from Penang to Johor Bahru, and Dad is not allowed me to go alone..Dad, i am not worry about that at all...but i know your worries are reasonable...haiz...just left it to next....I sure got chance to go !!! =)
ok, no more Singapore dream, change to another planning... read more religous books, to improve myself...the best way to enhance my relationship with Lord..hha..again, my guitar! less to practise lately, as i met the bottleneck...always playing with the same techniques, quite bored with it...so, i planned to learn more from friends, hope that they are willing to teach me la..what else?! hmm.....still got many others which cannot write in details...
now, i was so blaming myself for decided not to go home during this holiday...i miss my Dad and Mom. Mom, Dad, sorry for cannot always by your sides and thanks for giving me so much loves and protection...Lord, let any mishaps and miseries fallen on my shoulder. i just wish my family to be happy foever...the only thing that i can do for them, just pray hard so there will be a day they can see the miracle of Lord!
try not be the worst, even cannot be the best. Life still need to move on...be adaptable...and enjoy it while i can...=)
i miss those days..
still remember that previously i was kept on complaining that i was encounting problems between my study and my service, but now,i want to say that i miss those days with church service...haiz...a bit contradict, right? somehow, i am feeling empty now, just figure out that, i have no more service in hand...a bit weird...life suddenly return to olden days, just life with study and study again...what a dull life...
just during the prayer meeting just now, i was sitting, leaning againtst the wall, looking at my friends' back, suddenly i was lost, thinking that, why i meet with those boys and girls? why they appears in my life? why we all sitting here? someday, when we sever and march towards different ways, will i meet with them again? i miss those days, we serve together and hand in hand, help each others...haiya you a....when you own it, you don't treat it to the best, now, saying shit only................=(
farewell bud...
it's just a short time to get know of him..at 1st, frankly speaking, he has a bad impression for me...always tease people and bully people...but now, he had found his path in S'pore, glad to hear that and wish him good luck in everything at there. yesterday, we having a simple farewell with him...ya, Mr.Oscar...a bit sob sob actually...in our hearts..well, it is normal, as bit farewell is inevitable...that's life..when you found your path, just go ahead and never regret with it...someday in future, i will find my path and my way too, and i will leave here...
ya, i will be leave here solely, even just a short period staying in here, penang....but the sweet memories will never be removed...
just a few sememters left, appreciate the only and the most present...
well, study week is started, concerntrate in your studies, never let the precious time simply wasted...manage your time well...Gambateh!!!! =)
Give thanks.......
look at myself, i am such a blessed gal, i have no disease, no ill, no sick, no handicap...but, look at them, they lost their family, they are suffering, they have no ways out, they are crying...where should they go? there is no way out...even though they were furious, what can they do?
look at Nurin's case! what is this kind of human? he is human or beast? it is such a mad and crazy thing he did!!! how dare he did such a brutal attack to such an innocent kid?! more furious, the police broke the pledge again without any suspect is arrested but by sueing the victim's parents due to their careless....this is surely barking up the wrong tree and sprinkling salt to injury...just to latest update, a suspect is arrested..
look! what has gone wrong with our nation? she is sick, no longer can protect us!! we are in danger now!! nowadays, series of violent crime highlighted by the press, everyone just like watching dramas, non-chalant with it's seriousness....is this the heart given by our God? No, it is absolutely no...
everyone, we should fight the crime before it becomes a rampant! are we going to jeopardise our nation? our beloved country? no one wish to see the day....and again, pray hard for all of this. we are weak and the manpower is not with us, we should ask from the above...pray hard for the one who is seeking help, pray hard for our nation!
look! the protest in Myanmar! who care for them, even the army and the police sent them to death. they are suffering, but what can they do...what they want is just freedom and peace! is that too excessive? it is ridiculous!
again, natural disaster happen anywhere, making so many people died and lost their family...our world is really full with sin, God wants us to know that, He is not far from the returning day...we should be humble...Confess our FAULT.....
it is really feeling sick reading the news of late. days and days, tragedies never ended. who can change this!! life is going to end anywhere and anytime...love everyone include your enemies as God wants us to do so...Give thanks with a grateful heart, dont be agitate anymore...and u should not be so, even once...ur suffer is meaningless compared to theirs...you have the best one already, what else u still desired for....
sure, we can't change the past , we even can't predict the future, what we had now is the present, we all should treat it as our last.....appreciate everyone around you, with fully love, as THE GREATEST THING IS LOVE~~~~~=)
it's so free......
finally, the last presentation was ended on last thursday....but,i am not satisfied with it, a bit out of my expectation, but not a big deal, at least i done it already....phew...it is really free now...
after all business, left only emptiness now...quite weird...dunno what is playing inside my mind...want to study, but no motive, want to watch drama, lazy to stick to the chair, thinking of cut my hair, still need to wait for the time...haiz...just like no mood in doing anything...just wanna rely there, even just looking at the celling fan, the cloud outside...also never mind...haha...just wanna give myself a break of mind..
it's quite weird that i made my last decision to The Lost World of Tambun on last Saturday...as at first i decided to go donate blood... haha...no regret, it is really fun over there. finally i had enjoyed the games that i longed for.
it is located at Ipoh, Perak. u may take the North-South Expresswy and head for Ipoh, Perak, interchangefor Ipoh, Tg.Rambutan & Tambun. Drive along Jalan Sultan Azlan Shah Utara and then Jalan Tambun, heading to Sunway City Ipoh.
after all business, left only emptiness now...quite weird...dunno what is playing inside my mind...want to study, but no motive, want to watch drama, lazy to stick to the chair, thinking of cut my hair, still need to wait for the time...haiz...just like no mood in doing anything...just wanna rely there, even just looking at the celling fan, the cloud outside...also never mind...haha...just wanna give myself a break of mind..
it's quite weird that i made my last decision to The Lost World of Tambun on last Saturday...as at first i decided to go donate blood... haha...no regret, it is really fun over there. finally i had enjoyed the games that i longed for.
it is located at Ipoh, Perak. u may take the North-South Expresswy and head for Ipoh, Perak, interchangefor Ipoh, Tg.Rambutan & Tambun. Drive along Jalan Sultan Azlan Shah Utara and then Jalan Tambun, heading to Sunway City Ipoh.
well, there are 5 elements here, the wet park, dry park, waterfall beach garden, tambun hot springs and tiger valley. the most excited one at wet park is the tube raiders...sure u all know this...and at the dry park, finally i had tried stormrider...the one that i longed for...well, i had heard friends saying that u will feel dizzy after u played it, what la..no feeling at all....but feeling funny looking at some of my friends, they shout, pale looking and not dare to open their eyes...haha....it is not that scary le...
tambun hot springs?! got hot spring here a..hmm...don't be too anticipating o...it's just a swimming pool with hot water...haha...not like what u expected.
ya, it is exciting, but again, i longed for the more excited one...found that i really like to play this kinds of games...hmm....it's really fun......hehe!!!! i will post the pictures sooner, as haven't get the pictures yet...
i want to cut my hair short. short hair is a long-forgotten history for me...how is gonna be if i try it? my hair now is so messy...hard to take care...
well well well, is time to face the reality...still got another test, maybe on this week or on next week....=P... but, i will do my very best...shoh!!!
p/s: mooncake festival is coming...everyone, happy mooncake festival!!!
Lost World of Tambun
see, the aloof stone in Tambun
here is the place to watch tiger show
naughty tiger...
be frank
i admit, i don't like to put my resentful feeling in mind, i will raise my voice. that's true me, it's never be me, if i conceal it... but why some others don't? if you are really don't like it, why you still force yourself to like it, accept it and deal with it? won't you feel tired?
i am getting mad in guessing what people thinking about, they just hide it inside...never settle it..then, when something goes wrong, in long term...it will BURST OUT!!! why can't be frank, frank with yourself, frank with your friends!! face each others but with no eyes contact, no greeting, even no smile, just a glance by....
conflict is never absent in interact with others, sure, i know...ever with our closest family, we still querrel, much less with friends with different background...no deal...am i too pampered...
today, suddenly thinking of my life...especially my uni life...still remember that, b4 i enter to uni, how pretty i imagine the life of uni, the free man, the style it gonna be in uni, go travel with bundle of friends, involve in society, be a true adult...but, seems like all in reverse...day by day, life still going on, with only study, eat, sleep, play, online...a bit weary with this kinds of nut life...
hearing friends talking that where they are going to travel, participate in what competitions, working partime...well, they are not wasting their time...i wish i could be so, but i not dare to let the 1st step out...wondering...suppose i am not like so...
i admit, being the only gal at home, i was over-protected...mom and dad did everything for me, they gave the best thing to me...ha...nice huh??sometimes i dunno how to deal with others, or in otherwords, i am stupid or too naive sometimes....haha...when the situation is in my liking, I will easily get worried and rub my hands or bite my nails...i can easily get frustrated...woo..so weird!! i hate it actually...
ya, the life i having now is too pampered, everything is ready-made. living in a small circle of friends, everyday saw the same persons and same things...just like a cage birds, it can only fly in that small circle, but never know how high is the sky, how deep is the sea...how fresh is the air outside...it's a bit dull...life is just like that? what a life......................
Mission completed!
finally it is the entire end of my church 15th anniversary....thanks to God and glorify His name as He leads us all the pathes. He can see the afforts we put, He blesses us and give us all His love, because He knows, we have the only one aim, WE LOVE HE AS HE LOVES US SO....THANKYOU JESUS!!
still remember that when we are preparing the anniversary, we have so many things to worry, the no. of ppl, venue problems, set dinner problems, finance problems...bla blabla...made the situation complicated sometimes..but how amazing is God's power...we saw the succes on 18/8/07, a big success....all done smoothly...=)
ha...suddenly cannot adapt with the free life...suddenly all works are done....looks like no more things to worry...or i dont want to face it actually..hmm..am i? waiyo....how contradictory i ....wondering...
now, just left me, sitting and typing blog...housemates all slept dy....sweet adventure in their dream....housemates...ha...suddenly so touched with this words...how to say? 2 of them are going to gratuate next year....today in the next year will be the time they flying without wings....sure, doris, peisee...i am hard to say good bye to u 2...i appreciate them as they are gift from God, we met in God, be friends, be listeners, be sharer, be housemates, suppermates as well haha....all joyes they given is the wonderful and full with joyes...gals, bid farewell is inevitable, but the sweet memories will always link us together.......
oooooo.........is time to sleep.......nitezzzzzzz.......
Heaven is counting on you by Roy Boltz
Heaven Is Counting On You
Words and music by Ray Boltz and Steve Millikan
CHORUS
Heaven is counting on you Run with a heart that is true
Carry the cross Reaching the lost
Heaven is counting on you
We are standing at the end of time
We are part of a grand design
We are grateful to a risen Lord
For the others who have gone before
I hear voices in the heavenlies
They are calling to you and me
Saying rise up
There's a world to win
I hear them saying again
CHORUS
Heaven is counting on you Run with a heart that is true
Carry the cross Reaching the lost
Heaven is counting on you
Many suffered, even gave their lives
For the message of the risen Christ
Now they're watching
Seated high above
Shouting to us as we run
CHORUS
There is a race
There is a prize
There is a price to pay
And the saints beyond
Cheer us on today
i don't like it in such a way...
i am encounting an imbalance btw my services and my study..should say i had neglected my study...i wish to have a balance btw them, i don't want it be my burden...
then, i just want to be frank to myself...i am feeling tired now...i admit i am facing tension in the prepration for the anniversary...huh...that's my ultimate limit...somehow, this morning, i suddenly feeling lonely and helpless...no more cheerish within me...i suddenly abominate everyone....oh man!!!! what a terrible feeling!!! it's not me!!! i tried to cool down myself, let myself think of something cherish....i pray...just tell myself, all i had done is for Him, just for Him, the only GOD!!! dont give up!! just a few weeks left...
life is beautiful
i am pleased with my life now...easy going easy happy...albeit i am busy, i have 2 presentation going on, tests, church services...somehow, i am not really feeling tired, i am even happy with it, feeling like....hmm...i also afford to do so...i want to know how far i can withstand and how far i can go on....
miseries is just a part of our life, it is not all...and so what, Just confront with it, it is not that gruesome...then, when u look back, u can easily smile and said, just a piece of cake...:)...
just think about it, if whole of ur life is just like a lithe silk...no ups and downs....damn life...u will be very boring...u dunno what is soul, what is happy...and for sure, u don't even know how to appreciate, how to thanks giving....what a pity..
life is just simple...what for so complicated...you have an amicable relationship with your family, friends...all were healthy...then what else you still wish for? you still want more? OH HECK!!!think about how were others suffering in war, natural disaster, diseases, violence?! what could they say? where should they ask for their family, their peace?
another matter.....from now i started to anxious about my presentation, haha...not yet started to prepare....today, watched the 1st group to present for maths teaching method...they done their very well...really...they tried their very best to make the teaching interesting...and even though we had learnt the topic before, we still attracted to it...then, again we need to comment...ya, there is no right or wrong as it is your comments...but pls, don't criticize...it is hurting...how if in reverse, they said so to your presentation?! just think about it...
ok, and now....
i really need to think deeply about my 灵修...i am at the bottleneck now...somehow, i just read bible, just like read a story book...not with heart..don't even think about the messages...i need to make a twist...and a change of my heart....God, i wish to know YOU more....
A day to remember.......25/7/07
finally i have the full set of my braces. the wire finally being installed and now, started the my braces life...no doubt, it is really painful and awful, not at the time installing the wire, it's not painful at all... but is a few hours after the wire being installed...it is that kind like, u are having a decayed teeth inside your mouth...whole of ur teeth is hurt... really !!!!really awful and painful...
last night, i was cried...it is too hurt...even i just scroll my tongue around my tooth or just open and close, it makes me feeble, cant do anything and hard to concentrate....and now, i have to take more than half an hour to finish my meals, eat slowly, eat fluid meal....yuck......damn troublesome...ohoh....hungry now, no rice but porridege....sobsob...T.T
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My love will get you home
this is a lovely song that i was fiendishly like, after i watched "The Last breakthrough" (a Hong Kong drama series). check this out.....
My love will get you home
if you wander off too far
my love will get you home
if you follow the alone star
my love will get you home
if you ever find yourself losing long alone
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home
if the bright lights blind your eyes
my love will get you home
if your troubles break your strike
my love will get you home
if you ever find yourself losing long lone
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home
if you ever feel ashamed my love will get you home
whenever is only you too blame my love will get you home if you ever find yourself losing long alone
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home
if you ever find yourself losing long alone
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home
My love will get you home
if you wander off too far
my love will get you home
if you follow the alone star
my love will get you home
if you ever find yourself losing long alone
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home
if the bright lights blind your eyes
my love will get you home
if your troubles break your strike
my love will get you home
if you ever find yourself losing long lone
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home
if you ever feel ashamed my love will get you home
whenever is only you too blame my love will get you home if you ever find yourself losing long alone
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home
if you ever find yourself losing long alone
get back on your feet and think of me
my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home, boy my love will get you home
thank you, dear friends...
now i know, i was so blessed...just because i have the ever and the best friends...since last sunday, they helped so much...they don't care about their sleepyness, their tiredness, they just helped me as far as they could...i was so touched......they were so sincere...
guys, telling you that, without you all, anything won't be work smoothly..no one will see the success...everything just ended with zero...we know, we are doing this is just for the only one, the only one who is worthy for all of these things, THE LORD, Our Father... we want to give Him our best, as He is deserved for these all...
guys, thanks a lot...i was so touched!!
guys, telling you that, without you all, anything won't be work smoothly..no one will see the success...everything just ended with zero...we know, we are doing this is just for the only one, the only one who is worthy for all of these things, THE LORD, Our Father... we want to give Him our best, as He is deserved for these all...
guys, thanks a lot...i was so touched!!
hurtful...painful
it is really painful...the braces keeps on rubbing my mouth...damn hurt!!! and now, i can't even eat hard food, u can't imagine the agony...it's drove me crazy...it just like, ya, you know that ther is wound around there, but u cant do anything to remove the it...i cant withstand with it anymore, it's just starting and i am almost give up...wondering why some of them who is wearing braces is just like a piece of cake, but i just like fall into hell...ahahah......it is really painful...helppppppp!!! feeling so pity....:(...
God, pls, pls give me support, i dont want to give up...and it is no way for me to give up...i just hope that it will be less pain....
God, pls, pls give me support, i dont want to give up...and it is no way for me to give up...i just hope that it will be less pain....
braces installment
haha...finally my braces is being installed, but it is not complete yet, as the wire is not yet be installed...well, it took overall 40 minutes to finish all the procedur. firstly, the dentist washes my tooths...hmm...the water he spray got lemon flavour...ahha..quite nice....
i am nervous at first, coz he didn't tell me what he is going to do....after 40 minutes i lie on the chair, it is not painful at all....sure la, the dentist havent install the wire yet to drag the tooths all together...sure not painful la...it will be done on next week, then i will be extremely suffer!!! :(
then, after all, i was shocked just as i looked at the mirror...wao...my tooths just like a broken teeth...so ugly ne...and it is uncomfortable as the metal will rub with my lip and my tongue...hmm....it is hard to eat also...
now, the braces is my tooth's darling now...if i dont care of it, it will 'attack' my teeth.. it is a part of my life now, in these 2 years...a long way to go...be patient, don't be awkward with it...smile as usual.......say cheesse....
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the 3rd tooth out today
finally a total of 3 teeths were pulled away...how fast it is, it just took 15 minutes to have a tooth out...today, feeling just like usual, nth special and no more phobia...haha...
by the way, i wish to install the braces the faster the better, as the big hole is noticeable, made me not dare to laugh big...hmm...=
by the way, i wish to install the braces the faster the better, as the big hole is noticeable, made me not dare to laugh big...hmm...=
ooo...my teeths
finally, i took a big nerve....my heart beats fastly when i was on the way to the dentist clinic...my mind kept on thinking about how is gonna be later on? will i cried out? i am really really nervous to pull the teeths...oo-h-h...i pulled my teeths not because my teeths was decayed...i am going to do orthodontic....hahah....it is really a breakthrough for me...actually i did think of it b4, since my teeths started to grow distortedly...but, i know, it's just a dream, due to many circumstances...
to be honest, since that, i was so self-abased...how ugly is my teeths, i was so envy with those who have a row of neat teeths...after i grew up, mom said that, it is not really bad looking, and just like the japanese gal, so cute...haha, sounds good...then, years passed, and i dont ever think about it in that few years...just deep buried in my mind......
but now, i made a change of mind! I want to have a tidy teeth as well!! dad was so supportive and determining with it, he just told me, go ahead...no need worry about anything...just do it, dad, thanks for ur concern, i appreciate it...and mom also gave me big courage...i struggled...
but at last, i pulled my teeths, as an initiation. overall, i need to pull 3 teeths, to give an enough space for the adjustment...
acutally, it is not painful at all, to pull the teeths..i was over-reacted..haha....even the dentist keeps on telling me, dont be too nervous la...not painful...haha...while the dentist is pulling my teeths, maybe my teeths is too strong or what, he pulled hard and my teeths 'flies' and hit on the wall...i heard the sound and saw my teeth on the floor...oohhhooohh...my teeths....:(.....
it's gonna be a history..no more reverse lo...so, now just waiting for the date to install braces...and it will be a date to remember...still a long way to go............:)
to be honest, since that, i was so self-abased...how ugly is my teeths, i was so envy with those who have a row of neat teeths...after i grew up, mom said that, it is not really bad looking, and just like the japanese gal, so cute...haha, sounds good...then, years passed, and i dont ever think about it in that few years...just deep buried in my mind......
but now, i made a change of mind! I want to have a tidy teeth as well!! dad was so supportive and determining with it, he just told me, go ahead...no need worry about anything...just do it, dad, thanks for ur concern, i appreciate it...and mom also gave me big courage...i struggled...
but at last, i pulled my teeths, as an initiation. overall, i need to pull 3 teeths, to give an enough space for the adjustment...
acutally, it is not painful at all, to pull the teeths..i was over-reacted..haha....even the dentist keeps on telling me, dont be too nervous la...not painful...haha...while the dentist is pulling my teeths, maybe my teeths is too strong or what, he pulled hard and my teeths 'flies' and hit on the wall...i heard the sound and saw my teeth on the floor...oohhhooohh...my teeths....:(.....
it's gonna be a history..no more reverse lo...so, now just waiting for the date to install braces...and it will be a date to remember...still a long way to go............:)
what has gone wrong with her????
today's headline on Star, 'Girl killed'. she was only 3 years old...and how sad she was killed by her lovely mom...hey.. is her mom, how ridiculous and how cruel is her!!! how come she did that to her children? what is most despicable is the violent crime committed against the defenceless children.......what a pity...
why take the life of an innocent child? they are naive, they dunno anything...they dont do anything harm, but why? why they do such thing to them? what they want by killing the children? is it just for own desire? just for their own dread? hey, stupid woman, you want to start a new life with your new boy friend, you don't want your children to impede you...so, you made them lost by killing them...how dare u do that? do you ever think that, they were now here is because of you, you are the one who bring them here...they are such cute, naive....but how u dare to put the knife on their neck???? you know, SOB..your child wants you to protect them, not to hurt them..
i was so sad while reading the news. The child, Shearwey Ooi Ying Ying, was killed by her mom. her fragments strewn in at least four different places in penang...how sad is that gal was born in this kinds of family...hope that she was peace in God...
why take the life of an innocent child? they are naive, they dunno anything...they dont do anything harm, but why? why they do such thing to them? what they want by killing the children? is it just for own desire? just for their own dread? hey, stupid woman, you want to start a new life with your new boy friend, you don't want your children to impede you...so, you made them lost by killing them...how dare u do that? do you ever think that, they were now here is because of you, you are the one who bring them here...they are such cute, naive....but how u dare to put the knife on their neck???? you know, SOB..your child wants you to protect them, not to hurt them..
i was so sad while reading the news. The child, Shearwey Ooi Ying Ying, was killed by her mom. her fragments strewn in at least four different places in penang...how sad is that gal was born in this kinds of family...hope that she was peace in God...
a spell of my recent life....
it's really tired these two days as it is our registration day for our new semester...the 1st day (yesterday), we walk for about 8 hours around the school just to finish our registration. it included waiting for registration , go to language school to find out whether we were accepted for language or not, ...bla...bla..and the most complex one is arrange the schedule...we need to arrange the timetable ourselves and decide the papers to take. if there is any crash, we cannot take it, or even it is crashed, we still need to take it, if the units is not enough...damn, why we need to do this all this sucks??!! we were scared...anxious...afraid...we wonder if we missed one of the class, what will we lost? if there is a test for both, how we gonna appear in two places at the same time?! it is ridiculous...other uni students not even really need to worry about this, because they had registered earlier before the previous sem ended or the uni already arranged everything for them....
i think there is really need a deep change of our school system, it is really out of date....the most hated day, in the beginning of every semester...we were doing the same stuff for every semester...
it is not the end of the story for yesterday...ok, after we done everything, we were really happy. u can't imagine the tiredness...we were really really exhausted... and the only one thing we wanna do is go home...but, just when we stepped out, o-o-ohhh....the clouds is dark outside...then...raining!!!GOSH....penang is never raining lately..it is damn hot!! we were sweating everyday... but why it is raining on that day?? just after we wanna go home...the heavy downpour made us all like a 'lok tong gai' ya....haiz....wat a bad day...
i think the only entertainment lately for me-watching 'Prison Break'. i am 'sticked' to it..really fascinated with it...u will absolutely up and down with the progress of this series, it will bring u along just like you are one of the characters inside...Excellent!!!
i think there is really need a deep change of our school system, it is really out of date....the most hated day, in the beginning of every semester...we were doing the same stuff for every semester...
it is not the end of the story for yesterday...ok, after we done everything, we were really happy. u can't imagine the tiredness...we were really really exhausted... and the only one thing we wanna do is go home...but, just when we stepped out, o-o-ohhh....the clouds is dark outside...then...raining!!!GOSH....penang is never raining lately..it is damn hot!! we were sweating everyday... but why it is raining on that day?? just after we wanna go home...the heavy downpour made us all like a 'lok tong gai' ya....haiz....wat a bad day...
i think the only entertainment lately for me-watching 'Prison Break'. i am 'sticked' to it..really fascinated with it...u will absolutely up and down with the progress of this series, it will bring u along just like you are one of the characters inside...Excellent!!!
五味杂参的心情。。。
明天就要回槟城了。。。现在的心情很舍不得。。。舍不得爸妈，舍不得弟弟，舍不得一帮死党。。。还没长大的我，依然想躲在父母的臂膀下，想要时时刻刻都呆在他们的身旁。
爸妈慢慢的老了，我很怕那一天的到来。那一天还未信上帝的父母将去哪里呢？而现在的我还有剩多少时间来孝敬他们呢？ 父母总是对我一呼百应，他们那无私的爱，是多么的无价。希望我持续的祷告，主会垂听我，不放弃我的父母。就像我最近所看到的一篇见证，作者是祷告了整整25年，主才应许他，他的父母才信主。那一杀那，所作的一切都是值得的。。。可是该如何让我父母有这个感动呢？
dad,mom,take good care of yourself....pls forgive me for cant stay long by your sides...i love my family....
爸妈慢慢的老了，我很怕那一天的到来。那一天还未信上帝的父母将去哪里呢？而现在的我还有剩多少时间来孝敬他们呢？ 父母总是对我一呼百应，他们那无私的爱，是多么的无价。希望我持续的祷告，主会垂听我，不放弃我的父母。就像我最近所看到的一篇见证，作者是祷告了整整25年，主才应许他，他的父母才信主。那一杀那，所作的一切都是值得的。。。可是该如何让我父母有这个感动呢？
dad,mom,take good care of yourself....pls forgive me for cant stay long by your sides...i love my family....
Shopaholics......
shopping is the natural instincts of women?! some maybe agree....i agree....
i dunno when i started to have this kind of bad habit?!after F6?! i just like to shopping...just feeling fun and enjoy when i went shopping...but it's really over now..from last week until today, i almost went out everyday to go shopping, to buy new clothes or just window shopping....aduh..i am scare with it now......shopping is my nightmare now...
last few months,i read an article talking about 'Are you a shopaholic?' it is a quiz where you can text yourself whether you are a shopaholic or not...
1. When I am feeling depressed, I usually go shopping.
2. I spend a lot of money that I do not have on things that I do not need.
3. I get a rush when I make a purchase, but I “crash” soon afterwards.
4. I have closets full of clothes that I have never worn, and countless gadgets that I have never used.
5. I often feel reckless and out of control when I shop.
6. I lie to my friends and family about how much money I spend.
7. Even though I feel very distraught about my debt, I still shop.
8. I feel emotionally upset and disturbed by my own shopping habits.
9. After a big shopping trip, I sometimes feel disoriented and depressed.
10. My shopping has caused problems in my personal relationships in one way or another.
if you answer “True” for four or more of the statements, then congratulation!! you are not addicted to shopping. but, if you did, sorry, don't deny anymore, you are!!
oh man!!!! after i finished it, i admit, i am....:(...no wonder i have the name-shopping queen...
hey, anyone, what will you do before you went shopping? making budget? for me, ya, i will do budget as well, and before i go, i will tell myself, 'hey, dont buy anything useless!','you are wasting too much money!', 'save your money'...bla..bla..bla but, :'(......it is useless...easy to say, hard to do...i can't do so...during shopping, i usually will go to t-shirt department. i will try the shirts, if it suited me and the price ok, i will buy it...if the price not ok, but i am damn like with it, ok, i wont buy it at 1st, then, after i came home, oh no...i will keep on thinking about it, and lastly, i will buy it, albeit i am not really need it.....is it really scary?!
then, the jewellry department...i was so frenzy with earrings..i dun like hand chain or necklace, but i really cannot control my eyes not to look at the earrings....inside my box, i think i have more than 20 pairs of earrings now...
then, is shoes and bags...
but, i still want to defend for myself....i am not frenzy with famous brand product...hehe...
hmm.....so, before it becomes worse, i better rectify it...never let it worses...YA!!!!
hmm.....so, before it becomes worse, i better rectify it...never let it worses...YA!!!!
how time flies!
it's been 2 months i back to home...the 1st month, went to have a part time job. haha...earned a hand of money, that's my aim! earn some pocket money as i wish to buy something, either for myself or my family...
after i quit from work, i was so lazy (as i mentioned in my 2nd last post)...the bored mood really drove me crazy...i think i cannot be the one to stay at home..i will become crazy...so, i think after i gratuate or get married, i wont be the 'maid', i mean housewife..haha...
i was really pampered at home...it is so comfortable at home...sure!! it is really true for everyone, home is the warmest and the best shelter of the all....either for a student or a worker...staying at home, u not need worry for so many things...even u slept whole day,no one will disturb u.mom and dad will settle anything for u...ya, they will do anything just for the sake of their children....because they love us...just the word, LOVE!!! how great is the love of parents!!! mom, dad, i love u!!!
how the time flies!! i am going back to penang soon, on next Wednesday...ya, need to face the reality again....ahhhhahahahahahah....my new sem is going to start, is the 3rd year
met with buddies...so grateful that i have a bunch of friends who were similar thinking and have the same topics...
but, one thing made me sad and regretful...
i had a quarrel with brother lately ..we quarrel just because of a small incident!! damn....wat a sis! until now, i dont even speak a word with him. he just go to have lunch directly or go to online after he back fr sch...i dunno how to start talking with him...figure out that our relationship became worse... he is going to sit an exam soon, but he doesn't worry about it...i am really anxious with him...i wish i could say sorry to him, but i am not wiling to do so! why?! i dunno............U, dun put urself too high...start to talk to him..let him to feel the warm of home, otherwise he will become more rebellious, u will lost ur brother
why others' brothers are so well-behaved? but my brother is like so?
after i quit from work, i was so lazy (as i mentioned in my 2nd last post)...the bored mood really drove me crazy...i think i cannot be the one to stay at home..i will become crazy...so, i think after i gratuate or get married, i wont be the 'maid', i mean housewife..haha...
i was really pampered at home...it is so comfortable at home...sure!! it is really true for everyone, home is the warmest and the best shelter of the all....either for a student or a worker...staying at home, u not need worry for so many things...even u slept whole day,no one will disturb u.mom and dad will settle anything for u...ya, they will do anything just for the sake of their children....because they love us...just the word, LOVE!!! how great is the love of parents!!! mom, dad, i love u!!!
how the time flies!! i am going back to penang soon, on next Wednesday...ya, need to face the reality again....ahhhhahahahahahah....my new sem is going to start, is the 3rd year
met with buddies...so grateful that i have a bunch of friends who were similar thinking and have the same topics...
but, one thing made me sad and regretful...
i had a quarrel with brother lately ..we quarrel just because of a small incident!! damn....wat a sis! until now, i dont even speak a word with him. he just go to have lunch directly or go to online after he back fr sch...i dunno how to start talking with him...figure out that our relationship became worse... he is going to sit an exam soon, but he doesn't worry about it...i am really anxious with him...i wish i could say sorry to him, but i am not wiling to do so! why?! i dunno............U, dun put urself too high...start to talk to him..let him to feel the warm of home, otherwise he will become more rebellious, u will lost ur brother
why others' brothers are so well-behaved? but my brother is like so?
i wana write sth different
haha....today, i read through my blog, figure out that here is the space i let off my moodiness...most of the posts is about my depression..haha..if someone not really know me well, they sure will think that, hmm...so murky huh tis gal..even myself also think like that...
well, from now, i want to write sth different from it, sth happy, sth special and sth i love...i want to fulfill my blog with the splendiferous moments..........haha!! wink****
well, from now, i want to write sth different from it, sth happy, sth special and sth i love...i want to fulfill my blog with the splendiferous moments..........haha!! wink****
i am lazy....
i am lazy...lazy to do anything..lazy to move..just rely on the sofa..just hang about....
i am wasting the time everyday..just simply waste the time...after i quit fr work (more than one week i think), i am really lazy to do anything...i defeated by that square thing, that black box...once i on it, then it won't has any chance to rest, the same thing to my little poor eyes...
why am i like that? i also dunno why....even friends talking about going out, i was very excited at that time..but after all, i will think twice..yea..such a lazy gal...
sometimes i prefer to go out alone...i like to have my own style..huh...dun like to deal with others...yea...it's tired to deal with others...u cannot expect everyone like with what u like right or pretend urself...it is really tired...
talking about my recent life..nth special and i even much feeling bored with that...i even foolish thinking that after no working, sure be very fund and can go out shopping with buddies...nonono...it is not like that...i dun have mood with anything...oh man, just like a walking corpse, dead-alive person...will i continue be like that after i return to school?
grandma...be strong
grandma was hurted this morning....she hurted her lips, left a big hole at her lips...imagine how hurt it is for an old folk... feeling so guilty while sitting with her waiting for the doctor's calling...we are all strong man, all just busy with our own life.. we neglected our care and love to our grandparents...
listening to her moulding, grandma is facing a big tension...she was old and need to take care of grandpa who is unable to walk...this is the first time i saw how helpless grandma is...she always gave me a strong, patient, happy images...maybe she is old(71 years old), feeling that she is more and more weak...grandma, be strong...
listening to her moulding, grandma is facing a big tension...she was old and need to take care of grandpa who is unable to walk...this is the first time i saw how helpless grandma is...she always gave me a strong, patient, happy images...maybe she is old(71 years old), feeling that she is more and more weak...grandma, be strong...
Taman Muhibah...
here is the place i like to have gathering with my buddies...here is the place i like to enjoy my favorite drink, iced mix fruit...here is the cultural of sibu, most of the local foods can be found here...
but...
if u are local ppl, u will have the same review as me for the real face of it...once u get in, u must becareful in finding the place to sit, dun miss sat or u will be drive away by tauke....it is adverse with what u saw outside...
it is really disappointed with what had happen yesterday night...a small gathering almost spoiled just because of it...
drive away by tauke?! how come got tauke dont want do the business? yea, they want,but if u just sit at his place without order his foods, sorry...pls go away...u even can't order others foods from others stalls...it is not a fresh news anymore, this event even posted at the newspapers...yea, we sat at ur place, are we really need to order ur foods? how come u force ur customers to order your foods? As we dont do so, they get mad and forced us to move to other tables...GOSH!!! in a manner of speaking, it is a big shame!! if this happen to non-local ppl, what will they comment on sibu? they will lump together all and sundry that all sibu-an are like so, even all Malaysian!! how innocent we are....
even i was mad, but frankly speaking, i am a bit pathetic with that tauke...he is old...just with his wife, two persons...and looks like not many customers order his foods....just 10pm or more, he rest already, but other stalls still busy with their works in hand...just thinking, he just wish to earn money for his family...he is doing nth wrong, just he is too eager...uncle, sorry about that...
another matter........
will u suddenly unfamiliar with a long cognized friend? he or she is ur best friend, ur intimate friend, ur bosom friend....but suddenly, u felt that why he or she is like so? just like u dunno him or her anymore.....................he or she was changed.....sounds weird.....
u
but...
if u are local ppl, u will have the same review as me for the real face of it...once u get in, u must becareful in finding the place to sit, dun miss sat or u will be drive away by tauke....it is adverse with what u saw outside...
it is really disappointed with what had happen yesterday night...a small gathering almost spoiled just because of it...
drive away by tauke?! how come got tauke dont want do the business? yea, they want,but if u just sit at his place without order his foods, sorry...pls go away...u even can't order others foods from others stalls...it is not a fresh news anymore, this event even posted at the newspapers...yea, we sat at ur place, are we really need to order ur foods? how come u force ur customers to order your foods? As we dont do so, they get mad and forced us to move to other tables...GOSH!!! in a manner of speaking, it is a big shame!! if this happen to non-local ppl, what will they comment on sibu? they will lump together all and sundry that all sibu-an are like so, even all Malaysian!! how innocent we are....
even i was mad, but frankly speaking, i am a bit pathetic with that tauke...he is old...just with his wife, two persons...and looks like not many customers order his foods....just 10pm or more, he rest already, but other stalls still busy with their works in hand...just thinking, he just wish to earn money for his family...he is doing nth wrong, just he is too eager...uncle, sorry about that...
another matter........
will u suddenly unfamiliar with a long cognized friend? he or she is ur best friend, ur intimate friend, ur bosom friend....but suddenly, u felt that why he or she is like so? just like u dunno him or her anymore.....................he or she was changed.....sounds weird.....
u
The amazing creation, to U and i
the richness of nature.....some of the pics taken by me and my friend during our trip to tioman, but most of it are by my friend..
part timer....
started to work at supermarket for a week more...phew...it is damn tiring..being a cashier over there, what to say, ya, not a nightmare, but still make me a bit tension...thanks God, i am still safe now...hehe....
ya, tired...but be still...just a mth, then, u can do anything u want and wish to do...
ya, tired...but be still...just a mth, then, u can do anything u want and wish to do...
life...........
曾听过一句话，这个世界还是不停的转动，可是就偏偏少了一个人。。。他会是你身旁的人吗？生命是何等脆弱，何等的不堪一击。。。很多感慨啊。。。
爱睡了。。。不说了。。。。。。。。。。
爱睡了。。。不说了。。。。。。。。。。
因为您
在你面前，我总是赤裸裸的。
你看穿我的喜怒哀乐，我的心情，我的感受。
你总是那么的关心、呵护、关怀，无微不至的照顾。我心里可甜呢，可感动呢。。。
你知道我所喜欢的，所不喜欢的，所爱的，所不爱的。。。
病了，你很紧张。。。
没胃口，你煮了好多好吃的。。。
你知道我爱吃水果，就买了好多的水果。。。让我慢慢享受。。。
但。。。。。。。。。。。。
我总是身在福中不知福。。。。
易怒的个性，常常都无理取闹。。。埋怨这那的。。
不认输的个性，像牛一般的固执。。。。
你都一一的忍受了。。。依然那么的关心我。。。那么的爱我。。。
我是那么的无知，那么的不惜福。。。
妈，谢谢你。。还记得年少轻狂时，曾想过，为什么她会是我妈妈？但，现在，我要说，妈，你是上帝给我最好的礼物。。。没有你的，就没有今天的我。。。谢谢你带我来到这个世上，谢谢你所给的一切。。。。妈，我爱您！
p/s: i took a long time to write this post, it supposes to be finished on the mother's day...hmm....finally...
你看穿我的喜怒哀乐，我的心情，我的感受。
你总是那么的关心、呵护、关怀，无微不至的照顾。我心里可甜呢，可感动呢。。。
你知道我所喜欢的，所不喜欢的，所爱的，所不爱的。。。
病了，你很紧张。。。
没胃口，你煮了好多好吃的。。。
你知道我爱吃水果，就买了好多的水果。。。让我慢慢享受。。。
但。。。。。。。。。。。。
我总是身在福中不知福。。。。
易怒的个性，常常都无理取闹。。。埋怨这那的。。
不认输的个性，像牛一般的固执。。。。
你都一一的忍受了。。。依然那么的关心我。。。那么的爱我。。。
我是那么的无知，那么的不惜福。。。
妈，谢谢你。。还记得年少轻狂时，曾想过，为什么她会是我妈妈？但，现在，我要说，妈，你是上帝给我最好的礼物。。。没有你的，就没有今天的我。。。谢谢你带我来到这个世上，谢谢你所给的一切。。。。妈，我爱您！
p/s: i took a long time to write this post, it supposes to be finished on the mother's day...hmm....finally...
爱的奇迹
爱的奇迹 (“任我遨游”片尾曲）
誰能夠明白 我們該去的終點
雖然一路上總有驚有險
跨過彩虹那一邊不說後悔
黃昏的海岸線 看不到遺憾
要記得這一個夏天
有你陪我在身邊 受傷也是種鍛鍊
一句話 一雙手 一片天
就算有多遙遠
愛能讓我勇敢走向前
跨越了地和天
汗水劃破悲傷和喜悅
你一定看的見
白雲一片片 飄過不需留戀
我心中存在的一個樂園
就在前方那一片碧海藍天
黃昏的海岸線 看不到遺憾
這屬於我們的畫面
有你陪我在身邊 受傷也是種鍛鍊
一句話 一雙手 一片天
誰能夠明白 我們該去的終點
雖然一路上總有驚有險
跨過彩虹那一邊不說後悔
黃昏的海岸線 看不到遺憾
要記得這一個夏天
有你陪我在身邊 受傷也是種鍛鍊
一句話 一雙手 一片天
就算有多遙遠
愛能讓我勇敢走向前
跨越了地和天
汗水劃破悲傷和喜悅
你一定看的見
白雲一片片 飄過不需留戀
我心中存在的一個樂園
就在前方那一片碧海藍天
黃昏的海岸線 看不到遺憾
這屬於我們的畫面
有你陪我在身邊 受傷也是種鍛鍊
一句話 一雙手 一片天
就算有多遙遠
愛能讓我勇敢走向前
跨越了地和天
汗水劃破悲傷和喜悅
你一定看的見
數不盡的流星飛過 我們許下同一個心願
走過荊棘和烈焰 不管距離和時間
一句話 一雙手 一片天
No encumbrance, no worry, only happy, only freedom
Tioman, really is my dream island. As is known to all, it is renowned with its limpid, crystal clear seawater, preserved coral reef, an ideal place to have vacation......wao...i was so impressed to visit this island, izzit really that fascinating...:D
it's so thankful to nong, hua and ying. they did all and planned the trip well just to give us to have a full enjoyment at Tioman, but, what to say, 12 hours from penang to johor by bus is really a nightmare...
the day before the trips, 10 of us, have the full preparation, set out to our dream island, Tioman!!
the day before the trips, 10 of us, have the full preparation, set out to our dream island, Tioman!!
3 days 2 nights at tioman, gave me a full charge, cast aside all loads and worries...wearied with the life of a cage bird, wanna get out from here, wanna relax and soak in the richness of nature...
1st time went to snorkelling, gave me a new taste. swimming at surface of the body of sea, equipped with diving mask and snorkel, wao....how amazing is the underwater life....how beautiful is the coral reef and the fishes...you will definitely forget ur troubles when u're surrounded by scores of fish underwater...how smart is the fishes, they can sense u when u approaching them...they will quickly run away...you have to see it for yourself to experience that sense of wonders....i love sea very much!!!
before we are going, my friends keeps on remind us, dont too desire for a nice and comfortable stay...hey man, it is really a good place for us, we have a nice place to stay at there...
yuhoo!!!!!!!!!
the place we stay- Tioman Paya Resort, nice?
how amazing is the creation of our God...guys, love our Earth, the home of u and i...
To be continued.....
another day gone by....
the 9th day at home...ticking..ticking...ticking...
went to find part-time jobs lately..but still haven't found the one suited me. not because i am choosy...all want the permanent one or in waiting list...some even the time is too long. i really can't withstand it if u want me to work whole day....
just hope that can get the one suited me lately.....
p/s:damn hot today.....
went to find part-time jobs lately..but still haven't found the one suited me. not because i am choosy...all want the permanent one or in waiting list...some even the time is too long. i really can't withstand it if u want me to work whole day....
just hope that can get the one suited me lately.....
p/s:damn hot today.....
Hanazakarino Kimitachihe
yuhooo.....finally i finished the whole episod of Hanazakarino Kimitachihe or The Tricks of Boys and Girls, (花样少年少女). this is really a funny drama..somehow, i was attracted to watch this drama series whole day...oh man, my buttock is hot now...
hmm.... the 2nd taiwan drama series that will fascinate me to watch since '流星花园'
ha...the 1st time i dare to follow with the progress of the drama...if in b4, i will absolutely jump to next next episode or directly jump to the last episode for the final ending...
ha...the 1st time i dare to follow with the progress of the drama...if in b4, i will absolutely jump to next next episode or directly jump to the last episode for the final ending...
but there is sth i don't like. it is really not realistic, how come no one realize that there is a masqueraded gal study btw them....whatever, just a drama series......that's the main reason why i don't like to watch taiwan's drama series...out of real life...
rui xi(Ella), i am really solute with u...you are such a brave girl to find ur love...u care and will do anything for ur beloved...wao...i am surrender with u...if i was fall in love with someone, don't ever think that i will vindicate to him...i will always be the passive one...yea, i am 'su la'...never be bold in holding the one i wish haha...that's why i havent found my cup of tea now...
while i am watching this drama series, i am so concentrate in watching 'wu jun'-the so called super-handsome muscleman....hmm...ya, he is handsome, but so what!!! he is just a human being, same with every human...wonder why the gal gal, fans were so crazy and mad with him..chasing after him and do anything just to glance his face....izzit he is really that 'shimmering' or 'shocking'???hmm....
so, over all, i gave this drama series 3 stars, it is a comedy, but it is against moral...it unfolds sth that is prohibited - GAY! As the school is strictly boys only, gay is normal...yuck...a bit disgusting while watching it...
yea..it's one week after i back to home...what did i do in these few days? hmm...1st day, watch tv, 2nd day, watch tv, 3rd day.................same for the rest.....i am really crazy now...maybe this is one of my favourite... :D
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