blogging for the 3rd time in Jan

phew...it is 2 weeks left before i back to hometown for my chinese new year....i wanted most to go home now...i miss my home so much...found out that i am closer with my big brother now...if in the past, we seldom have a long conversation...hmm..maybe we are far apart, as i am in Penang, and he is in Sabah, and we can only reunion once in a year, that's why i appreciate every moment i have with my family....

it is really a long time no blogging...blogging here is a place where i can examine myself, thinking deeply and clearly what i had done in the past, what i had said, what others had done, what i hope for the future...but, sometimes, need to think a lot, thus, I took a long time to finish a post...haha....too prolix..

It's sounds weird that someone i am familiar with now are no longer familiar with...They were changed or they are not changed, i am the one changed? wordless...ya, there is no harm to change, as environment altered our life, even we don't want at all, but, pls, be the positive one...

i had lead my cell group for the first two times...Thanks for God's guidance, everytime i pray, i felt so released, just like a big rock removed from my shoulder....but, still got a little tension la...i afraid i made the atm just like in Artic...everyone freeze to 'death'..hey, it is really uneasy to let everyone to talk, need to persuade and persuade again....i know, it takes time...not everyone have the sentiment to share, they have their comfort zone...Give time to them, be patient...At the same time, so thankful to them who are so bla bla bla.....if without you all, i am just speechless...and just panic there...pls forgive for my nescience, i will try hard to learn!!