Tears

Love, makes us feel so sweet...Everything seems good when we have someone besides...but sigh,
Love, makes us feel so suffer as well...Gloomy...Only companion of tears when there is no longer someone besides..

There is no wrong to cry....just cry...as loud as you want.....It needs time to go through all of these...Don't pretend yourself as you are sad now....No use to be a crown...and I don't know that my words keep playing in your mind...You laugh, as you don't want people around to worry about you...You eat, as you don't want people sense that you are unhappy...Gal, it's tired rite....

Rolling tears will wash over your grieved heart....We will be companions, however, in the last, you still need to go through by yourself....And God will always be with you...

Great flood...

A non-stop rain spoiled the dream of all Sibu citizens...We guess, the flood no longer haunting us...But, the facts told us that, history still is playing...

Well...our dear gov, our dear top-notch heads...where are you all? Did you ever heard our scream? I grew up here and I am 25 years old now....But the history is still the same....FLOOD is still haunting us....25 years...it's 25 years already....you can't do anything in these numbers of years?!

you did nothing within these years! What you gave us only the plaster cloth road....good...we are riding everyday...you took away our green notes, but return us with bad drainage system...Why the flood don't come in the earliest of the year, then we all can see our PM walking in the flood and playing water with his body guard.....phewit...highlight of the year....

You said change the name, 诗巫 to 诗富...whao...富with what le? 富with water? we have lots.....really lots...how we can develop before we settle all these small matters first? drainage system is not a huge project.....can't settle in 25 years? It is really a great laugh and crap!! our gov is really a smart gov...give them a big clap!!!

Who's responsible for all of these?


We are on the ship now....



Car for sale? No no...car for repair...

Saturday morning

It's what a free Saturday...I need not alarm myself to wake up early, but woke up by the twitter of the birds...Oh, they told me, sun is risen....haha..what a lovely day today...Well, today is a brain off day....I want to take a break and full my hands with my favorite.　Well, i watched the testimony of Sammi Cheng on Good TV. She thoroughly utter how does she go through her depression, with the faith and love from JESUS, how awesome is our God. Our God is an awesome and faithful God. He knows what is the best for us. His timing is never wrong. Even we forsake Him, pretended that we don't know him, hide ourselves from Him. But He is everywhere, no matter how we ran away from Him, He will never forsake us...And He will find us finally..

Sammi Cheng did a very good testimony to the world.. Money, prettiness, fame and wealth cannot fulfill our desires...but it will eat us...silently, and lead us to the end of the world...only LOVE from Jesus can fulfill our spirits...When we are tired, He always be our refuge...our hiding place...every rumor, teasing, despair, been thrown unto Him...He is like an empty stomach, never bored with our grumbles, never angry with us, but still loves us with unconditional love....Thanks you Jesus, for loves us so much...

Hmm....again, teachers in the school, talking about our partners again...they are so surprised that we are still single....bla bla bla......oh man, what so surprised...single ma single la....not a big deal...it is not the end of the world...Single is not a sin k....Anyway, thanks for the concern....we know they care about us...They said, I was fussy in choosing partner...well, you guess wrong...I ain't...what a gal want, is the one and the last...the one who is suitable forever....is FOREVER!! Marriage is holy, is blessed by God...sure need to find the suitable one....

God, Your timing is never wrong...You know who is the best for us....slow down and listen to Your voice...I believe in You...

Ups and downs....

Bloggy, I have something to tell you...We are going to Hong Kong in coming year 2011!

Its what an up and down nite...I fooled myself a great joke tonight....Friends asking me, why I am so confirmed with the holidays next year? Well, I told them I googled that holidays is available for the date we go HK.....But, I wonder again...so, after back home, I checked through again...oh gosh!! I just realized that the calendar that I was so confirmed was 2010...It was history already....Man...i dunno how to tell other friends, cos some just booked the ticket this afternoon, right after I told them....My limbs turn so cold... giggling....no appetite to eat...I was so guilty, for making such troubles...I made the bad planning, re-book...

However, a friend called and confirmed that, there is holidays for that period....I was so high!!! The trip is on!! How up and down.....can't control myself to scream...haha....Luckily she is not as blur as me....Thanks Chew...=)

It was quite dramatic....From the very first, there are only two of us, Carol and I decided to go...We also very worry at that time, worry about the staying place, worry about the transport, worry about the safety...but now, we have 8 people going together...How thanks and how glad to have this vacation group...And maybe there are 2 people going to join us....lol!!

I should change a bit...cannot be that blur anymore....I booked that ticket, when i m not confirm the date yet...how careless I was...but anyway, thanks God, You are so lovely, for giving all of these...I am so blessed!

Hong Kong, we are coming in 2011!! =)

p/s: Newest update: 10 people confirmed to go!!

Crap

waiting for mom in the school now..i just finished a meeting for a while..mind,spirit,eyes,foots..all crying for a rest...school works are bored.. Going to swim today with frens..well..been farewelled with swimming for a long time..

Starting of the journey...

Today, marked the starting point...
It might be a long way to go...really...
Other things can be excused...
Handbags, shoes, shirts, foods, cheese cakes ...-.-...all can be excused....
But, the precious moment cannot be excused....
I admired it and been clinged by it for a long time...
Save the money...start from now...

One day in future, I wish to own you~~

NIKON D90...=)

Life still going on...

How time flies...it is the 8th month in year 2010....2010 is coming to the 2nd half end....Well, life still going on....and I love this sentence...life still going on..

Well well....I have been moved to my new house in last two weeks...I m still adapting with the new long distance to my school...How to say, i felt so sickening driving here...just like car racing every morning..And, why people always keep to the right?? Don't they know that, 'ikut kiri jika tidak memotong'? The board is standing there, big enough to see...Most headache one is the cars both at the left and right, driving at the same speed...oh..i really want to ram into the either one....yea....I should go out earlier next time....

Dealing with my darling room, well it is most arranged now, and i am grabbing my time, step by step to tidy it...I m still not satisfied with it...some corner still messy....just let it be la, I need to ready my exam paper first...

My life is given by God, I always remind myself to be thank giving, with everything I had in lifet...yea...desire sometimes shout suddenly...and sometimes been overwhelmed by it...but, return to the point, you are much more blessed by other....Never feel being taken for granted...accept what is not counting by you...life is still going on...

My mind was congested with travel...I want to go travel...to oversea...where is my kaki le???

Glory to the Lord...

Thank you, Lord...other then that, still Thank you...

It was BM Sunday Services on last Sunday...And, we prepared kids singing performance. We have been ready them for a month. Still remember in the first day of practice, the kids are so hard to control, even we need to shout at them...Indeed, they are what we called hyperactive, both the limbs and the mouths...We need to entertain them with tit bits some more....haiz...just like pampering the babies....

Time flies....it's the real day of performance....We all get ready for the kids to come....But, it's 6:15am...only 4 to 5 kids there...We have the last plan where all the sunday school teachers join the singing...oh....how come?? Praying in our hearts, God, we believe in You, for Your wonderful guidance...It's 6:30am....we saw a crowd of kids coming.....We all smiled...Their smiles even more adorable...

See...the kids are so excited....

They are rehearsal for the performance, to give the best to Lord...They had done their very best in the last....acknowledged by the claps from below....=)

The closing of the day...Glory to the Lord...=)

Servants to the Lord....Happy Serving!~

2010 with them...

The first class photo been taken in the first year of my teaching life....In 2010, i am with them....4A3 and I...=)

Life with kids...

It's Maths time for 4A3...The students stood up and greeted me....Good Morning teacher....Sit down class...I replied...After placed all the monkeys on their chairs, we started the lesson...

There is a kid talking while I was teaching....I purposely raise up my voice, to warn him I am talking now....Oh...he stunned, and kept quiet...What he said later, made me can't withstand to burst out a laugh!!!

Teacher, have you ever watched Jurassic park? This fellow is teasing me that I am like a dinosaur....I can't help myself to stop laughing...All the students laughed at me....My cheek turns so red...Stopped the lesson for few seconds, finally calm myself to continue...

I am the form teacher for this class...At first, I was in great worry in how to handle them. Out of my expectation, they are lovable...at least, they respect me and give me face as their form teacher...They are not brilliant in academic, but, they are nice...dunno how to describe the feeling....=)....Until now, I am still willing to serve them...sure, there are black spots there also, which might make me upset with them, but, always forget it with the smile on their face....=)

No more delay

I just listed down my to-be-done list...what a shock, the tasks are chasing me....tests and workbooks to be marked, meeting's minute to be done, and bla bla bla....What a mess...I have to do all of this in a short while....suffocating....

There are some changes in students....Oh man, I need to change the name list again...Tiring works....Every time, when there are new students been placed in my class, I will make them clear first about my rules...To be here, OBEY!..And, don't know I have repeated for how many times until the students couldn't bear with me....hahaa.....they said I am so wordy...='(...

Nudged myself, ya..I am becoming lazier....In previous, I will stay in school to finish my works first, works the first place...then packed to go home...But now, I trained or urged myself to go back as early as I could...I want to go back to my darling room...Rolling on my king sized bed, cooling by the air-cond, it is so comfortable...

Finally, I have my own room in new house...my privacy room...What a damn i wished for it for a long long time...Now, i can stroll around every corner....to place my footsteps at every corner....my darling room...

But, big headache now...we just moved everything from the old house in last two days....It is damn tired...Mom and Dad intended to move the old things here, made the new house so packed and messy...I don't like it....Anyway, hope that it might change back to its new looks....

And, there is a corner in my darling room where I mostly don't want to approach....I felt pening looking at it....lol...But, that's are all my properties...No way to throw away...=P...K, make a promise with myself, DO IT ON COMING WEEKENDS, NEVER TWIST DARLING ROOM INTO RUBBISH ROOM....Hmm....that's mean I am sleeping with rubbish every nite?! OOpppss.....

Where should I place you all??

Life still going on....=)

Rotten apple

One day, I saw a reddish apple..My goodness, it looks so juicy and fresh...So, I grabbed it home...However, day by day, when I wanted to dine it, the first bite gave me such an 'unforgettable' taste. its all rotten inside!! whao...what a great different from its outlook. How thanks, I noticed it earlier. It looks nice, but with time flies, we are able to notice the truest face of something or even someone...

Are you the rotten apple?

They are many rotten apples in this realistic world. But, we are blind sometimes, been cheated by their pretty or sincere outlooks...At the same time, we also purposely cheat ourselves, persuade ourselves with thousands of excuses. Yet, the mask of the rotten will be peeled down piece by piece. The true face under the masks will be sunbathed and bringing a great stun. But, don't be upset, at least, you have a chance to meet with their true face.

God created so many apples...There must be good apples there..Always, someone will be waiting there, walking towards us and bringing us the good apples...Never upset with realistic...

My favourite

My favourite milk , Desa fresh milk...like it very much....

Stamina of a day, 100 plus!
Tit-bit of a day...

Digit doesn't mean everything

It's the 2nd parents and teachers' meeting... I got a great melancholy after the meeting....same words and same thing i talked in the past meeting...Indeed, it is really a great responsibility once we gave a birth to a child. We need to take the responsibility to teach them, to lead them, to guide them, to encourage them and to forgive them. Even they are failed, they are still our kids....We have to pardon them...with patience and endless love...

Digit doesn't mean anything....Characters talking in my philosophy....Even they are not excel in academic, it doesn't mean that they are a failure forever....But, it's useless in reality world...In reality, digits talking..the more digits u achieved, the more succeed u were...Digits had covered their characters. They also have self-respect, but who are going to hear their cries? their griefs?

As long as a person have a great character, I don't think that he or she might face failure forever...Wish to help them, but dunno where and how to start from....as they are not appreciating as well...

Gov is going to abolish public examination, yet it's still under discussion. I gave a great thumb up to this good news...Smiled with tears, finally they recognized this problem...Students nowadays are exam machine, they studied just for exam, for the cert....But, they wonder what is the aim in the end...I wish the day to come faster, to twist the world of education in Malaysia...

Tolerate

Homo sapiens....we have been created in so many characters...but, still, where we were, where the mess there...

In reality, we need to carry ourselves nicely...tolerate with one another and try the best to solve the problems....But, how, if there is someone who never understand and even turns us down, how do we need to deal with?

We were in one team....what we need is reliable and responsibility....Hard and tiring...we keeps on pushing, but someone keeps on pulling at the another end....sigh...

Life for late

Been started work for the second week of working after holidays... life still packed with tasks, this and that....Students are still like before....I am feeling pity with them..wish to help them with whatever i could do, but, I don't know where to start from....and how to....
They came with empty brain, back with empty brain as well....Will there be a miracle someday?

How thanks I have things to do now...at least, mind no longer brimming with rubbish and somethings i wonder...But, how to do with holidays in September? I am terror with holidays now...Everyone anticipate for the holidays...but I m the reverse...When can I get out from the circle? indeed cling me for a long time...

Closing of the holidays..

Today, the last day of our three weeks holidays, it is drawing a close soon...I just read through the post that i wrote on the first day of holidays...how time flies, today, i will write for its closing....lolz...

Well, i didn't feel much reluctant for it...I even wanted the school days desperately...Maybe stay idle for a long time, fully recharged! I am ready! Have something to do is much better then nothing to do right?!

In this period, i had done with marking, table cleaning and vacation. The last one, house moving, only done half...I was headache to move my things to my darling room...I have too many pairs of shoes, bags and clothes...I wonder where to place all the things....My mom just teased me yesterday that the shoes I owned are enough to open a Vincci...Hahha...really? then I need to buy more to make it real...Shoes, my favorite item!

Talked with a friend this morning and listen to her plan for future...She is going to change her present mode, to upgrade her value...mean she is going to leave here...I did envy as she can choose with her own willing, but I can't...In previous, I will in great grief, but now, can be said, I am numb already...It doesn't mean that, i satisfy with my present mode...I still hope for a change ...But, i don't desire much...let it be...I promised to give myself 3 years, 3 years for me to love my job, 3 years for me to find my partner...If after 3 years I'm still the same, I will quit...It looks like a great obstacles in front, the most one is my parents....But, i will try to talk nicely with them....let them to understand me and give me support as well....The only thing that will change my mind is marriage. When meet with the right person, I will get married..

What a myriad world out there, but I just circling in my own world, the only world belong to myself, how tiny it was....

Yea...mind brimming with 'How are you' as well... Regard that I wanted to send most to a friend...Many hesitations congested as well...doubt how will it be after it been sent...Hope you are fine, friend....

Rainbow..

Rainbow after the rain...
it's illusive, it's authentic...
Dark clouds around...
just like a thief
come without sound, come without signals...
snatched our joy...
create a dead road just there is no way out...
Yet, the rainbow....
Its arise shaded the dark spot to become colorful, even just a corner or just a piece...
It's enough to put a grin on our face...

Always...
Life seems to be no way out, loaded with obstacles, loaded affairs, loaded with sorrows...
But, still remember God's promises and faith with God?
The promises under the rainbow....
God will make a way, where there seems to be no way

From: http://www.musicbabylon.com

Raise your head, look up to the blue sky...
Sky is not always cloudy...
Life is not always in low tide...
There is always a way out...
Always, a rainbow after a tempest...

Life without ups and downs is not called life..
It's called drama...
It's called wonderland...

Come on~~

How dirty is my table in the staffroom....I had made up my mind to clean up since last holidays in March...but sigh....the time always ran away from my palm...Finally today, I pushed myself to complete the mission...It's done and was quite satisfy with my job...Well done!~~

Before I tidy my desk, it is what a damn the lizard's stool are seen everywhere...yuck....disgusting~! I took out my drawer..Oh man~~ what a mess...
After I took out everything inside the drawer, my table is just like student's table, full with rubbish....LOL~~
Ok...now is time to arrange everything properly in my drawer.....Step by step...i almost done...singing the songs.....Out of my notice, the cover of the punch opened and left all the white snow inside the drawer...sigh...need to take out everything and restart again....
hmm....who's leg?

Deng deng....finally done my work....the messy drawer is now orderly arranged...but dunno will last for how long....hahaaaa.....

Oooppsss....forgot to take the photo of my desk...take it on the first of school day...

School is going to start, how many days left?
Countdown is coming...Anyway, this long holidays recharged me to face the coming challenges....
Well...not feeling reluctant, but anticipate for school days....

~The End~

Boy cannot do housework?!

Ah jie, sweap the floor...
Ah jie, wash the plates...
Ah jie, no more drinking water lo...
Ah jie, it's raining...collect the clothes...
Ah jie, don't just sitting there and watch tv lo...tidy the house~~ (even though their big butts are hot baking on sofa)

Sigh...this is what i heard every day and night in my house...I am a kakak now, even I am their kakak...

It's just like naturally, we won't ask the boys to do the housework...is it their hands are silver or golden made? I am definitely despise boys who never ever or don't know how to do the housework...There are one idiot in my home....Luckily not two...

Ok, this idiot, know only how to move his mouth, use his mouth to work...to order people to do somethings, to eat, to shout, to bla...bla...bla....his limbs are just a display, to show that he is a normal people...normal to have limbs, just enough for him to walk, to run, to drive the car....

My two brothers has pretty different characters. The elder one, lazy, hot-temper, big eater, big sleeping bug and dirty....The youngest one, the happy bug, more hardworking, easy going temper, big eater also, online game maniac and more hygienic...Well well...sure I love the youngest one then the elder one, he is much much more adorable....Sometimes, when I was running out of time, the youngest one will reach out to help...help to wash the plates, to collect the clothes and sweap the floor....I never saw the sleeping bug doing so...That's why i wondering...is it boys cannot do housework?

Guys must do the housework!! This is a merit in gals' eyes...as they know how uneasy to do the housework, how tiring it was~Standing aside, with hands on their hips...oh man....you are just a big rubbish to be sweep away... phew~~~~~~ Bingo!! into the bin!!

So now, do housework is noted down as my list....Disqualify if you don't know how to do housework!!