The passing of a friend

Life is indeed unpredictable...I just knew her in secondary, but i am not really remember her. When i saw her picture, then i recognize her. It's been a decade that i din get any news about her. When i heard her name again, she is no longer here. Life is indeed incapable to predict...

While the world is still running, there is a person disappear into another world. It won't stop running for everyone...not you, not me.....treasure your life...

May she rest in peace...

Food for thought..

"4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

" ¹³And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love."

1 Corinthians 13:13

This is what i read this morning...
The happiness is landed on me, however, i let it go...

Afresh

I am what in a low passion lately....I easily get influenced by other, envy or admirer things belongs to other, but i never see what is in my hand...

I shouldn't be like this anymore...what for i kept on thinking something nonsense and useless? life still going on...time won't pause for anyone....only you chasing the time, not time waiting for you...

Think twice...even the present mode ain't the loving one, at least you are much more blessed than others...what so pity? you are just inviting ridicule rebuff...

Have you forgotten your family?

Have you forgotten your friends?

Have you forgotten the blessing is bounding you?

You are not blind, just you intended to be blind...purposely to be blind and deaf...

Holidays is drawing a close soon...Afresh and restart again...

Dream

We were ready to march forward...to face the world...no more in the comfort zone..

A bright future is waiting in front..

However, i am not satisfy with my present mode...
My ego is going to kill me...
I admit, i am a greedy gal..

Her life has been changed..

I went as a volunteer for life game for 4 days 3 nites. Still remember that, i was so hesitated in decide to go or not to go that day, as my best friend is not going...Yet, my mind stopped bugging by this verse...

"For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve" Mark 10:45

Again, i felt that i was so close with Father. This kinds of feeling was lost for quite a while since back here..This verse popped out that day, just like He wants to remind me of something....I shut up and decided to go at last....

For the first day, I can't have a hand in with other volunteers...I was feeling strange as no one who familiar is around...Indeed, Lord will guide us all around. I met with this gal. She is my ex-student. I can frank to tell you that, she is what a nonsense and headache before. I didn't teach her, i just went to her class for sit-in. But, can you imagine there is a student who can give you such a deep impression even you din teach her? I remember most because she is so 'diao'. She ignored you as invisible and never do her works. She just knows talking, talking and talking....What a great headache! Believe me!

BUT! This time, when I saw her, she is no longer the old one, she has been changed, changed a lot....She started to go to church, doing services, and the most important is she breaks off with her bad friends. She knows what should and shouldn't do...She cried while she shares her affairs... I was so glad that i was there to see this miracle....She confessed everything, repented and mended her ways...What is the power besides THE POWER OF LOVE?

Doing as volunteer really gave a great refreshment to me...It's been a while that i din be that enjoy and free my mind...School stuffs and affairs made me suffocated, made me like a robot to pass the life...indeed BORED...The delight as a server will never be replaced by anything...Even we were tired, but we knew what we were doing and for whom...Even until the last minute, some of the kids are still the old one, but, someday, there will be also someone like this gal, changed and renewed....God's timing ain't our timing.....Rejoice in Lord! =)

The gal and i...In Life team March 2010, YMCA

Photos with other volunteers

Y.M.C.A

The big Y

The Family photos!! Nice first attempt..

before to camp

This is the post that i wrote before i go to camp...wish to have a new attempt in this camp...and recharge myself...
Wondering, is it staying in comfort zone for quite a long time..I am lazy and worry to go...worry to face the strange environment...

Anyway, i think everything will be fine.....Wish me good luck...


"For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve" Mark 10:45

Unwittingly, hurted someone...

Unwittingly, I hurted someone...

He is nice, good, patient and considerate...

But, i have no feeling towards him, just treat him as my friend. He said he succumbed after i responded to him. I am sorry...still not the timing yet...

Anyway, we were still a great friend now, he is my newly met friend and we have a long chat last nite....glad to see that he is fine....We talk more compared to before, sharing life, sharing working experience, sharing future plans....he is indeed mature thinking..but why, i don't consider him?

Since i ended secondary, I seldom or can be said non...feel attached to someone...That's why i am still single now...Am i over-enjoyed single life? I love to be alone? definitely no....I want to have my own household, my own baby...just i haven't meet with the one and the last....

My bosom friend always remind me, list out the criteria and pray for my future partner. Ok, now i state it here and pray...

Lord, here come my prayer for my life partner, who is the one i wishing for....
1) For sure, christian! have strong spiritual life than I..as I was damn poor...
2) Humor...I can't withstand mute...
3) Have a professional carrier ( no doing sales pls)
4) > 170 cm...easiest right..
5) No bad habits
6) not need handsome, but good looking...
7) guitar admirer....i wish to learn it..
Lord, done or not done, it's all rely on you...
Amen....

My friend did experience it, she prayed and just within a month, she met with him..now they are pondering to get married....i just think that it is just a coincidence....

Lord timing is not my timing.....i am still anticipating for it...

Hot! Hot! HOT!!

The sun is burning outside...the earth is screaming 'I am exhausting'....everyone is screaming...raining please...PLEASE!!!

Realistic

When we stepped into working field, is that true we will be realistic? we want everything to be good to ourselves only, yet ignored other..if we be mercy to other, then is our death...quite a self-conflict a while lately...

I don't want to take advantage on other, but situation forced me to do so...can i use this as a reason to let myself feeling better? I am selfish i admit...But, why must be me? is just because i am a junior? i am still a fresher? You bumped the unwanted to me, then, that's mean i can only accept? even I am not happy with that?! What a nonsense!!!

Homo-sapiens..the most complicated creature in the world...

The last day of Jan 2010

It's the last day for Jan 2010...how time flies...I have been a genuine teacher for a month....

Frankly speaking, i still can't believe that i am a genuine teacher now...I can't imagine in my hand how will the kids be after a year...

I teach one good class and one weak class plus a foundation. I faced a great challenge in teaching the weak class...Like the same as my practical time, I need to brief up all the important points and teach them in the most simple way...My mission is to teach them to pass, not to get an A, or B, or C, or D. Sometimes, i facing failure...They hardly can understand or master a topic...Sometimes i felt weird...They still don't know what is the whole topic talking about after I done the whole chapter....Oh...what a great stunning to me!! i felt a great pity on them...They have been studied for at least 10 years, but their standard is not equivalent to their syllabus...Oh...

If you comment that i am the lucky one, yea...i agree with you too...I have been posted to my own hometown and get to teach my own major. Before the posting, we all afraid that we will be posted to outskirts....but who knows, get own hometown...then afraid again that won't get our major as my hometown was crowded with science teachers....yet, who know, get to teach also....I am blessed indeed...

Yet, somehow, i still not satisfied with it...

Don't know why, i am afraid other ppl will know that i am teacher... I don't like ppl asking me this kind of questions...

Don't know why.....................

Sophaholic....

I think I was too stressed lately...

It is Friday yesterday...After I finished marking the exercise books, it was 3:30pm in the afternoon. It was raining cats and dogs outsides....No deal, I wait till 4pm...I was so blur at that time...Finally, I can go home....

While driving, I suddenly have the urge to shopping....Oh...CNY is around the corner...Thereafter, I drove to Parkson, the only place I shopping here....As it is still raining, so, i parked my car at the car park...Walking with flying legs, it's shopping time^^...

Oh....There are too many choices for jeans. I need to update my jeans...as all are quite loose after years...I bought three pieces of jeans, one piece of skirt and one piece of shirt.. All together RM157.65...Ok, then i went to pay the money...Oh man!! My cash are just exactly enough to pay it!! But, how to go home? My car was in the car park!!!

What a coincident my hp was flat that time....I rummage my wallet and handbag...Thank God, i found 30 cents...=')....smile with tears... I used the only 30 cents to call my Mom to rescue me....Get the money from Mom and drove myself home...

On the way, thinking that I was just an insane...what a big laugh to myself...=)

Nauseating....

Do you ever see this? You can also swim here besides swimming pool....good idea...saving money, saving time and sunbathe....

I think this is the n time i saw these boys swimming in the drain...very disgusting....Imagine that, the amoeba, paramesium, euglena is swimming together with them, not only around them, but also inside their blood vessel...together with their lungs, with their heart....What an unbridled 'sport'....yuck...

From mono to poly, from B & W to colour screen.....

I got a new handphone lately...it was from my brother...no deal, i always use the second hand ...hmm....it doesn't matter as i am not hand phone madman...

Well well, it's been the 2nd week i used it. Overall, i was quite satisfied with it's function...It has wifi connection, therefore, while in school, this is the only entertainment for me during free period. I was mad to online with handphone now...haha...use it to update my FB status, to check mail, to reply msgs....bla bla bla...one more thing, it has nice stereo...I am loving it...

Well, i guess this is the 8th handphone I used. Still remember that I have the very first handphone while i finished F5 as I do part time job in the holidays...therefore, Brother gave me his handphone...2nd hand again...haha....It was 8250, i used it for about 3 years i guess..

Then, I got the offer to uni...then, Mom bought a new handphone to me...Fuyoo...finally have my very first brand new handphone...That time i was frenzied with folding handphone, so, I choose Samsung E600..the very first Samsung handphone i used... But i just used it for 3 months i guess..it's has a bad function.

Then, I changed to Sony Ericsson T630, as saw some of my friends using it, and sounding good....Oh...i can say that, this is the most unlucky handphone..It 'died' so badly....Just that day, i put it on a cupboard, then someone calling, and it dropped from the cupboard...the screen, all spoiled....I was so pity to see on it...Anyway, i still not convenient in using Sony or Samsung, i admit, i still prefer Nokia...

Thereafter, my brother gave his handphone again...again, 2nd hand...haha...the pink Nokia 3100..Another story for this handphone...I took it to Penang in my 2nd semester of first year...That day is Chap Goh Meh, I just back from shopping with friends...damn tired...I just throw my shirts and pyjamas into the pail...then open the water tap...After the water halfly covered the dirty shirts, i just realized that i forgot my hp in my skirts!!!! Oh man...I cried as I thought that i need to buy a new hp again...I felt so guilty that time cos i changed quite a number of hp before this....Then, i try to hair dried it....So thanks, it still can be used...

Then, is the most long life handphone to me...Nokia 7610...Again, from my brother too...I used it until I graduate...It is really good hp. I like its camera, clear and sharp...I always use it to self-portrait...haha....In between, I also use Nokia 6288 and 5610, but all have a short life span...what a pity....

And, the last one, N81, my darling at the moment....^^..Again, from my brother..haha..

Blogging with my new handphone..

I just get a new handphone last few days..it is N81. I love it very much now...as it has wi-fi connection..thats mean i can connect anytime i like as long as there is wireless..So,now,i testing by blogging online in school..its work! So,this is the first post i written by my new handphone..

WITH ALL I AM

This is a christian song sang by Hillsongs...I was quite keen on this song lately, even I had listen to it for a few years dy...It's lyrics is like so:

Hillsongs United - With all I am
Into your hand I commit again
with all I am for You Lord

You hold my world in the palm of your hand
and I'm yours forever

CHORUS
Jesus I believe in you Jesus I belong to you
You're the reason that I live the reason that I sing
With all I am

I'll walk with You wherever You go
through tears and joy
I'll trust in You

and I will live
in all of Your ways and
Your promises forever

I will worship I will worship you forever

Still remember that, that day, i was on my way to school...woke up quite early in the morning, as have duty for these three months...When I listen the chorus part, unpredicted, I cried...Tears rolled down my cheeks..."Jesus I believe in You, Jesus I belong to You". I know, Jesus wants me to be here, He has He owns reasons....I don't know when I will get to know it, but, He had planned everything to me...

While getting older, I did frustrate with future...I still have a lot of plans that haven't undergo yet..I still have a lot of places that haven't go yet...Sometimes even have a lot of ideas, yet, I hardly can deal my own favor...

I have a pretty picture with my future...I want to have my own home-sweet-home, have my own babies...During family day, I have my hubby sitting besides me and I can rely on his shoulder, watching our babies walking towards us..In the evening, we can walk hand in hand at the garden, with our babies....When we are old, we still sitting on the bench, watching our children bringing our grandchildren walking toward us...

Who said I don't want to get married?

Blessed year

Year 2009 is going to end soon...2 days left... Then, we have to say again, Adieu 2009, Aloha 2010!!
Every year, until this moment, we will look back what we have done for this whole year....Yea, at this moment, i confess, 2009 is a blessed year to me... indeed..

In the earliest of year 2009, I attended my practical school, together with Belle...And glad that, even we were tired and full with challenges, but thanks, we have nice teachers and colleagues...We finished our practical...with flying color and happy ending....

In the mid of Year 2009, I went back to my hometown, with fullest of unwilling....Mind brimming with grudge...the dark moment in my life after went back...I don't want to stay at home, I want to go away, but I can't choose my way...Bickering, wrangle, squabble congested my home...But, thanks, I have undergone it...

Then, is time for GSTT...I rejected the offer from my most wanted school...But, thanks, what i got for the rest is much more then what i have wished...The blessing is ample...I met with the lovable kids in the school, the nice and friendly principal and the good colleagues....

In August, I graduated...Mom and Dad have their very first child wearing the graduation gown...I am glad to be their proud as well...At this moment, I no longer a braces gal. Two years of braces life ended too with my foot stepped out from the threshold of my university...Hurray!!

I met with a lot of friends this year, as started to have fellowship here...I have tried to be usher as well in my church...Since i will be staying long here, then I cannot stop my service as well, this is the basic responsibility for every Christian...

I went to 3 schools this year, and the third school will be the most challenging school to me and i will be in this school for a long long time, i guess....Maybe 2 years, 3 years, or even 10 years.. O.O!!!

Sometimes i am thinking that, i am a rebellious gal and full of sin...as i always quarrel and irrespective to my parents, to my friends and never think for others...But, why? why He still loves me? sustained me to encounter everything? years by years....

Single is a sin?

Is single a sin? Why you are still single? Why no boy friend? Oh...everyone is urging me to pah toh...It's my deadline....

Lately, there are so many anonymous texting me...I was bored with that. When we exchange FB, I have that kind of feeling, am I that lousy to meet with them? Why do I need such a way to meet my life partner? Is that a sin if I have never been fall in love before?

No feel is zero feel...how to start if really have no feeling with them? Love is never try....It is hurting if not managed properly...I don't like matching!

Caroling in hometown

This year I have Christmas celebration in my hometown...Every year, i was so looking forward for the Christmas...But, this year seems nothing fresh...the mood, no longer enthusiastic...

Don't know why, I was quite down with my social relationship now...From today's caroling, i just realize that hardly can find a close friend to accompany me to go....I suddenly felt that, where is my friends? I hardly can find some intimate friends to hear my mumbling....I was quite down now....even I still said Marry Christmas to everyone....Such an irony, huh?!

A friend have been posted to Bintulu..She was cried once she knew the news...I was sad too....She is the one who i always phoned when i want to have a long chat...She will always listens and then say something to cheer me up....She is the type free to play and kidding one....But now, she is going soon....haiz....sigh.....

She is Irene, the tallest gal....
This pic was taken when we are doing a farewell for another friend....let it be her farewell too....
Bye gal....meet you soon in Chinese New Year...All the best!!

Merry Christmas!

Wish to have a different Christmas this year, but seems that everything still the same.....

It is Christmas today! Have a blessed Christmas everyone!!

Ending?

Year 2009 is drawing a close soon...It is 10th of December today...But there are lots of thing not yet a close....

The hottest news that hauling 7 billion people in the world, the Global warming...Is it ended?
This is no more a fresh news, years and years it been repeated and have been highlighted for n times....but there is no conclusion at all...By all means, Climate Conference 2009 in Copenhagen is what a damn essential to solve this problem, but where are the solutions? Earth is gaining hot and hot....Warning have been given that if the Earth's temperature gained 4c, then there will be the end of the world..the real end! Those who attending the conference are all like famous celebrities. They have a great show in the conference. What a great condolences that not only them, but us too...We are just like a frog beneath the transparent well, we know what is happening outside, but we have no action...Have eyes, but can't see, have ears, but can't hear....

Starvation...Is it ended?
7 billions population in the world, 6 billions have 3 meals, yet, 1 billions having starvation...When you are putting the bread or chocolate into your mouth, do you ever think that there is a kid who is far away from you having kwashiorkor now? We were so blessed now, as we always have a full tummy, but what about them? Don't grumble that you are not full yet, be grateful that you have food to eat....

Economic decline...Is it ended?
World Economic have no bright future for the moment....In America, there are 1540 millions unemployed. Among 3 families, there are one unemployed family. Life is gaining harder and harder....

Abortion, divorce...Are these ended?
Once a pair decided to marry, they had promised that they will love each other till the end of the life...But nowadays, divorce is simply done...Just a signature, you are not my life partner anymore...
I don't want this baby...just abort it...I hate this baby..This is not my baby...just abort it...Abortion is simply done nowadays...

Where is the ending? Or I should ask, will there be an ending? Sigh...