Simply Qin

Life for late

Been started work for the second week of working after holidays... life still packed with tasks, this and that....Students are still like before....I am feeling pity with them..wish to help them with whatever i could do, but, I don't know where to start from....and how to....
They came with empty brain, back with empty brain as well....Will there be a miracle someday?

How thanks I have things to do now...at least, mind no longer brimming with rubbish and somethings i wonder...But, how to do with holidays in September? I am terror with holidays now...Everyone anticipate for the holidays...but I m the reverse...When can I get out from the circle? indeed cling me for a long time...

Closing of the holidays..

Today, the last day of our three weeks holidays, it is drawing a close soon...I just read through the post that i wrote on the first day of holidays...how time flies, today, i will write for its closing....lolz...

Well, i didn't feel much reluctant for it...I even wanted the school days desperately...Maybe stay idle for a long time, fully recharged! I am ready! Have something to do is much better then nothing to do right?!

In this period, i had done with marking, table cleaning and vacation. The last one, house moving, only done half...I was headache to move my things to my darling room...I have too many pairs of shoes, bags and clothes...I wonder where to place all the things....My mom just teased me yesterday that the shoes I owned are enough to open a Vincci...Hahha...really? then I need to buy more to make it real...Shoes, my favorite item!

Talked with a friend this morning and listen to her plan for future...She is going to change her present mode, to upgrade her value...mean she is going to leave here...I did envy as she can choose with her own willing, but I can't...In previous, I will in great grief, but now, can be said, I am numb already...It doesn't mean that, i satisfy with my present mode...I still hope for a change ...But, i don't desire much...let it be...I promised to give myself 3 years, 3 years for me to love my job, 3 years for me to find my partner...If after 3 years I'm still the same, I will quit...It looks like a great obstacles in front, the most one is my parents....But, i will try to talk nicely with them....let them to understand me and give me support as well....The only thing that will change my mind is marriage. When meet with the right person, I will get married..

What a myriad world out there, but I just circling in my own world, the only world belong to myself, how tiny it was....

Yea...mind brimming with 'How are you' as well... Regard that I wanted to send most to a friend...Many hesitations congested as well...doubt how will it be after it been sent...Hope you are fine, friend....

Rainbow..

Rainbow after the rain...
it's illusive, it's authentic...
Dark clouds around...
just like a thief
come without sound, come without signals...
snatched our joy...
create a dead road just there is no way out...
Yet, the rainbow....
Its arise shaded the dark spot to become colorful, even just a corner or just a piece...
It's enough to put a grin on our face...

Always...
Life seems to be no way out, loaded with obstacles, loaded affairs, loaded with sorrows...
But, still remember God's promises and faith with God?
The promises under the rainbow....
God will make a way, where there seems to be no way

From: http://www.musicbabylon.com

Raise your head, look up to the blue sky...
Sky is not always cloudy...
Life is not always in low tide...
There is always a way out...
Always, a rainbow after a tempest...

Life without ups and downs is not called life..
It's called drama...
It's called wonderland...

Come on~~

How dirty is my table in the staffroom....I had made up my mind to clean up since last holidays in March...but sigh....the time always ran away from my palm...Finally today, I pushed myself to complete the mission...It's done and was quite satisfy with my job...Well done!~~

Before I tidy my desk, it is what a damn the lizard's stool are seen everywhere...yuck....disgusting~! I took out my drawer..Oh man~~ what a mess...

After I took out everything inside the drawer, my table is just like student's table, full with rubbish....LOL~~

Ok...now is time to arrange everything properly in my drawer.....Step by step...i almost done...singing the songs.....Out of my notice, the cover of the punch opened and left all the white snow inside the drawer...sigh...need to take out everything and restart again....

hmm....who's leg?

Deng deng....finally done my work....the messy drawer is now orderly arranged...but dunno will last for how long....hahaaaa.....

Oooppsss....forgot to take the photo of my desk...take it on the first of school day...

School is going to start, how many days left?
Countdown is coming...Anyway, this long holidays recharged me to face the coming challenges....
Well...not feeling reluctant, but anticipate for school days....

~The End~

Boy cannot do housework?!

Ah jie, sweap the floor...
Ah jie, wash the plates...
Ah jie, no more drinking water lo...
Ah jie, it's raining...collect the clothes...
Ah jie, don't just sitting there and watch tv lo...tidy the house~~ (even though their big butts are hot baking on sofa)

Sigh...this is what i heard every day and night in my house...I am a kakak now, even I am their kakak...

It's just like naturally, we won't ask the boys to do the housework...is it their hands are silver or golden made? I am definitely despise boys who never ever or don't know how to do the housework...There are one idiot in my home....Luckily not two...

Ok, this idiot, know only how to move his mouth, use his mouth to work...to order people to do somethings, to eat, to shout, to bla...bla...bla....his limbs are just a display, to show that he is a normal people...normal to have limbs, just enough for him to walk, to run, to drive the car....

My two brothers has pretty different characters. The elder one, lazy, hot-temper, big eater, big sleeping bug and dirty....The youngest one, the happy bug, more hardworking, easy going temper, big eater also, online game maniac and more hygienic...Well well...sure I love the youngest one then the elder one, he is much much more adorable....Sometimes, when I was running out of time, the youngest one will reach out to help...help to wash the plates, to collect the clothes and sweap the floor....I never saw the sleeping bug doing so...That's why i wondering...is it boys cannot do housework?

Guys must do the housework!! This is a merit in gals' eyes...as they know how uneasy to do the housework, how tiring it was~Standing aside, with hands on their hips...oh man....you are just a big rubbish to be sweep away... phew~~~~~~ Bingo!! into the bin!!

So now, do housework is noted down as my list....Disqualify if you don't know how to do housework!!

Happy 25th Birthday!!

It's my big day today!! I have gone through for 25 years, what a great blessing and pamper from God....Thanks for Your guidance in these few years...

I am a lucky gal...

To have Father in the heaven
To have family on the earth...
To have bosom and close friends around me...

Impressive song - 听妈妈的话

听妈妈的话

词曲：周杰伦编曲：林迈可、洪敬尧制作人：周杰伦　歌手：周杰伦

小朋友你是否有很多问号

　　为什麼别人在那看漫画我却在学画画对著钢琴说话

　　别人在玩游戏我却靠在墙壁背我的ABC

　　我说我要一架大大的飞机

　　我却得到一只旧旧螺旋机

　　为什麼要听妈妈的话

长大後你就会开始懂得这种话哼

　　长大後我开始明白为什麼我跑的比别人快飞的比别人高

　　将来大家看的都是我画的漫画

　　大家唱的都是我写的歌

　　妈妈的辛苦不让你看见

　　温柔的事是否在她心里面

　　有空就多多握著她的手

　　把手牵著一起梦游

　　听妈妈的话别让她受伤

　　想快快长大才能保护她

　　美丽的白发幸福中发芽

　　天使的魔法温暖中慈祥

　　在你的未来音乐是你的王牌

　　那王牌谈个恋爱而我不想被你教坏

　　还是听妈妈的话吧晚点在恋爱吧

　　我知道你未来的路干嘛比我更清楚

　　你因为太多学习的同学在这块写东写西

　　但我在妈妈我会用功读书

　　用功读书怎麼会从我嘴巴说出

　　不想你输所以要叫你用功读书吗

　　妈妈交给你的毛笔你要好好收著

　　因为不许告诉我也告诉他我还留著

　　对了我会遇到了周润发

　　所以你可以跟同学炫耀赌神未来是你爸爸

　　我找不到你写的情书

　　你喜欢的要承认

　　因为我会了解你会在操场上牵她

　　你会开始喜欢唱流行歌

　　因为张学友开始准备唱吻别

　　听妈妈的话别让她受伤

　　想快快长大才能保护她

　　美丽的白发幸福中发芽

　　天使的魔法温暖中慈祥

　　听妈妈的话别让她受伤

　　想快快长大才能保护她

Kick back and relax...

Robotized for few months, now it's my own time to do my own favorite..

Well well...we just back from a vacation in KL and Penang, feeling so relaxing and recharged...probably aim for shopping and gathering with friends...On the day of flight, our flight delayed for 2 hours....sigh...the credit of Now Everyone Can Fly no longer a merit...Therefore, we arrived late in KL..Burger King is our first meal in KL.

We didn't do the shopping in the first day as we were very tired...After checked in, we just walk around the Bintang Street...what to say, big city, crowded!
On the second day, we were ready for our shopping journey. Sigh, it is not really the happy one....I strained my ankle before the journey...Oh, it is damn painful...How come?! i wore slipper only! At first, thought that my journey might be ruined...Thanks God, I still can walk around after a rest..=)

When we talk about Malaysia? What does it come first to your mind? Culture? good shopping complex? what else? Well, to me, indeed, Malaysian still need to improve their hospitality. We met with what a kind of rude salesgirls. Please, it's our right, our right as a consumer to choose, to buy or not to buy, it's our own business, you cannot force us to buy it! you need not come to entertain or serve us or even ignore us...we will more enjoy in this case...What a disappointment that day we didn't buy the things, then the salesgirl return back with harsh words...Oh man!! what a damn frustrating after heard her words, even I knew that is their style, their pattern as I experienced before in Penang. But, do you need to be like so, you are chasing your money away!! It spoiled my good mood!!..But just for a while la...not worth for such kind of nuts...

I didn't do much shopping in KL...maybe not my favor....haha...

The next day, we headed to Colmar Tropicale. The first time we been there...Spent whole day there...soak in the culture of France?! can it be? haha....some sort of la....but, nice scenic spot~

yOOOO0000....It's time to Penang! Some friends asking me, why you still want to go Penang, since you just went there last year and have been there for 4 years?! Well, Penang gave me lots of memories...I met with my housemates, my uni mates and most important, I met with my dear Father here...If I have not been here, guess no where am i now...I enjoy to shopping here, enjoy the delicacies and enjoy the culture here...This time, can be said shopping to the fullest...I bought 5 pairs of shoes!! what a shoes maniac!!hahha....but it's worth!

How time flies! Yesterday was the last day of the trip...Before we go home, my friends celebrated my 25th birthday. Touched to have their blessings...Well, for sure, still, my wishes are wish my family healthy and fine, and end my single life...hahahaha....

The end of the trip, aim for oversea for next vacation...Bangkok or Taiwan, will do....Count me in!!

Thanks guy, to meet you in my life...

He thought this is a game, he said this is a game...just a game...k, fine...we all quit from this game...

The end of the story, the story between us...I wondering is it a fault that we met up in the earliest? And, always, he back here, our conversation ended up unhappily...and he should be back here to reunion and enjoy the moment with his family...but, why always been ruined by me? it is indeed tiring..

Two is better the one? Not really...I am not despair with relationship, i just tired in this case and need time to recover too...pause first for the next and God's timing...Iwis, i decided too much thing with my own willing, i didn't seeking for His timing...Not need rushing rite....=)

In this case, i learn about many first hand lesson....Most, never involve too many parties....yea, it is good to have mutual friends, they are lubricants...But, when dealing with relationship, still, two parties are easier to settle....we never want to hurt anyone, but when comes to mess, mischief is hardly to be solved...even a sorry also doesn't mean everything....

I was so determined to make up my mind in before, no feeling, bye bye~~ I have to hold this principle tightly forever and after...in order not to hurt anyone...never be hesitate, never be shilly-shally...

My friend reminded me I shouldn't be harsh in order to let him give up even I was in madness...Ask him to cool down first and talk nicely to him....even we can't be couple, we still can be friends, forever friends...Thanks gal, for that day what a good timing you called me, as I was in great vexation in dealing with that guy....Otherwise, until today we are still in hatred...

For him, I was thankful...thanks for being so lovely and nice to me....thanks for sharing his works, his dream, his life with me...thanks for teaching me those lessons....We all grown up...for our next relationship...Even till today, we still no contact and I don't know, how is him now....but, at least, we are not in hatred anymore....Even he said this is a game, maybe from the earliest, he thinks this is a game dy...but anyway, I didn't blame him...as he gave more then accept...

Thanks guy...Wish you all the best in looking for your next relationship...you will find the one and the last...as you are not honored to be single rite...=)...Wait for God's timing....

So do I, waiting for God's timing...true love waits....=)

I like blogging~

Blogging allows me to shout out...

Blogging allows me to share life...
life as a Christian, life as a teacher, life as a daughter, life as a friend...

Blogging allows me to concede my guilt...
a scrutiny of my days of life...

Blogging makes me to be sensitive to surrounding...
to my life, to people in my life...

Blogging makes me to practice writing....
even nobody mark for me...lolz...^^

Blogging makes me have something to do during my idle time...
much better then shopping outside...

Blogging recalls my reminiscences....when i glance back, i put a grin on my face...
what a day full of memories...
...=)...

It's holidays....

Announcing the opening of the 3 weeks holidays!! Hurray!! This is the first time I feel so good to be a teacher...whatever...the reward for all teachers...

I have so many things to be done within these 3 weeks holidays....First of all, sure is finish marking the headache MT papers...Students grumble that it is super duper tough this time and I am gaining their suffer! Huh...why don't say u are underestimate MT?! or should say you still need to work harder...Marking their MTs are taking my time and spirit as well...I told my students I need to turn on the air-cond to the lowest temperature and the strongest level, put a glass of cold water on my desk, in order to cool me down while marking their papers....lol...haha...but i haven't start marking yet....Still left 3 bundles to be finished...

Shopping maniac is coming!! Yeah....going to KL and Penang in coming June....I want to update my wardrobe and my working suits...I am headache as everyday standing in front of the square box, rummage from the first to the last shirts, yet still wear the same suite...so, shopping to the fullest in coming week...

I want to move my everythings to my darling room in new house..It's time to do so, even i still prefer the old house....I always use many excuses to stay at old house....short distance to sch, many things to move, cannot online at new house...bla..bla..bla...lame...Every nite, I saw Mom and brothers busy moving the things to new house and I only say goodbye to them...Seeing Mom's back made me feel sorrow....Mom is no longer young, but she still need to do every tough works...I felt so unfilial with that....So, no reason to escape this time, i want to move~~

I need to tidy up my table in school....Lizard's stool has been accompanying me for a long time...yuck...I want to sweep it away...

hmm.....anything else? These are the major things I need to settle first...

Amazing~

It was 11:30pm last nite, and i was still thinking whether to continue marking the exam papers or not...there are 30 sets to be marked..

In the last, i used only one hour to finish marking all the 30 sets exam papers...12:30am, done my work...amazing rite?! Why? Because i draw more ? and X much more then a tick...I don't even need to figure out the workings, cos all are just nonsense...They don't even bother to answer the questions, how to give them marks...1 minute to mark each set? It's too much..

I was bothering, there are two papers for Maths this time, plus both papers there are all together 4 hours...What are they doing in these 4 hours?? Fishing, dreaming, staring, trance, sleeping? Before the exam started, i kept on remind them don't leave it blank, i can't give you any single mark if all blank....whatever, they don't even bother about their marks, all blank....In a nutshell, their brains are blank as well...

What can i do in order to help them to get a pass? just simply a pass...that's all....this time, the whole class failed for Maths. Last time, at least still have 3 get passed...The whole class completely annihilated this time...deng deng!! Game over!!

Oh....What's going wrong? This is Maths, is that tough to learn as the whole class is Chinese....Chinese should be brilliant in Maths, or they are special cases? I need to change my tactic and teach in the most simplest way....Start before it is too late....they really really cannot imbibe that much.............

Regret?

I should think twice..will i regret with my decision in future? What made me so determinant to reject him? what should i do in order not to hurt him anymore? what do i want? Headache....

There are so many questions in my mind now...

Distance? chatting, msn, FB...is different with face to face, the feeling is different as well....I can imagine how wonderful he is through texting, but when come face to face, the problems come....

Feeling? no feeling = no chance?ignore?

Characters?

Can we still be friend? he is a nice guy and good friend....

Lord, pls show me what should i do...i am tired....

Nothing??

Yo...just figured out that i just wrote two posts for May...May, May, you are a lonely month..well well, really no big events in May, other then school and home only....just i missed a dating with my old friends...hate it....school events again....

Never mind, there will be a lot of events in coming June....and holiday is coming!! Anticipating....

True love wait...

A big nudge to me last nite while join the fellowship...it answered me quite a number of ? marks....Indeed, true love wait...no need be so anxious about it...if it really ain't the one prepared by God, i don't want....and, i admit, i din have a proper relationship with Lord, but He still loves me....and He actually did prepare the one and the last for me, just the timing...Be patient for His miracle....

Busy, working is beating and bugging me for all the while.....I always use these such lame excuses to skip fellowship and services...Persuading myself, i am still the first yr in the sch, there are many things for me to ready, please, give me one year, after that, i will ready myself to indulge in services...Really? Are you sure you still can keep your promise after a year? The surrounding is keeps on changing..your heart, your mind might be changed also after a year....then, until that day, many many lame excuses will appear...Until that day, you are still at the starting point...

i hope i will not using it anymore...try my best...but i m afraid, the fire just burning for a while....after a few days, it will turn off....remind me...

God, i am sorry for what i have done for the late...My life is empty without You, i want to hold You tightly...even just Your garment..and thanks for not cast me aside...thanks for still loving me...I promise, true love waits, be patient with the one and the last you ready for me....be faith with You!

The richman and the villagers...

While the villagers are eating kampua mee and kongpia,there comes a rich man smiling at them. He says, I want to pamper this place, pamper this place with 1M,1B. I want to free you all from the nightmare. But, i need your voice and support..as we are in 1Unity, rite!

The villagers smiled and so appreciate his generosities....

However, years fly, the nightmare still haunting the villagers, they still eating kampua mee and kongpia with their foots soaking in the flood....sigh....

Its been a century that my hometown casted aside by the gov. And now it is in the eyes of all civilians...But just for this week. Due to a passing away of a renowned dato, kampua town no longer staying silent. Banner hanged everywhere, just afraid that you can't notice it...The top-notch servants spring up, to let you to glance a minute while they are doing the 'show'..It's show time, everyone...They are the best celebrities...

It is so realistic...Crammed at the last minute, what they want, we are clear about it...But, why don't you do this all start from the beginning? We are not taking for granted...
After this honeymoon week, will us still keep pampered by them?

I dunno what do i want now

For the moment, i am still trapping myself in a box...me myself still don't want to come out...what a stubborn gal....hard...and feeling suffering...i really dunno what do i want for the moment....

Everything seems so good to me...But i din appreciate at all..Everything is such a blessing....but....i don't appreciate it....what a bitch...

Please..God, i was so suffering now....life seems so boring now...i don't want to be like that for the rest of my life.....everyday the same old days.....so boring...boring...and boring.....when can i get out from here? from the trap?

Am i really want to be like so for the rest of my life? where is my next destination? or this is the end?

The forth month in 2010

It's been the forth month that i became the genuine teacher...Stil, life is packed with school tasks, even weekends also the same...i have no shopping for a month already..breaking the record....In my hometown, the shopping bug is not that active...why? The shopping bug is hibernating for June's shopping in KL...I was so looking forward for it...

My friend asking me how did i feel about my students now? For sure, i prefer them more than before...If not, teaching is a suffering stuff for me...i don't wanna be in such a hell....I figured out that, teacher has to be good in debate, debate with students and win them...Then, they will respect you a little little only...even just a little, it is good too....Otherwise, when they climbing up high there, you no longer can pull them down already...

Students are very emotional...it just like playing psychological warfare with them. They hardly can be prognoses. Ok...fine, i want to fool you back...change my pattern everyday...make you grasp the minds vain...hiak..hiak hiak...

The government are probing teachers' working tasks...Memorandum have been hand in for transformation. But when will it be? After n years, or after a century....

Do you believe?

Today's sermon preaching about this three words: Do you believe?
Believe in what? believe in yourself or believe in Jesus?
What a reminder to me....indeed, i was asking this question quite a frequent lately...
Frankly speaking, my faith is fading since back...mean, it is been a long time already...I was just like walking corpses...I dunno what is God's purpose for putting me here...I started to question, is that's all for my life?

Just by faith, not by sight...Until today, i still haven't entirely practice it or get use with it...Even i pray, but i m not fully entrusted...the sovereignty still in my hand, i am afraid when something is not in my control....

Pastor preaching that, let it go...don't truss up yourself...All you need to do is just a simple trust...He is a risen God, and He gave us promises that He will give the eternal love to us, from now to forever...you need not pay anymore, He had paid for us...

Last week, our Pastor Xie came back from Singapore training for mission. He shared with us how is he undergone the bitterly painful path while in Singapore..For sure, finance is the most huge problem. However, he learn one most important thing, even life ain't the adorable one, you still have to trough life actively and keep praying, praying and praying...God will guide you all the way...unexpectedly...

These two sermons was a great advice to me...I should not feeling pity with myself anymore...Do i really pray hard? or i just grumble when things coming up is out of expectation....just think about it...

Waiting with patient...with faith...

Toy from trash

"Ah jie....." I heard my brother calling me...with flying voice.. he must has something to ask for...
"Yes?", I replied..
"Ah jie, can you help me to do something with recyclable material?" he asking with shimmering eyes...
As I expected, he always speak in flying voice when he needs my help...cheh, realistic boy...lol

What a huge project to me...i have no idea of what thing to do....I searched online, nothing i get...My brother kept on reminds me everyday to complete this suck...He is such a lucky boy to have this sister....
Just yesterday, the last day before due date, i surfed again online to get some ideas....When i came to Youtube, what a great, I found this idea, Can aircraft...Phewit...I was so excited to start...

I get everything ready, the can, the scissors, rulers, super glue.....bla bla bla...And you know, while i am processing this thing, my brother is just sitting aside, watching me, laughing me....bad boy....huh....

For the very first step, i cut the aluminum can into pieces...It is damn hard to cut it...finally, got it...