Will He still love me?
where to go?
the reason that i decided to go Langkawi is my friends are going too and some of them are final year, so, wanna have the last trip with them...and, going to a trip with a group of friends will be very fun, right? taking the map, explore the place ourselves...whao....sounds challenging...
finally my dream to Singapore coming to be real. what to say, it is so complicated as we need to decide where to go in the first time, cos, no money no talk, k?! Whatever la.....We plan to go there after we finish our final...it is quite enthusiasted now and so looking forward for it...i am going to Singapore...hahahah....mum and dad this time have no reason to reject me, and thanks for their permission....**wink ^o^LOL......
But, haven't start final already plan to have vacation, you must be in crazy now....whatever, i have been 'compressed' for a long time...study week is quite boring and routine, doing same thing for everyday, what la...revision la....haiz....whatever!! strike for it, never give up and simply say tired, it's your responsibility to study!! GAMBATEH!!!
Life of late...
yeah...events on saturday night is really a great memorable for all of us...it is quite touched this time as 3 of my housemates is going to gratuate in coming convocation...it is quite nervous and complicated after gratuate, as we have to decide our way, our carrier, our future...Hey!!let go those things, let God to decide it...His time and decision is never expected by any one of us...we cannot be HIM...if we really commit everything to Him with faith, there really will be something that cannot be expected by you and i...why we still need to be afraid as He is always by our sides? wondering...i confest, sometimes, i will...my faith with Him is still not stable...Father, My Lord, pls let be to be more dependent on you, with myself, i can't do anything...
found out that, i became non-chalant with people and things around me...is it business covered your eyes? tiredness enclosed your heart? just think about it...
study week is started, but i am still searching my mood to study...not yet have mood to start my revision...but, cannot delay anymore...just a short study week for me to study...Qin, arrange your mood and mind...don't waste your time anymore...
p/s: this blog was written in library 2 in USM...haha...suddenly have a mood to write...have to stop here...many people is waiting to use the pc..
Deepest sorrow to lost of Chen Dian Xia
Her impressive laugh and her significant spectacles frame, deeply infixed in everyone's heart. She is a happy-go-lucky celebrity. Yet, who knows, behind the laugh, sorrow and sadness haunted her....Liver cancer had grabbed her life...
a bit shocked while get to know this news...still remember that i watch her tv shows since i was still a child...what a great fun while watching her shows....yet, with the passing of time, wealth is there, but health is no longer there...she was peach in God now....
Indeed, treasure when you are still able...not let it be a great remorse....
Deepest sympathy to her family...May they be more doughty....
Chinese New Year
Since started open-house, met with a lot of relatives...yo...the springal in olden day, now turned to gorgeous gals and handsome boys...how time flies!!! haiz...cannot deny that i was old already...even my youngest brother now is taller than i (cannot shout at him anymore..=(...)...no more young lo....hahah....glad to saw that they were still well-being and stay healthy...
BUT!!! it is a bit carking that everyone asking me about my beau!! hey, no rush, k?! i can't do anything for it, it is all about fate and luck...i also wish i could meet with someone who is able to catch my heart, who is able to make my heart ramming and make myself suffocate, but, i haven't meet with him yet...no rush, k?!! Let's Lord to lead me to meet with him...
Haha...it was just weird that we all circulating about our future...talking about $$$....it is reality everywhere, everytime, we need $$$. Am i too realistic? money-minded?? it is so weird!!
ya, i am taking education, that's mean that i will be teacher in future, right?but frankly speaking, it is not my wish since early...i don't want to be teacher. it was so strong in past month.... i even blame myself why i don't insist on not taking it at that time? but i told myself...pls bear in mind, just for the moment....no promise that i won't fall in love with it in future...maybe i will...who know?? Teacher...what a word that i ask much nowadays...
Dad and Mom were still the same, still happy-go-lucky. Ha...what an oddball Dad this year, he plays firecrackers with brother..so funny looking at Dad playing it, Dad is having rejuvenation... huhh .....-.-!!! Well, my big brother, what i could say, he is indeed different with the old him...What a surprise, he wants to buy a massage chair for parents as new year presents....if in old days, he never consider about parents' painstaking...what a big change for him... i am so thankful for what Lord had been done for him...even my big brother is not believe in Christian, Lord still bless him and renew his life...What a big blessing to my family, everyone are still healthy...the ever best present given by Lord...
How fast the time flies....10 days of holiday, left two days....need to return penang soon, haven't cram the exhausted vigor...my student life still left 14 months...after that, the end of my student life..haha..need to plan about my future...haiz...don't see any 'light' in front, still dunno where is my way....
p/s: GONG XI FATT CHOY!!! HAVE A BLESSED HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR...
what a funny day today...
Today, i have a test which is the ever fastest test that i finished just within 5 minutes....tell you what, just 10 ticks, our answers for the test is just 10 ticks...what a loaf of crap!! we study so hard but you just gave us such a test, will us satisfy?! i am absolutely stunned by it...a bit furious actually...but never mind la..at least it is simple, no need squeeze my brain to answer it....haha....
ok, then, with flying legs, we wait for the bus to go home....well well well, out of the blue, the road was blocked by the cars beside...Darn it, cool our heels in the bus for 30 minutes....=(
I crave that i am at my home sweet home now...i am really wanted to go home...sleeping on my bed, with mom and dad besides me, have a simple breakfast with family.... wao...what a wonderful moment...BUT!!! need to pay of it.. lotz of assignments which are going to killing me after return to penang...after 10 days, return to hell again...ahhhhahahahahahah........really suffer!! what a student life!!! All bothersssssssss... i warn you, i want to toss you all aside...Never disturb my Chinese New Year mood!
Now, i need you all help... i am going to have an oral presentation after 10 days. but, i have no ideas about the topics to present. Much ideas popping out, but just a short while, then, it disappears again...so, if you have any good ideas, do share with me....i am much much thankyou for your help....just any topics you think that it is interesting and easy to elaborate.....thanks ya.!!
is time to sleep...
blogging for the 3rd time in Jan
phew...it is 2 weeks left before i back to hometown for my chinese new year....i wanted most to go home now...i miss my home so much...found out that i am closer with my big brother now...if in the past, we seldom have a long conversation...hmm..maybe we are far apart, as i am in Penang, and he is in Sabah, and we can only reunion once in a year, that's why i appreciate every moment i have with my family....
it is really a long time no blogging...blogging here is a place where i can examine myself, thinking deeply and clearly what i had done in the past, what i had said, what others had done, what i hope for the future...but, sometimes, need to think a lot, thus, I took a long time to finish a post...haha....too prolix..
It's sounds weird that someone i am familiar with now are no longer familiar with...They were changed or they are not changed, i am the one changed? wordless...ya, there is no harm to change, as environment altered our life, even we don't want at all, but, pls, be the positive one...
i had lead my cell group for the first two times...Thanks for God's guidance, everytime i pray, i felt so released, just like a big rock removed from my shoulder....but, still got a little tension la...i afraid i made the atm just like in Artic...everyone freeze to 'death'..hey, it is really uneasy to let everyone to talk, need to persuade and persuade again....i know, it takes time...not everyone have the sentiment to share, they have their comfort zone...Give time to them, be patient...At the same time, so thankful to them who are so bla bla bla.....if without you all, i am just speechless...and just panic there...pls forgive for my nescience, i will try hard to learn!!
Learn to abase myself
Since the clock of 2008 started to run, i have no pause for it... indeed a bit tired lately...i went for a leadership camp in last weekend. i just as if forced to be there, if i am not a leader, i wont be there...the melancholy feeling haunted me few days before i go to the camp...since i sat on the bus, reached the destination, feeling so depressed, as if nobody understand me..ya, just call me cynic..just like wanna throw a tantrum to anyone at there!! Why force me to go there!!!
Yet, i want to proclaim one thing...I am expecting that i will be very suffer in this camp...i tell myself...don't want to join any programme, don't want follow the rules, and want to ruin all programmes...but i didn't do so...yet, i am glad and thanskgiving i have been there, flabbergasted that i have this kinds of peaceful feeling after the camp ended...i learnt a lot, somethings that really gave me a pretty big nudge ...
i never know that, i am such a proud and sinful man. i never be humble and humility never grow within me. i never follow Lord's wish. i asked myself, why being a cell group leader is on par with fall deep into the pit of no return?! it was just weird?!!!!!!!!!!! I really hate myself..i am sinful as i breach my promise to Lord. I promised to Him that i will try my very best, but, the job not yet started i gave up already...i am afraid, i am timid..Yet, Lord told us, 'For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.'. yea...He is mighty God, why i still need to be afraid if i am really humble in Him...As i haven't abase myself, i am still afraid...don't let yourself regret, if you still have chance to service Him.
Much of grouses, even myself also bored with it...ha....sounds weird...
To everyone, what is your 1st impression to a Christian? holy? good manner? kind-hearted? friendly? or hypocrite? just have a chat with my beloved mom last day about her view to Christian...just then, i knew that she don't believe in Christian...for her, Christian=hypocrite...step into the church with a face, with another face again outside the church...this is what her impression to Christian...my heart felt overwhelmed and dire sad. i cried. Yet, mom said that, she won't hold back my belief and religious... she even encourages me...i know she still have little believe with Lord...
Lord, what should i do? with myself, i can't do anything...i have no power! i need your support...just then, i know, i can only affect my family with my own life and character...she don't believe is because of the sham christians, then i need to sober her up with the real...with my life...mom, dad, Lord will never forsake you!!
Until today, again, my table covered with notes and exercises again..haiz...student's life is like so...keeps going ....be reminded, without Lord, you are nothing!!
Happy New Year!!
Actually i am indeed a bit numb with celebration...even not feeling high with it...Yuck...what a bizarrerie feeling...maybe is due to my aging ..lol...
Anyway...we all are blessed, as we had come to today right? Wish you all have a fruitful and blessed 2008!!! Everyday indeed is a gift to you and me...Cheer!!
p/s:just the first day of new year, the air ticket annoyed all of us...Up upupppppppppppp..so hate looking at the air ticket price.........=(
New year wishes
It is Christmas today, what a big day to everyone...It's birthday of our Lord.. Happy Birthday, Dear Lord....
It is drawing a close to year 2007..whao...how fast the time is zooming...again, another year is going to be history, everything is drawn a close with the past of time, be the memories...be the recall
Here come my prayer for coming New Year, 2008...
I love my country, Malaysia.. I enjoy reading news, but, it is really feeling sick and sad of reading those heartrending news...it is such a great grief....
All Malaysian, can you sense the unpeaceful brouhaha in our country? We live in a multi-racial, multi-religious, multi-lingual society... At one time or another, our country are famous with it's peaceful, races' integrity...albeit we are not as develop as other countries...but at least, we are happy and hold together...Are we forgotten the moment we hand-in-hand, moving towards the same target, the same goal? No denial, we are 'degenerating'...the social safety is going down the drain...everyone became more non-chalant....what rape, murder, riot, inflation, is non of my business.....don't you ever aware of this? or you just pay attention to fashion, the latest mobile phone....bla bla bla...so forth...Come on, sober up!!! don't let it to rampant...We are in danger!! Dear gov...what is playing in your mind now? thinking of where to have occation? thinking of what brand new cars to buy?? Do you ever think of us?
I wish there will be no more disaster, no more global warming, no more pollution, no more killing of animals....pls, love our mother nature...the green land, the seas, the forests, the hills...don't just let our earth covered with skyscapers building....
To my family...
Thanks Lord, i am indeed grateful with my living now...eventhough there is a great flood at my home, i still thanksgiving...Thanks for His protection and great love to my family...Even if in a tough situation, mom and dad are not desperating, they are still happy-go-lucky...haha...That's my parents...
Regarding my family, i pray for them, everyday...They haven't see the miracle of Lord. Their life are still without Jesus...I bloodly hope that, one day, they will profess the faith to Lord, have a renewed life...just like what i experience...God really will make a way...Comparing my life with before, i am indeed empty...no joyance, no thankgiving, and never threasuring....what a great pity... But now, i have a change of life...everyday, for sure a great present for me....
To myself...
I always tried hard to do my very best, but, sometimes the results is out of my expectation...Just the incident in last few days indeed a great sorrow to me...just some kinds of weird. In essence, this is my first time, to start a new attempt, but what bring back to me is despair....Ha... maybe i should not draw a summing-up too early...it's still a long way to go..i should think like this, see, how wondorous is our Lord...how creative He is..He creates so many kinds of people, with different personalities, habits, temper, characters...whao...that's why everyone of us is exclusive, the one and the only...
If some one is not like what you expected, just ignore it...it's not a big deal...And, the most important is, how is your heart deal with your cell group...since you had promised to lead, then no way for you to regret ...you reap what you sow...What you done is just for HIM, my Lord....try your very best!!
i wish myself will not be a baby girl anymore...wish to have a change in coming year, sure the good one la...i wish i could do that....
phew....what a long grouses....In fact, it is my voice of heart...In a new year, everything will be changed, maybe sometimes will be a great letdown, but for sure, one thing that will never be altered, is THE LOVE OF JESUS...EMMANUEL!!
Moody
New semester is going to start soon. Actually, i am still in holiday honeymoon mood...now, woke up early in the morning is such a big suffer for me...haiz...
I took an English paper this semester which is different with my friends. And now, i am leaving my comfort zon where i may not go to the same class with the same group of friends...I need to meet with the new faces...So far, i am a bit worry about it, afraid that i can't handle the works and so forth....maybe i am just much ado than nothing, it won't be that difficult as what i thought...i should think in positive way...should learn to be more sociable and not just stay in my comfort zone...it won't be any sake for yourself...And, you are not alone, Dear Father is always by your side...How could you forget HIM...
Another thing bugging me...i am giving a chance to be cell group leader in this semester..but i confess, i am not ready yet. you gave me such a big mission to me, i can only keeping my mum. nothing to say.......................try my very best to live up to what i had promised...
It is big flood at my hometown, my home...Again, flood is again ruined my house...Never ending....Enough is enough...you will never know how is my feeling of depression if you never come through the nightmare...
worry about my home....worry about my parents and siblings...
Crap talking....
Ended of another week... a bit weird that i watched 2 movies in this week...ha, is it to have the last feast before start schooling...maybe...it's turn to hell again after next week...
It's been a while after the last movie i watched.... I watched the movies 'Enchanted' and 'The Goldon Compass' in this week...let's me have a pleasure to give some comments for both. As a matter of fact, i am so looking forward to watch 'Enchanted', but, whao...it's quite out of mind...how come the fairy tale girl can come to the real world and live happily ever and after with the real man and so the way for the real woman. Ya, you sure will say that, not a big deal, it's just a fiction, not need so serious about it...hmm...i just quite stand in amazement with the ending...^~^ Facing insomnia? well, don't worry...if you have sleeping difficulty, watch 'The Golden Compass'! Oops...am i too over?! haiz....to put it bluntly, i almost fall asleep when i watch this movie. The flow of the story is too complicated and looks like no linking. And, the bombastic name,haha...i need to take time to tell apart whether it is the name for the places or the characters...hmm...maybe i should just watch some briefness movies...........=)
Some kinds of sudden when we made our decision to go Taiping Zoo on last Thursday...We had a fun time at there...Tell you what, i was quite excited...Eventually, i saw hippo, elephant, rhinoceros, chimpanzee, black bear, zebra, Lion King, leapord and many many more..i did see them before, but is on the tv screen, but this time they were real in front of me...Yet, it was quite letdown as we didn't see giraffe. Actually, before that, there are six giraffes in the zoo..Yet, they died one by one...you know why? This was the human race's fault, simply threw the rubbish everywhere....They are animals, how could they differentiate what can be eaten and what cannot be eaten...so pity to hear that....even the zoomen are so pity to explain it to us...Let's ponder awhile...To all so called 'civilized ' Malaysian, please change your long-inherited habits...Throw the rubbish into the dustbin!!!...just my grouses...
My goodness.........There is something bugging me now....i am crazy with shopping now, really out of mind. There are sales everywhere...oh man, can't withstand with the cheap sale. sob sob.....=( my pocket got a big big hole now...running out of money...
well, well...have a long long talk with mom last night. Knowing that mom, dad and siblings are all doing well...i am so glad and pleased.......this was the greatest present for me....God, thankyou as You not only take care of me, but also my family. You love everyone even they haven't believe in You, but, i know, You will guide them all the way...I believe in You, throughly...
It is drawing to a close to my long holidays....i was pleased that finally i had go through the bored and the dull moments... and even if i was homesick in this period, i had managed it....not by myself, but Father is with me all the ways...I am not alone....New semester is going to start, need to have a change of heart again, to do my very best with the new challenges and attempts...it is going to have another stories to tell again..............=)
It is christmas season. What peace and lovely Christmas songs playing everywhere!!!
I love Christmas!!
Life of late
After came back from camp, i was sick and cough...quite a long time i don't have sick as i think that i am healthy enough...nevertheless, now i know, i still have to aware of my health...nothing is more important than it...darn it!! cough again...never mind la, at least this time of sick made me more treasure my health.
It's been the 6th day i came back from the camp..how time flies, today in the last week, i was still in camp, playing with the kids, listening to the talk, eating supper with the kids....woo...i was so missing the camp and the kids, it was so impressed and gave me so much sweet memories...LOL...wish to have a day to meet with them again, hope that they still remember me....haha...
Well, now, i am so eager to go shopping. Shopping bug is bitting me now...ouch....it is already 2 or 3 weeks i don't go shopping. haha...I have many things to buy. Refresh my wardrobe, even it is going to 'burst'..LOL... And, cut my hair. search a lot about short hair cut, wanna have a try..but, to put it bluntly, short hair is not suited me, maybe just cut to shoulder length la...
yawning....my bed is more attractive now....Good Night!!
New attempt
jungle tracking with children
naive
wanna ask something??
007?? haha...a caring and good teacher...
Guess, how old is this boy? 21?23? no, he is just 17 years old....
Big family!! Sayonara!!
反省。。。
听了妈说的话，原来现在两个弟弟这么放肆，这么的不听话。突然觉得，自己是一个多么自私的女儿，一个多么自私的姐姐。我是爸妈唯一一个的女儿。现在妈要找一个人诉苦都没有。如果我现在在家，至少我还能在她身边，陪着她，陪她面对一切。。。为何我总是这么自私，不会懂得付出！
省机票钱？！真的吗？只不过是一个借口不回家。剖白了，我只不过想逃离家，不想回到家总是面对家里的争吵。看到两个弟弟，我不禁心寒。很想让他们了解，不可以再这样下去了。。但总是有心无力。。。
当我决定不回家的那一刻，我可有想到爸妈？没有！只是一味的想，没回家应该没什么吧！哈！！你这个笨蛋！口说爱家人，可看你付出了什么！只会乱花钱，贪玩。。。除了这些，你还为家人做了什么?! 没了吧。。。反省吧。。。在外读书，心也变野了。即使是放假，也不想回家。家人，往往都是在最后。。。家，是心之所在，是力量的根源。没了家，你还能去哪里？！还有什么比家人还要重要的？
主啊！现在的我充满了罪，心中有很多苦毒。您要我们孝顺父母。但我没做到！我是何等的不孝。离家的我，不能照顾我的家人，主，恳求您，看顾我爸妈，加添我爸妈力量，让他们时时刻刻都开朗，快乐。。
树欲静而风不止，子欲养而亲不在。。你明白这句话，但为何还不珍惜与家人的团圆呢？到时后悔也是枉然。。。
★保健的最佳时间
- 刷牙的最佳时间 饭后3分钟口腔内的细菌开始分解食物残渣产生酸性物质，易腐蚀溶解牙釉质，使牙齿受到损害。因此，饭后3分钟是漱口、刷牙的最佳时间。
- 饮茶的最佳时间 饮茶养生的最佳时间是用餐一小时后。不少人喜欢饭后马上饮一杯热茶，这是很不科学的。因为茶叶中的鞣酸可与食物中的铁结合成不溶性的铁盐，干扰了人体对铁的吸收，时间一长可诱发贫血。
- 喝牛奶的最佳时间 因牛奶含有丰富的钙，睡觉前饮用对于中老年人可补偿夜间血钙的低落状态而保护骨骼。同时，牛奶有催眠作用，睡前饮前有利于睡眠质量。
- 吃水果的最佳时间 吃水果养生的最佳时间是饭前一小时。因水果属生食，吃生食后再进熟食，体内白细胞就不会增多。有利于保护人体免疫系统。
- 晒太阳的最佳时间 晒太阳养生的最佳时间是上午8至10时和下午4至7时。此时日光以有益的紫外线A光束为主，可使人体内产生维生素D，从而增强人体免疫系统的抗痨和防止骨质疏松的能力，并减少动脉硬化的发病率。
- 美容的最佳时间 皮肤的新陈代谢在24：00时至次日凌晨6点最为旺盛，因此晚上睡前使用化妆品进行美容护肤效果最佳，能起到促进新陈代谢和保护皮肤健康的功效。
- 散步的最佳时间 饭后45分钟至60分钟，以每小时4.8公里的速度散步20分钟，热量消耗最大，最有利于减肥。如在饭后两小时后再散步，效果会更好。
- 洗澡的最佳时间 每晚睡前来一个温水浴（35℃�45℃左右），能使全身的肌肉、关节松弛、血液循坏加快，帮助你安然入睡。
- 睡眠的最佳时间 午睡最好从13：00时开始，这时人体感觉已下降。很容易入睡。而晚上的睡眠时间以22：00时至23：00时上下班床为佳。因为人的深睡时间在24：00时至次日凌晨3时，这时人的体温、呼吸、脉搏及全身状态都已进入最低潮，人在睡后一个半小时即进入深睡状态。
- 锻炼的最佳时间 生理学家研究表明，在傍晚锻炼最为有益。原因是：人类的各种活动都受“生物钟”的影响，无论是体力发挥或身体的适应能力，均以下午戒接近黄昏时为最佳，此时，人的味觉、视觉、听觉等感觉最敏感，全身协调能力最强，尤其是心律与血压都较平稳，最适宜锻炼。
update
today just wanna write something about my life of late. well, it is really dull and just like playing videos, the same for everyday...woke up, eat breakfast, online, read newspaper, napping and eat again. Luckily i still have my favourite sport, swimming. otherwise, i really wonder what else i can do other than sit on sofa...think twice, if i go back to hometown, i will be the same too..then why i decided not to go home? i also wondering... if i am given the second chance, i will contemplate to go home..definitely!
i love Kenny G's melodies. His music is what a touching and smooth...i like to play his songs while writing blog and surfing net...an enjoyable moment too while listening to his songs..
Just to latest update, we are now out of 200..what 200?! just a number?! Be cautions!! Non of our local university was listed in top 200 universities of the world!! what a great dissapointment reading this news. It was just weird! It is a drawback of our nation education. Our gov still not taking actions to solve this problem. It is much more fed up when they blame on the grading and judging standard was different with the previous. Oh really?! it is fine that we are out of 200. But we should not find any excuses for our mistakes! our gov are educated and even the top-notch! why they don't know this such a simple principle? even a layman or a child know about it! haiz.....
Again, an imminent of inflation...we are desperating!! everything up up uppppppppp, but never be the note' value. oh man!! if continue like this, we all need to dye our hair to green lo....coz just then we can undergo photosynthesis and make our own 'food'...not need buy any food lo...This is a joke that i read from the newspapers. hmm...lets think about...it can be logic also...the raw materials for plant's photosynthesis are sunlight, water, material, chlorophyll (the green pigments in leaves). We have every raw materials already besides the chlorophyll. Easy la...dye our hair to green la...the only way out..then, when there is starvation, we still can make our own 'food' ...haha...what a load of crap...
need to be spending wise lo..cannot just simply spent the money....
that's all...=)
see, Qin in green hair!! (edited by Dave)
after exam is homesick...
how to continue to write my blog? i have left this post for days and don't know how to proceed...just found out that i have only 2 posts in October...quite few....less eager to write nowadays....ha...actually, sometimes don't find anything new to write...just prefer to let it there..
i had just finished my final exam and again, declared the end of a semester...Thanks God for guiding me all the ways... Dear Father, i had done my part, for the rest, i commit it to You, let You to guide me, let You to decide everything that is in Your favour..even the one is not in my liking...
ya, should be damn high after finished exam,, right? well, just like usual....even worst...my homesick is killing me, but it's a bit okay now...it was more miserable yesterday...=(
Many things happen in this sem...soul or happy, eveythings were ended...whether i like or not, there's no turning back...just i know, i was always protected by Dear God, He is always by my sides..He knew my need, always sent angles to help me when i am in need...how well-being i was..even just a small things, i was so thankful for His blessing...
i had gained a lesson. Love your enemies, love the one you hate, the one you don't like..you cannot expect everyone matched with your target, right? no, should be, never set any target to anyone, then, just that you won't get disappointed...everyone is from different backgound. How was their performance is non of your business. you should just take care of yourself...perform yourself well...
And, learnt to bite my tongue, think before utter some words. ya, frankly speaking, my words always misinterpreted by others. wondering why it is always happening...even my close friends also think like that. i didn't mean that actually..anyway, speak the words that is helpful and not revengeful...
now, food for thought, how to spend my long holidays wisely...i planned to Singapore actually for this holiday, to my desired land....but, haiz..pity to say that, it was ruined! No one accompany me for the long journey from Penang to Johor Bahru, and Dad is not allowed me to go alone..Dad, i am not worry about that at all...but i know your worries are reasonable...haiz...just left it to next....I sure got chance to go !!! =)
ok, no more Singapore dream, change to another planning... read more religous books, to improve myself...the best way to enhance my relationship with Lord..hha..again, my guitar! less to practise lately, as i met the bottleneck...always playing with the same techniques, quite bored with it...so, i planned to learn more from friends, hope that they are willing to teach me la..what else?! hmm.....still got many others which cannot write in details...
now, i was so blaming myself for decided not to go home during this holiday...i miss my Dad and Mom. Mom, Dad, sorry for cannot always by your sides and thanks for giving me so much loves and protection...Lord, let any mishaps and miseries fallen on my shoulder. i just wish my family to be happy foever...the only thing that i can do for them, just pray hard so there will be a day they can see the miracle of Lord!
try not be the worst, even cannot be the best. Life still need to move on...be adaptable...and enjoy it while i can...=)
i miss those days..
still remember that previously i was kept on complaining that i was encounting problems between my study and my service, but now,i want to say that i miss those days with church service...haiz...a bit contradict, right? somehow, i am feeling empty now, just figure out that, i have no more service in hand...a bit weird...life suddenly return to olden days, just life with study and study again...what a dull life...
just during the prayer meeting just now, i was sitting, leaning againtst the wall, looking at my friends' back, suddenly i was lost, thinking that, why i meet with those boys and girls? why they appears in my life? why we all sitting here? someday, when we sever and march towards different ways, will i meet with them again? i miss those days, we serve together and hand in hand, help each others...haiya you a....when you own it, you don't treat it to the best, now, saying shit only................=(
