What is the most important thing in my life?

It is quite a long ago since my last blog, figure out that i have less passion to write blog nowadays...Now, i gonna write sth that i apperceived in today's fellowship....What are the first notion came out when you saw this topic? When i saw this topic, i just blank, i don't know how to answer it....

"Let the Lord be the first in your life" "let Him be your root of wisdom" " let Him judge your life"...oh man, i am guilty that, i don't do that...Why, why i can't let Him be my first position, i always just put myself at first ranking...i hate that, and i am damn tired to let some burden be on my shoulder...Lord tells us you can commit your burden to Him. Yet, when i commit to Him, i still keep on asking, where is it, are Lord listen to me? i'm still impatient in waiting for His responses. huh..so contradict right? How to let Lord be my judge of life? This is the lesson of faith.......................

Lord, i am really tired with service now, and my focus was altered now...i can give a reason to myself that i don't want to go practice is because i don't like somebody, i am lazy to go...bla bla bla...i wish to pause a while, to recharge myself and get back the zealousness in olden days....Lord, i am in process of learning how to be sacrifice and not care for...if it is in Your liking, pls give me endurance to encounter it....Thank you Lord...